today's the day!!

my DH will post updates

thank you all for your thoughts and prayers

LJM: How's the swelling going now?

LJM: How's the swelling going now?

gahhhh ... swell hell continues...

mostly in my left little area and above my belly button (still have tree trunk syndrome going on).

went to dr yesterday for that one swell spot ... he poked and prodded and proclaimed me "just fine" ... swell, in fact :biggrin:

lol swell lol

you got me rollin this morning

Thanks I needed that.

I am glad you doing ok. you will get your waist back just be patient.

patient schmatient ...

I AM NOT A PATIENT PERSON!!! :biggrin: :thumbup:

lol sorry....but you look HOT already.

Your going to be georgous once you get the curve.

i dont see it... seriously.

Your just not seeing yourself correctly yet.

You need to step outside yourself and see you like we see you.

And We think your awsome!

And I am looking to you for guidence on how to get myself there.

Your just not seeing yourself correctly yet.

You need to step outside yourself and see you like we see you.

And We think your awsome!

And I am looking to you for guidence on how to get myself there.

thank you - really... but i still see a fat woman in the mirror... i weigh 242 pounds ... there are LOTS of people on this board that start their WL journey where i am now ... and i've lost 160 pounds :thumbup: still have 82 more to go... that's a ton of weight... (ha - and i wanted to call goal by my birthday in June ... double HA!)

i dunno if i am really the person to actually give the guidance... i just log my experiences (tell it like it is) for my journalling ... cause i cant remember shit...

i guess im just SO frustrated that i still look like a tree trunk... yes, the big huge gut is gone, but im still a very large girl.

it doesnt help matters that i refuse to tell my family (step mom) how much i've lost... she sent an email to another relative saying that i wont tell her but she thinks i've lost over 200 pounds .. damn. how big did she think i was??? i dont think i wanna know that answer. :thumbup:

I know how you feel. I haven't lost 160 lbs but I have lost 106 lbs. I don't like my body at all. I hate my thighs the most. The stomach hangs down. I can't wait until my plastic surgery. Don't think of yourself as fat anymore. You are well porportioned now. You look great. Love yourself. You can do it!

I had to chime in...I just love your posts and your honesty and have been reading what you've gone through in your journal.

One thing I've noticed is that people don't know weight. They have NO IDEA. I do, because I've been there and obsessed over how I looked at each 10 pound interval.

At the beginning of this journey, I never told anyone what I weighed. But, now I'm happy about it! I'm happy to tell people I'm 230 (I round because of the bouncing I tend to do.) People look at me in sympathy, or they get that look like they're trying to stifle a, "WOW - I didn't know people got that big!!!" Or, they actually say: You don't look that big.

Huh...really? What does that big look like anyway?

I think weight is a silly measurement. I weigh more than a lady at work but I have more muscle. She's much larger than I am in sizes.

You signed up for the marathon, and you are on your way to becoming healthy. The weight you have lost and the amount left to lose is just a number. It's this whole journey that is worth celebrating.

Also - and, sorry for making this so long - but I think in the beginning we count pounds since that's what we have to go with. We celebrate the 10 pounds, 20 pounds, etc., that gone. But then I think we should start focusing on other things.

You have your lower jean size, your upcoming marathon, your treadmill time - there is so much that you have accomplished healthwise, and you should be as proud of you as we all are!

You are a lapband success story. Please don't get discouraged. You are awesome!

Edited March 19, 200818 yr by Gone4Now
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I had to chime in...I just love your posts and your honesty and have been reading what you've gone through in your journal.

One thing I've noticed is that people don't know weight. They have NO IDEA. I do, because I've been there and obsessed over how I looked at each 10 pound interval.

At the beginning of this journey, I never told anyone what I weighed. But, now I'm happy about it! I'm happy to tell people I'm 230 (I round because of the bouncing I tend to do.) People look at me in sympathy, or they get that look like they're trying to stifle a, "WOW - I didn't know people got that big!!!" Or, they actually say: You don't look that big.

Huh...really? What does that big look like anyway?

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Their was this movie out where they were kind of making fun of this woman because she was "reported" to be 300 lbs. It was a fat suit on a skiny model

I am looking at this made to be fat woman and saying she is bigger then 300lbs. I am 300 and I dont look like that! It made me angry. OK the movie it self pissed me off too. But geesh you would think that they could of gotten something right.

But your right We dont have an idea what weight really looks like because everyone holds it different.

The weight you have lost and the amount left to lose is just a number. t's this whole journey that is worth celebrating.

wow...

Their was this movie out where they were kind of making fun of this woman because she was "reported" to be 300 lbs. It was a fat suit on a skiny model

I am looking at this made to be fat woman and saying she is bigger then 300lbs. I am 300 and I dont look like that! It made me angry. OK the movie it self pissed me off too. But geesh you would think that they could of gotten something right.

But your right We dont have an idea what weight really looks like because everyone holds it different.

thank you ladies ... that means a ton.

thank you - really... but i still see a fat woman in the mirror... i weigh 242 pounds ... there are LOTS of people on this board that start their WL journey where i am now ... and i've lost 160 pounds :thumbup: still have 82 more to go... that's a ton of weight... (ha - and i wanted to call goal by my birthday in June ... double HA!)

i dunno if i am really the person to actually give the guidance... i just log my experiences (tell it like it is) for my journalling ... cause i cant remember shit...

i guess im just SO frustrated that i still look like a tree trunk... yes, the big huge gut is gone, but im still a very large girl.

it doesnt help matters that i refuse to tell my family (step mom) how much i've lost... she sent an email to another relative saying that i wont tell her but she thinks i've lost over 200 pounds .. damn. how big did she think i was??? i dont think i wanna know that answer. :Dancing_shocked:

Please don't feel that way... you are lovely and so inspirational. Don't worry about telling people an exact number (I never do) just think about how far you have come. I have seen your pictures and you look great!

thanks ... i just hate that she ASSumes that i have lost 200 pounds.... yeah, im getting closer to losing that much, but she hasnt seen me since 20 or more pounds ago... just infuriates me...

thank you -

it doesnt help matters that i refuse to tell my family (step mom) how much i've lost... she sent an email to another relative saying that i wont tell her but she thinks i've lost over 200 pounds .. damn. how big did she think i was??? i dont think i wanna know that answer. :thumbup:

It never ceases to amaze me the people in our lives.

At this pint I would go way overboard and "leak" it to her that you LOST something like 425 pounds. Be really serious about it.

On a bad day I would be in her face and she'd be on the receiving end of a LONG LONG speech....other days Id live to slap her one for ya'!

You KNOW you are not your number....high or low!

You've come so far and are doing SO WELL!

Your is one of the threads I look forward to reading!

Thank you.