Dear Jerk,

You tease me. I thought the conversation we had the last time I came to visit would make a diffrence. I pleaded with you to move , to change. I can't keep coming back to the same old unsatisfactory circumstances. I bargained with you, rationalized with you, pleaded with you. I thought we understood one another afterwards.

And, oh, you changed. I will give you that. You moved and I appreciate that. I think you must have misunderstood me, however. I wanted you to move DOWN not UP. I am offended that you didn't listen to me. I can talk and talk til I am blue in the face, but yet nothing seems to work with you.

Don't be confused. I will move on. There are a lot of scales that would want me. Don't take me or my bathroom floor for granted or I will be done with you. Toss you in the trash with my empty cartons of soy milk and old cans of tuna. Don't think I won't. I deserve better. I am worthy of a scale that listens.

Shape up or ship out. This is your FINAL warning.

Thanks for your time.

Tara

(ReadySteadyGo)

Edited April 9, 200818 yr by ReadySteadyGo

Update on the scale- I haven't weighed myself since I wrote that originally. I guess I will see at the Dr.'s office.

But I keep reminding myself that the scale doesn't matter. My health does. So I am going to focus on NSV. They have just slowed down. But I will go in for my first fill FINALLY on the 17th.

Oh and Gibson- Its still dead. I ripped its batteries out.

Edited April 15, 200818 yr by ReadySteadyGo
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RSG, I think I might need to kill my scale, too. But he's been so good to me lately it's almost easy to forget the bad times! I am definitely obsessed with weighing, though. I've had a couple of days lately where I woke up feeling thinner but the scale didn't reflect my mental state. It really ticked me off!

I admire the heck out of you for staying off your scale.

Ok I had to share this one with my DH. We both laughed LMAO!

But I will go in for my first fill FINALLY on the 17th.

I have my first one tomorrow, too! Meet you back here tomorrow night to compare notes? :biggrin2:

sure. Mine is at 2 this afternoon. Counting down

sure. Mine is at 2 this afternoon. Counting down

Mine's at 2:30! Hope they'll still do the fill. Still having this muscle spasm or whatever in my side.

Ive been worrying too because of those twinges or slight pressure I have been feeling. I think we are worrying for nothing.

One more hour for you and ONe and a half for you....yowzers.

I am nervous. Are you? I am super excited also.

I just haven't lost weight in almost two weeks.:thumbup::smile:

Well, I got a fill! It's about time! It wasn't bad. It hurt like hell when he was pushing on that spasming muscle, but the fill itself was a breeze. He used numbing medicine. He did that weird thing where he pulls out the Fluid that's in there and then puts it back in with more fluid. I guess they check to see how much is still there? Anyway, he said I was doing well and was right on track. I was told I'd get 1cc today, but he gave me 2! So I'm up to 4ccs in my 10cc band.

You were right, I was worrying for nothing.

How was yours??

It wasn't bad. I had some Fluid around my port but they said that it was fine.

It DID hurt when he was pushing my stomach. ouch. And the numbing shot felt weird afterwards.

My port has moved a little with my weight loss to right under my scar so he had a little trouble with that. I have 2cc in a 14cc band.

Nothing to worry about. I am glad we did it on the same day. I thought of you when I got my fill.

I was super nervous though. The Dr told me to calm down that everything was fine. I am a worrier.

Yay for us and our first fills!

It wasn't bad. I had some Fluid around my port but they said that it was fine.

It DID hurt when he was pushing my stomach. ouch. And the numbing shot felt weird afterwards.

My port has moved a little with my weight loss to right under my scar so he had a little trouble with that. I have 2cc in a 14cc band.

Nothing to worry about. I am glad we did it on the same day. I thought of you when I got my fill.

I was super nervous though. The Dr told me to calm down that everything was fine. I am a worrier.

Yay for us and our first fills!

Yay! I thought about you, too! I'm glad it's over and I'll be glad when I can eat some real food again!