I have no idea what it’s like to be “normal” size, and I’m getting kinda scared about it. I don’t know why, and it seems really dumb to me, but now that I’m so close to my surgery date and losing like crazy on this liquid pre-op diet, the possibility of being “normal” sized is becoming more real to me. I can already see a change in my face and my body, and it’s kind of freaking me out.

I have never been anywhere close to ideal weight. Even in my preschool photos, I was very chubby. I remember even in elementary school having to shop in the plus section. I’m guessing my most “normal” weight was in 9th grade I was about 200lbs, but still, that was very overweight, I wore size 18/20.

So, anyone else in my boat, never been at a healthy weight? Anyone else nervous? Don’t get me wrong, I’m excited about being able to do things I haven’t been able to in a long time, like ride things at the amusement park, and things I’ve never been able to do like go on a plane without the extender, or buy clothes without having to go to Lane Bryant or Fashion Bug. Hell, for a while I couldn’t even shop at those places because I was too big, nearly 400lbs and had to shop at Catherines or buy clothes online! I should be down right excited, and I am, but, at the same time something about the whole thing has got me nervous.

If you would have asked me a month ago I would have said surgery I would like to have tomorrow. After a few days of internet research I am getting nervous. I think because my consultation is next week. I want the success but if I fail it will be me and my own downfalls not the food. i too am very nervous about seeing the me without the excuses. I am excited to think of clothes that fit and not hang over my body. This is the first time in as long as I can remember that I am putting myself first. I need to do this for me. Hopefully the insurance will cover it.

If the insurance doesn't cover it, get a loan and do it anyway!! It will change your life, and maybe it will have a better chance of transforming you if you actually have to pay for it.... Worked for me........... Best of luck!!!!

my extended family is trying to talk me out of it and have me cancel my date but I don't know...HELP!

for my four boys,

Your family are worried about you and I can understand that but you should make the desicion that is best for you, not what makes them happy. You have taken the first and hardest steps by making the appointment you should follow through with what you think is best for you and your four boys. from my perspective if I give in to my family I wil still be here in another 12 months time probably weighing more than I do now and still desperatly unhappy, but if I follow my heart in 12 months time I will be on the way to the me I was always supposed to be.

Good luck with your decision.

for my four boys,

Your family are worried about you and I can understand that but you should make the desicion that is best for you, not what makes them happy. You have taken the first and hardest steps by making the appointment you should follow through with what you think is best for you and your four boys. from my perspective if I give in to my family I wil still be here in another 12 months time probably weighing more than I do now and still desperatly unhappy, but if I follow my heart in 12 months time I will be on the way to the me I was always supposed to be.

Good luck with your decision.

I agree with this 100%. If you spend your life pleasing others, you will not only make yourself unhappy, you will never succeed in making them happy. It is a purely selfish decision, on one hand but we deserve to do at least one positive thing for us.