Im really seroiusly considering getting a slight unfill right now for a number of reasons. and before i go much further. I love my band and would don't wanna go back to where i was 6 montths ago. Not now, not ever.

1. i've been having a lot of acid reflux the last week.

2. right now i love the way i look in clothes. but i'm not too happy naked.

3. i've been working like crazy lately. i mean crazy like i worked 90 hours last week/ most weeks i've been doin like 65 or 70. between work and my family i don't feel like i've been making a true effort to eat right and have been eating way too many slider foods lately just because i'm busy and they're easier in a hurry. I've also been PBing way more than i think is healthy.

4. my daughter is 16. she's not heavy but she's a curvy girl at arounf 136. I think seeing me drop so fast is starting to bother her. She is a beautiful girl and the light of my life. Well she's gained the usual 5-10 pounds most teens do over the summer.Recently she's been talking about taking diet pills to take it off. which i absolutely forbid by the way. I"ve lost like 40 pounds this summer while she's gained and she says all the time how proud she is of me but i know its bothering her. and happy as i am i'd cut off my arm before i'd hurt her or contribute to her having an eating disorder.

5. because i've worked so much my exercise is no where near what it should be. Probably why i hate my body so much right now. I've had a long talk with my daughter about the proper way to lose weight and we are starting couch to 5K together tomorrow. my kids are the main reason i wanna get healthy so i think its important to focus on being healthy and break some of the negative cycles i learned from my mom.

6. My boyfriend has been wonderfully supportive. We sarted dating about 2 months before i was banded. He's never made 1 negative comment about my loss. he says i'm beautiful and sexy no matter what i weigh. He's always treated me like a princess. But i have to think it's weird for him at times when physically i'm so different then the girl he 1st met in such a short period of time.

7. right now sometimes i look and i just don't recognize myself. And its a scary thing. Yes i'm happy bring banded but it's just so weird. My body image is so off sometimes. I was out with some girlfriends last night and they were all carrying on about how thin i am. I told them they were nuts. to prove my point i askrd my one girlfrind how much she weighed. Shes very thin to me. Well i figured by showing everyone how much more i weighed then her it would shut them up. Well guess what? I only out weigh her by 2 pounds. my body image is so off at times i can't grasp my real size right now.

So i may sound whiny. And i know its a problem a lot of people would like to have. But i think for now it's time to let not only me but the people i love catch up to the dramatic change i've made in the last 6 months. the past few months i've been treating my weight loss like it's a sprint to goal and it's just not the right attitude. I got the band to be healthy for life not to get skinny as quickly as possible. So for all the reasons i've listed i'm gonna schedule an apt with my doc and get a slight unfill. i think it;s the right thing for now. So to anyone who reads this thanks for listening to the early AM rant of a confused insomniac. Life can be crazy. I never have and probably never will meet most of you in person. But i have to say so far some of my LBT friends have been some of the best and most supportive i've ever met. Thanks guys

Edited August 30, 200916 yr by JENNIFER7375

thanks for all your concern guys. I went for an upper GI today then to see my doc. I wasnt slipped thank god. but my doc said i was way too tight and swollen and that he was surprised that i'd been able to keep any solid food down at all.He also said it was good that i came in because i was tight enough i was at risk to do some serious damage to my band. So ended up having 1cc of Fluid taken out. He scheduled me to come back in a few weeks. He said he'd see me sooner and take out more if needed or to put back if i started to gain. So all in all i'm pretty happy with my decision to see my doc. I think i did the right thing. i know i've been eating way too many slider foods the last few weeks due to being too tight. So now i wanna take the time to start eating better. if i do things the right way i think i can still cont to lose.And again thanks for all your covcern. Right now i still feel like a bit of an overtired emotional train wreck. But i rhink i'm heading in the right direction.

I went for a reconsult and another seminar last night... UCSD... I am so pleased with the professionalism and the information... great long term team to work with.

Any way I read in some of the material they gave us that Acid reflux could be brought about by an over tight band. I am glad they caught it early and you gave them the opportunity to check you out. I am sure you feel better already.

Hey guys just wanted to update you guys on how the last months been. I am feeling great. No reflux problems at all since the unfill and i've managed not gain back any weight. I really consider myself at goal right now. I'm wearing size medium or even small tops. I'm in a size 6-8 in jeans (mostly 6's!!) my 16 year old daughter and i are now in the same clothes. when i first started this journey i decided i wanted to be a size 10 and consider myself at goal. I honestly didn't think id be able to achieve that. well i've exceeded that. Im starting to adjust more to the image in the mirror. Sometimes I still cant get over the change in me. People refer to me as skinny all the time. my work schedule still sucks but thats just life. i have an apt with my surgeon tomorrow i may do a slight fill maybe just .25cc or .50cc at most. thanks so much for all of your support and concern. All through this journey when no one else understood what i was going through my LBT friends always had my back! thanks so very much