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Finally made it surgery set for August 23,2012. I seems like forever, and I never thought I would make it this far. I start my pre-op liquid diet on the 9th, pre-op doctors visit on the 17th. Wish me luck!!! I am so happy to start my new life journey.

I have completed 3 months of the 6 month supervised diet. I didnt do the best and managed to gain 15lbs but I have 3 months to lose the 15lbs and hopefully plus some. I checked in for my second doctors visit weight check and only have one more Doctor visit weight check which will be October 17th. I started the Medifast Diet to try and lose the 15lbs plus some. You eat 5 of their meals plus one lean (protein) and green (Veggies) meal. This is my second day and will jump on the scale next week. I chose this diet because they also have a bariatric diet plan for banded patients (Liquid Pre-Surgery diet and soft foods post surgery). I have attached my Pre-Surgery Pictures......No judgement...Right

I have a few things to get off of my chest today not to mention the 150 lbs. that I need to lose. As I sit here at my window seat desk, I can see my reflection staring back at me. It disgusts me to see the rolls of fat as I sit crunched in this office chair. My uniform shirts seem to shrink even though I wash them in cold water and hang them to dry. I have my fan blowing on my face because it is hot, (105-108 heat index today) but I would rather put a jacket on to cover up the rolls of fat because I don't want anyone seeing them. Like people can't look at me with or without a jacket and tell that I am morbidly obese right? Anyway, I just want to sneeze, blink or click my heals together and the weight be gone. I failed to mention that another thing that I am constantly worrying about while I sit in my chair at work. There are offic chairs for normal size people and office chairs for fat people. So who wants to seriously go to the office supply purchasing agent and say "I need a fat persons chair"? Not me. One day while sitting here I heard a loud pop. I instantly jumped out of my chair and examined it. Everything looked fine so I gently sat my large ass on the edge of the chair unsure of what had just happened. Suddenly, a loud noise that sounded like a gun shot went off drawing everyones attention to me ( I sit in a cube with 7 other people and none of them are FAT! I jumped up out of the chair and the spring mechanism had broken, stripped, gave out or just decided that it couldn't take my fat ass anymore . Oh yeah, I forgot to add that this chair was only 9 months old. So, daily I hold my breath and hope that it doesn't happen again before I can get this weight off. I am sure that no one else has ever had anything like this happen to them, RIGHT? : )

your are a beautiful person. so you gained . just start today doing better. drink alot (use crystal light or water) eat sf popsicles or sf jello and just do what you have to do. its a mental game. they want you lose weight to shrink your liver. so do try to do your best. am here if you need me.

I have my surgery scheduled for Aug 20 -- and my mind is going through a strange emotional cycle. I almost feel like I am in mourning for my old way of eating. As I savored a heavily frosted cinnamon roll today I didn't feel guilty -- it almost felt like a "good bye kiss" Sweet sadness. I seem to have unusual cravings - like a last wish kind of cravng. I know where you are coming from Randi!!! Kudos to both of us for doing something for ourselves though. Blessings.

So I am exactly 4 months out, I have lost 68 lbs since surgery, totaling a 133 lb loss since Jan 2011. I was 326 on 3/26/12 and I am now at 258lbs and loving it so far. Something that's been bugging me at the back of my mind though, is that SO many people ask me if I could of just done this myself. And I always say no I couldn't of. But as I really think about it, if there was a way to teach me the lifestyle and mindset changes that have occurred because of this surgery, then yes I could of done it without this surgery. Think about it fellow sleevers! Almost all of you know that this surgery is NOT a fix, it is a tool. It teaches us how to listen to our body for when we're truly hungry vs. thirsty or truly hungry vs. behavioral eating. But what if there was a way to take that piece and teach it to people so that they wouldn't need the surgery! I know that there are thousands of books and materials out there of people trying to do just that. But 9/10 the books are written by thin people but no big person wants to hear how hard being overweight is and how to lose weight from a thin person. And the Pre-op me had "listened" to the dronings of "know when you're full, know when you're hungry, know when you're thirsty". But what if there was a way or a program to actually teach people these things? I think it could "cure" obesity. But I've racked my brain over and over and even have tried to teach these things to my husband and mother but it doesn't click. Just like it didn't click with the Pre-op me. So I wonder and keep wondering these things and how I could make a difference in other people's lives. Anybody ever think about these same things?? On another note, previously I had entered a blog post on SF jello pudding mix and greek yogurt and I finally tried it! And it's good, it makes a consistency of like a cheesecake. I thought I'd make some for breakfast and boy was that a mistake. It was just too sweet for me in the morning. But I guess if you want a high protein snack in between meals and you want to cure a sweet tooth that is definitely the trick. I used a SF Vanilla pudding and my vanilla greek yogurt. It tasted so close to cheesecake that I bet if you bought the SF cheesecake pudding and mixed it with the GY, that you would get an actual cheesecake! There was a ricotta cheese recipe that I tried as well that I found on this website. It was good, but I made some changes to it to incorporate some vegetables. The recipe originally calls for a cup of ricotta mixed with egg and italian herbs. I did this, spread it on the dish. But instead of topping it with marinara and cheese, I made a Green Giant creamed spinach in the microwave, and poured it over the top of the ricotta and then topped with some cheese.. It tasted something like a vegetable white sauce lasagna. Just a little of this went a long way, I think there are still leftovers in my fridge! Well off for now! Talk soon!

your so funny soon u'll be one of the skiny ones too

Good job! You look great! I'm only down 0.6 lbs this week. I'm in the stall from hell. I've only lost 4 lbs this whole month. I've been working out a lot this week, I'm probably not eating enough to sustain my workouts. I hope I'm not stalled for long. I still want to lose 40 more lbs.

Wow. I could've just about written that SAME post around January!! You really do obsess just trying to figure out what life will be like post op. Taking a break is a great idea, especially the week before surgery. Limit your time on here or you will freak out on what people are writing. Go flush your brain of it all for a while. That's a good idea. If you've decided surgery is right for you, then don't let any negativity from anyone ruin that for you.

Planning is my biggest tip. Plan what you will eat each day and stick to it. And be sure to get some exercise in there. In doesn't have to be a gym membership or some sort of full on workout. Cycling, dancing, walking and swimming all work for me.