ahhh ----Im so scared, here i am on the first day of the rest of my life.

2 weeks to go (29th nov).

My pre op diet is mainly yoghurt and cottage cheese?

I have 4 kids and no one to help my husband while im in hospital for 4 days, so my mum is coming over from england to babysit - yay!

I feel so many emotions- including an anger with myself for not having the strength / will power to do it without surgery.

But really excited and very nervous - its almost like i feel its not really going to happen.

Help!!:thumbup1:

The emotional rollecoaster prior to surgery is not uncommon. :thumbup1: Why we continued to persecute ourselves for our "lack of will power" is kind of nuts--because obese people tend to overmanufacture Gherlin, the hunger hormone, we are hungry all the time. Trying to fight that without surgery is a never ending battle. We would have to literally starve ourselves indefinitely to be successful. It is our will power and determination that allows us to be successful in the short term with weight loss. Many of us have lost 50 to 100 lbs multiple times in our lives on "diets and exercise plans". However, we "fail and regain" what we have lost as soon as we allow ourselves to eat again--our metabolism works against us and our body prefers to store food as fat rather than use it.

Those are the reasons that sleeve surgery is such a great tool for us--without the gherlin, we don't feel hungry all the time. That allows us to change our relationship with food and actually eat to live rather than live to eat.

Keep posting and finding support on VST. You will be understood and supported here.

Thank you Norma. Well day 1 of my pre op diet was great - i can even have 250g of chicken.

Looking forward to the op a little more now. Im even thinking of what to pack.

thanks again

Dalite x

DaliteDesigns (love that name -- and your ticker too!) - Welcome to VST and congrats on deciding to have the sleeve surgery -- quit beating yourself up over not being able to do it yourself - you're probably like most of us here - you can lose the weight, probably have a lot of times, it's keeping it off that is impossible -- so let go of the what "IF's" or the "Whys" and look forward to your surgery as a new lease on life and a healthy mom for your children! Keep us posted on your journey!