I hope that I'm able to be healthy ever after or at least for a long, long, long time.

I hope that my 5 year daughter never struggles with her weight as I hope to be a great role model.

I hope that I feel sexy again. It's been awhile:blush:. I hope that confidence makes life with hubbie even better than it is.

I hope that I get to shop in a regular store for clothes!! Adios Lane Byrant, I don't want to need you anymore!

I hope for:

- A hot husband!

- The ability to get pregnant - so long Polycystic Ovaries!

- Not to die of a heart attack at 40 like both my parents!

- To feel sexy and confident and for my weight not to be the BIGGEST thing about me, the preceeds all other things and defines me to everyone (including myself). I want to be the "pretty loud girl" rather than the "fat loud girl" or even just the "loud girl" would do me fine!

- I want to RUN!!!!!!!

Ling- I want to run too. Though I was just diagnoised with arthritis in my right knee. I don't know that I'll ever run comfortably.

- being comfortable in my own skin

- gaining confidence in myself back

- not always feeling self conscious

- feeling like I "belong" when hanging out with skinny friends

- not grunting when getting up off the floor

- being attractive to my husband and actually wanting to have sex without hiding under the covers

- shopping for clothes - wearing something I like and not b/c it covers up my fat

- looking in the mirror and being proud instead of disgusted

- not sweating all the time

- crossing my legs

- happiness

I hope that I get to shop in a regular store for clothes!! Adios Lane Byrant, I don't want to need you anymore!

AMEN!

More goodbyes to:

Sweating

Heavy breathing

Thighs rubbing together

PCOS

Granny panties

Snoring

Sensible shoes

Hello to:

Shopping at Macy's or any other normal store for that matter

Wearing my wedding ring again (doesn't fit right now)

High heels

Joining a gym

running my first 1/2 marathon with my friends

Can't wait!

I am doing my damndest to lose weight so that I am:

• able to move around more easily and to feel more comfortable sitting, standing, walking, etc.
  
• not needing to make an effort to get up from a chair, from the bed, etc.
  
• able to throw the basketball around with my niece and nephews and not get winded right away
  
• able to get down on the floor and play with my 3-year old nephew (and the new baby on the way)
  
• able to climb a couple of flights of stairs and not feel puffed out at the top
  
• able to ride my bike around the park without difficulty and without needing to feel self-conscious
  
• feeling more energetic
  
• more comfortable sitting in an airplane
  
• more comfortable sitting at concerts, the theatre, the footy, etc
  
• not encroaching on other people's territory when sitting on a plane, in a theatre, at the footy, etc. and therefore not having to feel bad when they look at me with that "you're disgusting" looks on their faces
  
• able to keep up with others when walking somewhere in a group
  
• able to get that exhilarated feeling when I dance and dance and dance
  
• not having to dread the next school reunion, family reunion, family photo day, etc
  
• able to play 18 holes of golf with friends
  
• snoring less and getting all the health benefits that follow as a consequence
  
• not getting swollen feet each time I fly anywhere
  
• going to live a longer life
  
• able to cut my toenails without difficulty
  
• able to stand and prepare a meal for friends and do the washing up without getting a sore back
  
• able to tie my shoelaces without effort
  
• not having to go to the fat people's section/shop to buy clothes
  
• able to wear high heels and still feel my feet and toes
  
• able to buy beautiful rings that will look good and fit my fingers
  
• able to find a bangle that will fit my wrist
  
• feeling attractive
  
• able to get into sexual positions that are currently not possible!
  

• not having to dread the next school reunion
  
• able to wear high heels and still feel my feet and toes
  
• able to get into sexual positions that are currently not possible!
  

amen to that sister