okay okay..i know im crazy posting this!!!! seriously, what is your one little dirty wish or fantasy when you reach goal?? you know what mine is? i want to get a picture taken off me professionally in some really sexy lingerie and high heels laying down on a white couch. then i want to blow it up to a huge poster size and put it right in my living room above my couch for all the world to see!!!! is that naughty and conceited or what?? i already said it is all about me these days...do you think people will mind? hahahaha come on...your turn!!!!

Well, I am not worried about the guys. It has never really bothered me MUCH that I didnt have a lot of men, mainly because what I did have I broke up with. So I just left it alone. Plus, I was not willing to open myself up to that. It is the girls that used to be my friends before High School that will have nothing to do with me because I am fat. I just wish they would gain about 30 pounds (no not obese, i dont wish that on anyone) just to know how it feels to be overweight. hmmmm sorry, too sentimental,

*I wish I could stand in a room, and not feel like I have to scan it to see if I am not only the biggest one there, but the youngest also.

*I hope that after I lose the weight, my legs will look like they are walking instead of just rolling over one another (noticed this about a week ago)

*I wish that ALL my stretch marks would disapear, and I would never have to explain to people what these funny marks are on my arms.

*I wish that I could wear a mini skirt out in public

*I can't wait to go buy pretty and sexy underwear

*I want to spend $50 on a shirt because I feel like I deserve it and not because that is what plus sized clothing (that is made for my age) costs

My secret wish is that my two boys will be proud to be seen with me.