We took a lot of pictures Christmas. What I see in the mirror and what I saw in the pictures was so disappointing. In the mirror, I see a smaller face and a smaller body. In the pics, it was just fat me. Everyone tells me that I look smaller, but I honestly could not see it. I didn't get any good before pics, so the Christmas ones will be it even though I'm 32 lb. down. I'm hanging one up on the fridge and adding new ones as I go down. Some day, I'll see a difference.

Another thing I want to add is that as you get smaller it takes less weight to make a difference in how you look. When I was 280 I looked pretty much the same as I did at 250 but now that I am under 200, 10 pounds makes a difference.

It is taking just as long for my mind to wrap around the loss as it did for it to wrap around the original fat.

I just told this story in another thread---but it is so true, and was so traumatizing at the time!

I was walking through the mall, feeling as normal as always when I caught sight of a woman coming at me, wearing the same shirt I was, I was appalled that I wore the same thing as that fat woman---hoping I looked better in mine, I found it embarrassing to be wearing her same shirt! Imagine my embarassment now when I realized it was a mirror, and the fat woman was me! From that day forward, I knew without question I was fat! I changed overnight! My wardrobe changed, how I carried myself changed---I woke up to the fact I was fat. I had been there buying the next size up clothes all along, I had layed in bed with the belly hanging all over--------but in my mind, I was still ok, still normal. Til the day in the mall!

Now....I have people tell me I look great....and people in shock at how much I have lost. I see pictures, and can see the change in ways. Yet when I hit the stores, I still reach for the 2X to try on. I used to wear a 3-4X so in my mind the 2X is successful---but in reality an XL is fine now. I just have not had that defining moment yet....that turned me around before, I am looking forward to the change going this way---I would love to have my prior confidence back.

Kat

Thanks for all the responses. I know in my head that I've lost weight. It's hard to not be impatient, though. The weight didn't happen overnight, so the thinner won't either. I'll just keep takng those damn pics. One day, I'll see the difference

Taking pictures is the only way I can see a difference. I am still not happy with what I see in the mirror or on the photo, but I am getting there.