I am not sure what to do. I am scheduled to get a fill on Wednesday and I don't know if I should. I had a bad experience with an overfill in December and I don't want that to happen again.

I seem to pb alot. I have mastered the art of getting it back up quickly and then I try again. I have a very fickle band. Sometimes I can eat with no problem and sometimes I can't. If I can eat, I eat way too much. It doesn't seem to stay with me for long and I eat again. If my band is being fickle that day, I keep trying to find something that will go down. I think that I am chewing really well, but I don't know if I will ever get used to the very small bites so I know that I need to work on that.

I don't like how much I am eating so I want to get a fill, but on the other hand, I am pb'ing alot.

What to do?

It seems to me that there is a sweet spot where you lose weight. If the band is too loose, food slips through and if you have no self control you will eat too much. If it's too tight, you will shy away from healthier foods and resort to easier foods that are less good for you and likely more fattening. Finding that sweet spot is tough because it will change as you lose weight.

This is similar to what I am experiencing. I was banded end of 2006, lost 120 then got pregnant in early 2008. Nothing has been the same since then. I think I learned how to subconsciously eat around the band and then BOOM I am "shocked" to realize I am stuck and pb. My husband is concerned I am bulimic but I don't do it on purpose- it really is subconscious up until I am stuck. I zone out when eating to be honest. Its just my old disordered overeating manifesting in a new way bc I have a band now.

I have gained lots of weight back and am on meds and weight watchers and have lost ten pounds in 6 weeks but it is a huge struyggle every meal.

I feel so guilty about all this. I feel I have let myself down and realize I may have to get the band removed and it will be my own fault. I am just always craving that preband full feeling and of course- it never comes. I PB my main meal every day and eat lightly the other meals- cereal or other things I know will get me closest to that full feeling.

I want to change but don't know how!!!

You said you pb your main meal everyday. Is that because it normally contains some form of hard Protein like chicken or beef? Then you eat cereal ( a slider food) and other thing for other meals. Log what these other foods you are eating and see if they are mainly considered slider foods. If so, you may be too tight. The daily pbing can cause some swelling which will cause more tightness, then more pbing. It is a viscious cycle. If you find this is the case, please call your surgeon and consider an unfill (probably not necessary for a complete unfill). You can then wait a couple of weeks and begin getting fills again until you get restriction. Good luck and let me know what happens.