Yesterday was a really bad bad day for me. I'm a wee bit stressed at the moment, as my daughter left two days ago with my hubby, bound for the US. I'm really tragic when it comes to being alone. She'll be staying there with my parents for a month. Longest I've ever been away from her. So anyway, they had a 24 hour layover in Tokyo. Earthquake (7.2) hit Tokyo yesterday morning, so me, being the over protective worry wart, freaked out lol. Got myself all worked up for nothing. They were fine and Jaz thought it was "way cool".

In the midst of all this though, I didnt realize that I was hungry all day yesterday. I had Breakfast (which I never do), lunch (and was able to finish it which I never do) and then snacked most of the afternoon. On the way home, I stopped at the grocery store to get some stuff to make a salad. Beside the checkout aisle I saw a bag of Doritos and thought, "One or two wont hurt", so I grabbed them. As I did it, I was telling myself to put them back, but I didnt listen.

I fixed my salad with a diced up smoked chicken breast, a big bowl of it, and managed to clean the bowl. I was still hungry. I had some Doritos (while again telling myself they were extremely bad) and I was still hungry.

Up until yesterday I've had a really good restriction. I'm not sure what's going on, as I've never heard of it disappearing overnight and my willpower is failing me at the same time.

Could it be the stress?? Wish I had more of an answer for you. You have come such a long way. Your daughter is fine and you are going to miss her like the dickens...but now could be a great opportunity to take some me time. Instead of being around food, go get a massage, pedicure and manicure. Do some wishful clothes shopping, go to the library and find a book you always wanted to read, anything, to occupy your mind and hands.

I've had days like that, where nothing seems to fill me up. Then in a day or two the regular sensation of being full on not much is back. Just stay calm and relax, everything will be normal soon.

And don't worry about your daughter! She'll be fine, and so will you.

Okay Jess.............what kind of Doritos? Plain, Nacho cheese, Cool Ranch, Salsa, etc. LOL

At times (most of the times), I also feel like I have no restriction whatsoever! I have to remind myself that I have a lapband!

Thanks guys! It just freaked me out yesterday and had me worrying that perhaps I've had a slip. I'll see how I go at lunch today.

Ray, they were Nacho Supreme ones, but shaped like lil Christmas trees lol - I was feeling festive. After sitting down with the bag, when I finally said, Okay enough! I filled the bag up with Water and tossed em lol. I knew if I just threw them away in the bag, I'd dig it back out later (like Miranda on Sex and the City with her chocolate cake hehe).

I'm just so not used to not feeling restricted. Fingers crossed, today will be heaps better.

Oh .. and I've just talked to Jaz .. she's safe and sound in LA and having heaps of fun already. My lil 7 yr old globe trotter lol.

Jess, stress can eat you up alive. I'm sorry your going thru this, and all I can say is hang on. Is TOM coming? that could have triggered something.

HUGS

Just an update - I had my doctor's appointment this morning. The whole week was pretty much the same - I felt like I had lost most of my restriction and could eat things that I couldn't eat previously (and alot of it lol). I ended up putting on 2 lbs this week

So the doctor checked for a leak, but all seems fine in that respect. He added another 0.2ml fill. We'll see how that does. Scares me a lil cause the last time I added 0.1ml, I ended up too tight lol .. fickle band! I have a script for a reflux medication so I'll get that filled just in case. I can always get 0.1ml taken out if it turns out to be too much.

Anyway, I asked him if restriction could be affected by stress and he said absolutely. He said it wasn't the band itself, but the esophagus can kind of tighten or loosen due to stress.

Have I said lately that I love my doctor? lol.. he's so patient with me and always takes the time to explain things, even drawing lil pictures (I'm a visual person so that helps). I often read horror stories of how some people have been treated by their doc's and it always makes me thankful.

Jess

i hope it all goes well with ur doc today