I am 2.5 months out and still really struggling with sadness at not being the weight I expected to be. Yes yes, "what did you expect, to lose 100lbs in 3 months?" I don't know... maybe deep down inside I had hoped I would. I can't get over my impatience. I always want instantaneous results with everything. I know and knew going into this that that wouldn't be the case here. But I still end up crying and upset since I feel like I've gone through a lot of BS since surgery and I'm not happy with the results I am getting. In this particular moment, I just feel really depressed. I feel like I have such a long road before I lose another 100lbs and then so much more pain and money with all the plastics I want. And at this point I just anticipate endless complications. It just feels like a neverending road of pain and disappointment.

Sorry, feeling bleak today and just needed to get it out.

You know there is no logic in what you are saying. But I get it! I do. I can relate. Maybe on some level many (all) of us can? I think venting is a healthy thing. If you get it out of you, then it no longer can fester in shame and secrecy.

Part of what you are going through is pretty normal, you know. I know I went through it especially right out from surgery for a few months--just inescapable depression for no earthly reason! It came and went like a mood swing. So weird. I'm not depressed. Disappointment, irrational worrying about the future, etc. I think a lot of it comes from the aftermath of anesthesia, plus the gobbledygook baggage we carry.

Drink lots of water.

Get out in the sun.

Move a LOT!!! WALK!!! When sad, get in the sun, deep breath and walk.

Watch comedies.

Watch uplifting shows.

Limit your exposure (if possible) to anything negative in your life.

WALK some more.

Drink MORE water.

Make concrete things to show your progress...pics, excel spread sheets, food logs charting your weight and measures...etc.

It's hard.

If it was easy, everyone would be doing it.

Edited January 15, 20197 yr by FluffyChix