Hi all... Some weird things I would like to report (5-days post-op):

1) Keep dreaming about eating stuff I am not supposed to eat. Waking up in a panic thinking I screwed up.

2) Head hunger is rough. I am in an all inclusive resort right now, all alone, and I could order anything I want from room service... ARGH....

3) I have a constant headache. Not bad, but constant. I think it is due to lack of food.

4) I haven't seen the scale move too much. I have lost a total of 5 lbs, but haven't lost anything the last few days. I am using a different scale, so not sure how accurate it is.

5) My teeth and tongue feel weird. I am starting to notice a bit of a tastebud change, but nothing hugely noticeable yet.

6) I had an incident occur last night... I ordered my Soup from room service at 7:30pm and it didn't arrive until 11:30pm. When it did arrive, it was purreed instead of strained. By 12:00 I just called room service and told them to forget about it. Yeah, I know. it stinks and I spoke to the manager about that... the thing that was kinda weird is that I was all choked up about it and cried a little bit. I am NOT the type to do stuff like that over something minor. I wasn't even hungry and had plenty of juice. BUT this brings to light how your mental state is so closely tied to your physical state. Those of you that have been depressed post op should understand that your mind is reacting to the deprivation of your body. I thought it was an interesting observation...

7) I am getting a slew of advice on food from people.

8) Drain is out since Wednesday. Finally able to take a full shower today!

9) Reading this forum has given me a lot of expectations (was reading the NSV thread- it rocked!). I need to balance those expectations with how my body and my particular experience is going. I may no lose 100 lbs in 6 months... I have to understand this is a lifetime change and not a quick fix.

10) I still feel exactly the same as I did before. This surgery did not change me. I can imagine that once I am having to explicitly manage "eating" instead of just drinking, that I may see more of an effect, but this is just another tool right now.

Anyway, these are just some observations that I thought would be good to share.. Man, those food dreams are weird, too!!!

Later y'all,

Aimee

Post Op Day 14:

"Just because you can doesn't mean you should."

That's my observation. I ate two things that went down but in thinking about it, my body and mind are in accord: you are not ready. Even though they were reduced to mush, it just didn't feel right.

Bfast: I had 1/8 of a small sausage patty and ~1/2 scrambled egg (think holiday inn express). I didn't finish the patty because it was too tough to totally reduce to mush.

Lunch: 1 slice of hubbies quesadilla and some mashed potatoes. While the quesadilla was reduced to mush, it just mentally and physically didn't feel right. Next time, will stop at subway and get egg salad or their seafood salad. Portion wise, I didn't finish either and they went into lunch and a snack. Still have potatoes left even after snack.

For dinner, probably just having a shake. I am tired of eating actually!

Don't move too fast. I must eat slow and chew enough that I don't get the stuff y'all talk about but I can mentally see that I am moving light years too fast. Just doesn't feel right and don't want to grow overconfident!

Damn, this is tough!

For those of you tracking my progress, I am keeping a daily (or every other day) food log in the Pre and post Op diet forum. I document observations there, too.

Consider this my last posting on this thread... Thanks for all the support! I hope my diet log helps any new people. I hope it keeps me more accountable.