I keep telling myself you eat to live. Not live to eat. I have eaten a snack while making a snack because it took too long. Eaten things just because it was there and didn't want someone else to have it. My car has been know to magically appear in the McDonald's drive through. Ordering multiple drinks so it didn't look like all of it was for me.

Growing up, you could not get up from the table until everything had been eaten. The glorified clean plate club... I don't remember what being full even feels like anymore; unless i'm already in pain from so much food. I have read so many terrible things that can happen from overeating post sleeve. I'm worried I wont recognize what full feels like and suffer the consequences. Any tells of when you feel full post sleeve?

I'm hesitant to talking to anyone about my toxic relationship with food. I don't want anything to hold me back from being eligible for the sleeve. I know it is essential for progress but I am desperate to get my life back. I have been overweight my entire life. The smallest I remember being was 180 in the 6th grade. In the past I stuck to diets until i lost a little weight and treated myself with food that i knew was terrible for me. Thus gaining the weight back plus more. I am determined to get healthy and to have inner me match outer me.

Any advice and/or suggestions?

So you will have signs of fullness and it varies for everyone. It could be a runny nose, hiccups, burp, tightness or pain in your throat etc.

But for may of us, some of those signs go away after awhile so it’s crucial that you learn to portion everything out and eyeball things, meal prep and learn to totally be ok with wasting food.
For me, i view everything as an is it worth it question- from buying food to clothes etc. it’s easier for me to say no to certain food because i refuse to pay for something and then have it end up in the trash, especially if it doesn’t reheat well.

If it’s something that i really love that isn’t super processed i may order it, ask for a small side plate, portion out what i will eat and take home the rest for multiple meals later. But because of my mentality it almost always rules out fast food and lots of entree salad dishes.