I share cuz its interesting to me......

this is what happens when food addiction dissappears (for me)

note: I lost my food addiction after 20 yrs of the worst obsession.... its gone now (3 months)

Once a month, I always shopped for the kids at a big store like walmart or winco.

It was a big deal... I didnt really notice how much of a BIG deal till now..

On my mind was kids kids kids kids.... its my duty, I must provide well..get all they need and want

Its all about the kids and what they want and need and will make them happy and show my ove and care for them.

Usually its a 3 hour ordeal, to get as much food for the kids for as little money and sure to get all I need, and look for new things and pick, decide, read lables, change mind, cant decide, get all kids goodies, check the list.... run back and forth....very serious, involved, my store!

I read receipt in car like a book and keep it like a prize in my purse.

Then all food had to be set at my feet once home so I could go through it and recall what we had and then I handed things to them to put away.

I was playing. I was molesting the food. SICK.

First time out (in this NEW not addicted to food condition)....to grocery shop for 4 kids..like every month....

Went to my beloved WALMART supercenter

I cruised in scooter.....feeling weird, different, not focused..

Now:

Here I am feeling weird....then I feel silly and giggling and funny..(not me at all)

All i care about is getting my Soup and juice and getting 'whatever' for the kids and out..

This massive thing has now become "whatever"

I think "so what if the kids run out of this or that or something is missing or the cheese is gone before the tortillas or the food is gone too soon...they'll cope. (before I saw it as a sin)

I didnt find all the kids special things. sweet and sour, jerkey and circus animals.. THIS was how I showed my LOVE??!!! Horrifying.....Just last month this was so important to me!

I struggled witht this cuz it seems selfish and not the ways of a loving/ providing parent..

I know MY kids who love food and eat it all, all day long, what and when they want, and cant imagine them going without such a luxery.

So how Can I feel so lax??

Simply... I no longer obsess over food... including theirs!

WOW

A:SP budgeting was my life with food and others...

NOW. I didnt care if i wasted money on food.. the "deals" were suddenly no biggie either

My weird and silly feelings came from the place a crazy food engorged mountain of a side show freak circus..(walmart)

It seemed silly

Deals and bins and this and that and food all over and its all so big and bright and stacked and packed and all around you.. scary and silly and Sooooooo NOT where I felt like I belonged.

Not anymore.... I guess, I cant help how it now felt..

Its just not me...

The next month:

What was fun and exciting and a big event to me... is now a chore.. thank god the highlight of my week isnt grocery shopping!

I send my kids with a list.. To a small grocery chain (like safeway) The add comes every week in the mail and I choose from whats on sale cuz we DO need to budget of course....

But crusing the food just not something I want to do.

My cuppords dont runith over, my fride is never full and we all eat fine.. MY KIDS have not complained, its as if they dont evren notice witch leads me to beleive all the foods I thought they depended on were all in MY head,

neat huh

loves

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Amazing transformation. Thanks for sharing the story, Nykee!

Megan

Phenomenal changes, Nykee. I really hope you're keeping copies of these notes somewhere you can get at them again if you need to. After a year or two of being banded, you may start to find yourself veering back into old habits, because the novelty of the way you feel will wear off. Old mindsets can and do come back, and a reminder of how this feels now will be a big help to you when that happens.

I'm so proud of you! :mad:

Thanks for sharing so much Nykee. I always enjoy your posts.

Nykee I went to the store yesterday and I didn't get the 14 donuts for $2. I was given steaks that were priced at 2.99 a pound and a $2 coupon and I was able to say no. Yeahhhh me. My basket was so empty I was wondering why was I there.

I really hope you're keeping copies of these notes somewhere you can get at them again if you need to.

>>>its all here. lol

After a year or two of being banded, you may start to find yourself veering back into old habits, because the novelty of the way you feel will wear off.

>>>>>>>OR just a few months..

Old mindsets can and do come back, and a reminder of how this feels now will be a big help to you when that happens.

>>>thanks,, and exactly why i am here posting...

I'm so proud of you!

>>>>>thank you.. I pray this is for real and for ever

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My grocery bill has dropped by almost 1/3. There is far less junk food in the house, even my husband is taking healthier foods to eat at work. I don't buy soda or chips at all anymore and my daughter hasn't even ask for them. We replaced chips with wheat thins and popcorn from the air popper. We are drinking fresh brewed decaf tea and propel or low sugar powerade. My daughter is happier and less cranky and she is sleeping better. My husband will drink soda if we go out but not at home and he takes gatorade to work. My little one had a plum for dessert last night and has asked for another one with lunch today. I am amazed at how much money we used to spend on fast food and junk. It has been a really long time since Mcd's crossed my lips and I plan to make it even longer. My favorite fast food is chipotle or baja fresh and it is usually black beans and a little sour cream for lunch. Anyone else find that they are saving a ton of money on food? ~Mandy