Seems like the more weight I lose the fatter I feel. I believe it is because before the surgery I was in such denial about my obesity and had not really looked in the mirror at myself, especially neck down. So this renewed awareness has made me very self conscious. I know it will get better just a weird thought to process and makes it hard to be happy with my success so far.

Oh, and had my second fill yesterday. I've already developed a bad habit of wanting to "test" the fill. See if I can tell a difference or not right away! I think I have some degree of restriction with this one (4 mL in 10 mL band). The doctors office was like, wow, you are doing awesome.... and I said yeah, it is only because I am tracking every calorie and learned everything i needed to know from the LabBandTalk forum. Ha!

I'm still not exercising yet.... queen of the good excuses I am!

This is just as much mental work as physical, heading the right direction though.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend!

Oh, and I can't figure out how to do the before and after photos?

The brain is the last to get the message. It will come. As long as you are losing weight and/or inches, be happy! The system is working with you to get you to your goal! The head will catch up!

I also have a huge portion of my personal identity tied up in being the big guy (my father overheard a nurse in the maternity ward ask "who gave birth to the cow" while pointing at me).

I've decided to help myself adjust to the changes I photograph myself in approximately the same outfit and body position each week (in the same location of my house) and then watch the images in a slideshow on my computer. I'm hoping it will allow me to see and reinforce my progress while also clearly providing my sub-conscious with an affirmation that despite how the image changes it's still the same person.

I also have a huge portion of my personal identity tied up in being the big guy (my father overheard a nurse in the maternity ward ask "who gave birth to the cow" while pointing at me).

I've decided to help myself adjust to the changes I photograph myself in approximately the same outfit and body position each week (in the same location of my house) and then watch the images in a slideshow on my computer. I'm hoping it will allow me to see and reinforce my progress while also clearly providing my sub-conscious with an affirmation that despite how the image changes it's still the same person.

Great idea!!

well i quess its very hard to think of myself as thinner its like somedays i grab my upper stomach wont go down same as 47 lbs ago i keep doing exersice and sit ups its right about where my port is i quess i still have swallowing after 3 months you would think not but i have had fills and i think it makes me swollon there but yes i still feel fat i gained all this weight the past 15 years and its very hard to think my self thin

so even after losing 47 lbs i still feel over weight and fat omg what did i look like before well on the road to a better me inside and out !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! some days i just get down i wish i could post a pic but i cant get it to load right