Hello everyone, I am a newbie J
I couldn’t ride the rollercoaster at Disney World with my kids (July 2012). How humiliating to have to exit the ride because I was too big. How humiliating was the remainder of the day having to use the “check to see if you can fit” seat before standing in line.
With eyes wide open, I now accept that my obesity is preventing me from living my life to its fullest. It’s more than just wanting to look good in my clothes, it about having full mobility, and control of my body. I sit here today amazed at how it has slowly disappeared as the years have passed by.
I begin my 6 month (actually 7) physician supervised weight loss to satisfy my insurance requirements, then on to a barrage of test as you aware. Instead of looking at each visit as an obstacle, I am going to view them as small successes on the way to reach my goal(s).
Although I am scared of the unknown, I am excited to be doing something to improve the quality of my life. I am glad to know I can pull on the experience and encouragement that can be found here. Thanks to everyone who has had the courage to share their experience as I embark on my own. Traci aka mykidzmom10k
Well, I'm still waiting. Going to my 2nd NUT next week. Don't think I've lost weight but don't think I've gained either. I should start posting what I eat about this time.
Yesterday I had protein shakes for breakfast and lunch then had a chicken roll at Costco. I know the chicken roll is bad. Then I had some samples at Costco - most I guess were not bad, but I'd already had too many carbs from the chicken roll. Then I got home and had the roasted chicken from Costco and "Texas Caviar" and then 2 sugar free Fudgecicles (80 cal) and then blew it by having a whole 3 1/2 servings of 94% fat free popcorn. I guess that isn't too bad except for the chicken roll and the popcorn.
That sounds like good about 60% of the time. From what I hear I should aim to eat right at least 80% of the time. Will try to do better.
Today I started with the Premier Protein shake again (30 g Protein, very few carbs).
Yesterday something else happened, I was coming home and there was this guy in the parking lot of our apartment. I saw him and smiled at him but since I hadn't seen him before I wondered who he was. He approached me very timidly, he said that he came to me because I smiled at him and most of the time white women don't smile at black men. He told me he was looking for a friend of his that he thought lived there and had been waiting a while and needed help. He said he had just gotten out of the hospital and needed help getting back home from Houston to San Marcos where he has family. He had been living just a little while in Houston and didn't know Houston too well and then he got sick. When he got out the family he had been staying with had gotten evicted and he didn't know where to find them. He didn't seem like a drug addict or anything. I gave him $5 and since he said he was hungry I gave him 2 of the Premier protein shakes. Hope he gets enough money to make it back to San Marcos. Maybe I should have gotten my novio and put him on the bus. I've kind of started thinking that way about helping people since I saw the movie Play It Forward.
Five weeks ago, banded and hopeful. Today, I'm down 23 lbs and so happy about that! Not a super fast loss, but I'll take slow and stead and PERMANENT any day over fast and yo-yo! I'm finding that summer time is the most challenging time for me - although there are many fresh fruits, veggies and healthy options out there at this time of year, for me and my husband, there are many social engagements including barbecues, outdoor concerts, farmer's markets, weddings, and other really wonderful events.
The events for me are not a challenge, and I'm finding that the food at the events is not the problem, but I am one to enjoy a glass or two of wine or a cocktail with friends at these events. While I'm still losing, I'm thinking that I'd do myself a bigger favor if I stuck to non-alcoholic beverages and watch the weight come down faster. But like I said above, it's not all about losing it fast - I am learning a new way of living right now, and if that life involves an occasional cocktail or glass of wine, so be it. This week has been full of festivities related to a dear friend getting married tonight. I haven't exercised as much because work has been insane busy and we've had engagements every night this week. But isn't that what life is all about? Some weeks are busier than others, it's all about having balance and taking care of myself. I feel like I've been doing a pretty good job in that area. Will I have a glass of wine tonight at the reception? YEP!
My daughter turned 18 on Thursday and headed out to Denver (about 4 hours away) for the weekend. As life would have it, she ended up in a fender bender, wanting to come home, not sure about her future move to Denver for school, and so upset (poor baby!) My old mode would have been to hit the pantry since I couldn't be right there to help her. But this time, (luckily her dad is over there), I was able to deal with the problem, feel the emotions I was having, and not stuff them down with a bag of chips. I just talked them out, and I felt better than the food would have made me feel. Again, life happens.
So the ups and downs can still happen without dousing them in food - I am learning a whole new way of being, a new way of dealing, and I feel good that so far I've been able to take on stress (good and bad stress) in a healthy way.
Hope all of you out there are doing well, remember it really is a JOURNEY and our bands are helping us physically manage hunger while we learn to deal with the other habits and head issues that have made us obese. It is so much easier to understand old patterns, look at them for what they were and change them when I'm not constantly starving. I LOVE MY BAND!!!
My best - D
Hi Everyone,
I have been out of action on the forum because of a family crisis. Everything seems to be returning to normal at last, and I am back with my computer. (I really missed it).
As you all know, I am a very slow loser but am very happy to report that I have gone down another 2.5 lbs. This means I have lost 25lbs since my operation (that is 16 weeks ago). Overall that works out at 1.5 lbs per week. Which is not too bad I suppose. I find it difficult because I lost most of it in the first two weeks and the rest in little bits. The main thing is I have lost that 25 lbs and it is never coming back. Hooray.
I saw my doctor recently and he is delighted with me, as my bloods are all wonderful, liver and kidney functions are excellent, cholesterol is way down (3.3) my diabetes is well under control with half the medication I was on (hopefully as the weight goes down so will the rest of the medication) The only thing that is still a problem is the water retention. (this is what is slowing the weight loss according to the Doc). So generally everything is tickety boo.
I am still losing inches and have lost another 2.5 inches off my waist, so again things are good. BUT, there is always a but isn't there! I am so envious of everyone else out there who seem to be losing massive amounts of weight week in week out. I try to stay positive, but it is so hard when all I read is people only three or four weeks out who have lost more than I have already. I know it is pathetic, but that is how I feel. I also know that without the op I would have already gained most of that weight back by now, so I know I made the right decision and am really pleased with what I have achieved so far. I guess I am just feeling a bit low and sorry for myself.
My husband is and has been a wonderful support to me through all this and keeps on reminding me of how much fitter I am and how much more I can do now. So I know I should just suck it up and get on with it, but sometimes I just need to whine and moan and let it all out.
Ok, funnily enough I feel a bit better just getting that down on the old computer! I have improved my fitness levels almost 100 % and have started using the extra step piece to my wii fitness board when doing step aerobics. At first I thought I wouldn't be able to do it as I have a terrible fear of heights and that is incredibly high (for me). However, I persevered and apart from a few problems with balance at that height at first, I am managing pretty well. (Not quite rocket fire but I am getting there)
I think I am beginning to need new clothes. My bra's still fit ok but my knickers are starting to get very big. As you know, I took in all my skirts a good ten inches so they are all ok at the moment. My t shirts are starting to hang over my shoulders so I really need to replace those. I gave away my good coat and jacket as they were both way too big to wear. I guess I will have to bite the bullet and actually go shopping. (I have always hated clothes shopping and am not looking forward to it at all). I am going on holiday in August so will need some new stuff by then. I will let you know how it goes.
Regards Phoenix
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so i'm new to this whole bloggind thing, but I'm sitting here stewing over this whole pre op diet. my surgery date is set for July 23rd and i have been on my diet for 3 days now. i understand that the diet is to help shrink the liver, give you a taste of what's to come, and so on and so forth....but COME ON ALREADY! 25 years of being obese and do you really think i can give up food for 2 weeks......grrrrr! I want this so bad(surgery), but am completely frustrated at this point. food is definitely a mental issue for me. it's my best friend and i really think i need a behavioralist..... I am an extrememly self aware person, and i realize i am an emotional eater, but man this pre op diet is way harder than what i thought it would be. my diet is as follows: 2 sugar free instant bkfsts, 2 1/2 servings of skim milk, 3/4 c steamed veggies, and 3 medium pieces of fruit. that is all i can have in any given day...... i have failed quite a few times, but i at least tried to keep it mostly protein and very small portions when i did.
one issue i am having is my job, i am the boss, so i am working 3rd shift(due to being short staffed) while trying to sleep during the day and take care of 3 kids(needless to say i don't sleep!) then i'm moody and grouchy and OF COURSE i want food! so by the time midnight rolls around, idk if i'm supposed to be starting a new day or logging what i just ate as supper...... ugh! and to top it off i had to make 3 dozen cookies tonite for our residents lunches...and wouldn't ya know it, i ate a cookie.....this is HARD! and i'm not a quitter, but this sucks!!
i have completely quit smoking, i quit drinking pop, exercise doesn't even seem daunting, but i cannot get rid of the control food has over me! please tell me i'm not alone in this!
Im headed down to San Diego Monday morning, surgery tuesday morning with Dr Garcia. Yesterday I hit the panic button. Im going through so many emotions its nuts! I havent done great on my pre op diet, today was my best day so far, 3 days left.. jeez its coming quick! Im as ready as im gonna be, so lets get this show in the road! I still havent told most people and my family, my hubby is the only one who knows. I told most people that im taking a class in San D. My mom was asking me about the hotel, etc lol I was having a really hard time lying to her but I didnt crack. I would never hear the end of it!
I'm trying to mentally prepare to let go of emotional eating. I know that the lap band is a tool so I'm grateful for that.
How do you all deal with emotional eating?
How do you tackle going out with friends to try a new restaurant or just to socialize?
I'm really looking forward to truly savoring my food. I hate to say it, but I still want to be a foodie.
I just want to be a much healthier and saner foodie.
I've heard of people loosing their taste for some of their favorite foods with the lap band.
Unfortunately, my worst enemy is butter, cream and sugar. Oy vey.
But you know what? I'd still like to enjoy those just in a very modified manner.
I'd like to look forward to them as a treat. I know that now, it will be up to me to really "get my mind right".
So, I'm mad at my brother Kevin and in response to being mad I stuff 2 chicken nuggets down my mouth quickly. Stuffing my face made me sick (nausea and heartburn). Having to face issues directly is such a pain in the ass but I'm going to have to learn how to feel angry with out hurting myself.
Somehow, writing about my struggle with my emotions in this blog helps me to understand my destructive behavior. Maybe understanding how stuffing my face is harmful to me now will help me correct the behavior. I hope so.
I have problems soothing the frustration I feel when I'm angry. I just don't know what to do with the feelings so I try to make them go away by eating. That strategy is not going to work anymore, but I want an easy way to deal with the anger and frustration. Hiding from emotions -- concentrating on the food instead of the feelings--has always seemed to be the easiest thing to do. Surgery has made that strategy almost as unpleasant as the emotions themselves.
When I'm angry, I feel like I need to act. The actions that first come to my mind(hitting, screaming, etc) are not acceptable. Eating used to be an enjoyable way to comfort myself. Anger and frustration reqire my immediate attention and I tried to calm myself by what was always immediately available--Food. I have to learn how to respond to my anger and frustration in a positive way. (DUH) So much easier to say than to do.
I have been lucky enough to work for a company that helps their employees with health checks made available on site, comprehensive and affordable health insurance plans to chose from and healthy meal choices available on site. My employer even make the healthier meal choices more affordable! Well today I had a yogurt for breakfast and when I went to get lunch they were already breaking down the salad bar and all their prepackaged salads were gone. I had gone to get some soup (always two choices, the regular stuff and a "your health your way" soup choice)and that was gone too. I could have waited and left site but that would have led to some bad choices so I opted for chicken fingers. Ok and there were some fries on there too. Took my meal upstairs to my cubicle and start reading some online stuff. So the chicken breading is thick enough to peel off which I do because OMG its as heavy as cement when I hear a voice behind me say, " Do you really think you should be eating that?". Its my boss and I am mostly irritated than embarrassed (although some of that feeling is there too). I stammer an expanation about removing the breading on the chicken and I cant believe that I was explaining my meal choices to him and then found some other subject to bring up.
I am annoyed. Mostly because he knows that I had this surgery because I needed to get the time off and he wasnt going to give it to me. He said that it wasnt for emergency or medical reasons, and that the surgery was cosmetic, which in hindsight is wrong since our insurance would have never covered it unless there was a medical reason for it. Im annoyed because this is like the second or third time that he has scrutinized my meals. My boss is a very healthy man that eats like a bird , for health reasons, I have assumed, and maybe he means well but even my SO has never made a comment like that to me!!
And maybe my SO should be making those kind of comments to me to help me stay on the straight and narrow, but what it comes down to is that the whole point of me not trying to tell the world I did this (WLS) was to not give everyone an instant opportunity to turn into the food police!
This lapband is supposed to be my food police, not the casual observer that has no input and nothing to gain from my success or failure. I can understand why some people are hesitant to tell their families, friends or coworkers about their new life, because some people think that knowing it gives them a right to comment on your actions! For some, being overweight is already enough of a judgement that is being passed on to you. Someone knowing and watching your every move (or lack of movement, lol) can feel like you are under observation, because like it or not folks, watching people fail seems to be an entertaining pastime for many in our country. If it wasnt, reality shows wouldnt be so successful.
Anyway- done with my rant. I know I have met my calorie quota for the day (and then some) but Im not beating myself up because I know my exercise level and how much fuel I needed to burn to make my day a successful day. Comment if you have experienced food police since you made the decision for WLS.
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On June 20th I was unbanded. Leaving me with a checklist of emotional setbacks. I am working through them. At this point in my journey I have no idea what path I am going to take but I hope to share my decisions with you. I was banded May 2009. Lost all my weight in eight months, a POSTER CHILD for the lapband and then after two years it started to go downhill. I hope my story blesses you in some way and helps you on your WLS path.
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Surgery is over...and without complication. I wasn't scheduled until 2pm and it was nearly 6pm by the time I settled in my room. And by settled I mean, writhed in pain, close to tears, trying to sleep so my discomfort didn't drive me crazy. It was 10pm when I insisted that I try to get up and go to the bathroom. I figured laying there wasn't "getting it done" so might as well try something different. I had read on various forums how important walking was to ease the gas pains. Finally by 2am I had a handle on the pain. I give credit to the morphine and the walking. I diligentley walked every 1-2 hours (and asked for pain meds atleast every 4) and by morning felt like a new person. A sore person, but new nonetheless. I had my UGI, passed it, and then got to drink a protein shake. I was scared to death. I didn't want to take to big of swallows or drink too much too fast. Also it hurt, I had awful gas pain when I drank. I finished most of it...enough for the nurse to consider me "good to go." So last night I got to sleep in my bed. :sigh: And sleep I did. And when I woke up at 5:30am, I felt awful. I was behind on my pain meds and I hadn't walked all night. After 2 hydrocodones and a few laps around my yard (yeah, I'm now the crazy lady that wanders around her yard really early in the morning), I felt good again. I've walked all day, kept up on my meds and followed the liquid diet exactly and overall I feel pretty good. I still seem to have a fair amount of gas. I'm ready for a night of sleep and see how tomorrow goes.
225......I have stopped obsessing as it is a holiday after all.Also the hair must fall out,what can I do to stop it anyway? I am happy about the weight as we eat out a lot but I am being as smart as I can be with my choices.I have a bad cold and am drinking all kinds of meds (i never noticed before how much sugar the bronchodilator/cough mixture I take actually contains..4g per 5 ml and I take 15ml 3 times a day)
Anyhoo,Im a happy camper tonight.
xxo
ok so had my fill and honestly it didnt hurt it was a weird feeling tho!!! lol for sure. Im so hungry!! i havent lost much since surgery and im having issues finding the right foods for me because im throwing up alot. i stay away from bread andpasta and anything sticky but it still sticks at times! Chicken has become my friend!!lol i go in next week for a fill its a definate NEED. i wanna loose more weight, working out only goes so far! wish me luck
Well it has been a couple of months and I did some measurements today.
Chest - 41 (-2)
Waist - 37 (-3)
Abdomen - 49 (3.5)
hips - 49 (-4)
left thigh - 27 (-2.5)
left calf - 15.5 (-1)
Total of 16 inches lost. I REALLY need to start lifting some weights because I am flaaaaaaabby!!
I'm just wondering how soon after the surgery do you even look toward intimacy? I'm not forseeing any time in the near future me wanting to go there, but how does the tide turn?
As a female I don't find the stitches particular working for my mojo, nor the challenge of learning to eat and adjust to my new stomach. My husband on the other hand is not looking to be 6 weeks or more out of the saddle as he says.
Ladies, how soon after surgery can I realistically anticipate getting my mojo back!
Guys, how about you? What are you thoughts/feelings on this matter. Post Op, were you raring to go quickly or did it take several weeks or months to get back in the saddle.
Just curious and concerned.
3 weeks left omg it's going by fast. I am starting to get a little nervous about going to Mexico. I've done all my research and have chosen a great DR. but it's still scary. I'm trying to think only about the positive changes that are to come in my future. Start my preop diet in a week. 8/7/12 here I come!!!!!
Well it is Friday and I have been doing the liquid diet for almost 2 weeks. I have lost about 14 pounds which is great but I am tired of the protein shakes. I am wanting real food and it is rough drinking only sweet protein shakes. I wish I would have gotten some unflavored so I could hide them in soups, oatmeal etc.
I have worked in a couple cans of soup over the couple of weeks but that is the only cheating I have done. I am very proud of myself for being able to stick to this since I really didn't think I would be able to do it.
Nervous does not even explain how I feel about Monday. I just want everything to go well!
Jumping in with both feet!
Good morning everyone! I am 3 days from being sleeved and getting really excited! I am ready to get this journey going into full swing. I have been on my pre-op since 7/2/12 and going good for the most part. I am finding it hard to get all six of my protein shakes in - usually about 9 or 10 before I get the final one in! Also having trouble getting my water in. Some days I do fairly well, and others are horrible. I just get busy with the kiddos and taking care of the house that I just don't do it. I have lost 13lbs since July 1st so that makes me happy, but can't help but wonder if it would be more if I was getting that last shake in earlier or if I was getting all of my water in? Any thoughts on this?
Looking for good tips/advice/and take-alongs before I go to the hospital on Monday. What made your hospital journey easier for you? What would you have taken/not taken? I look forward to reading your suggestions and tips.
Good bye for now.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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