I am 4 weeks out (sleeved 9/19) and struggle mentally on this daily. It's not easy and I keep saying I regret even doing it. I don't want to eat 4oz meals forever.

What's messed up is, people who go through this should be made to see a psychologist who specializes in food disorders for 6 months instead of one visit to say she is sane enough to have the surgery. Because if you get your mentality under control you may not even need the surgery. You may be able to do it yourself. Unfortunately, I didn't realize that until now. Yeah all the failed diets, "I can't do it by myself cos I've tried 10 times and failed" blah blah. It's bull. There is a mental reason we haven't been able to do it. (Unless you have medical reasons of course). We are addicted to food. And I think about food now WAY MORE then I did before the surgery. Because I have to and it's torture and I hate it.

It's a hassle to go anywhere. I have no energy. I feel like I'm dying and I dream about pizza. Everyone here seems so positive and upbeat. "Think about why you wanted to do it in the first place...." it's not the answer for me. "Go talk to someone"....It's not the answer for me. I don't know what I can do, but I know it's done and I can't turn back the clock. I know I am forced to live like this now. All I can do is pray. But most of the time I just curse myself for doing this at all.

Has no one here felt like that!!??? I feel so alone in these thoughts here.

HW 276. SW 245. CW 230

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I still have clostridium difficile also.

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What a horrible disease. Have you undergone a fecal microbiota transplant? My daughter is a gastroenterologist and she told me they have an over 90% cure rate with it.

I still have clostridium difficile also.

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What a horrible disease. Have you undergone a fecal microbiota transplant? My daughter is a gastroenterologist and she told me they have an over 90% cure rate with it.

No. It's not easy for me to get treatment for it.

I need a referral to a consultant specialising in infectious diseases but currently haven't been able to persuade my GP to do this.

I am using kefir and other Probiotics to try and kill off the infection while I wait for further treatment.

I have come to terms with living with C diff. I am in tremendous pain with it but can't really do much about this.

So for now, I am learning patience and praying for treatment.

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I still have clostridium difficile also.

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What a horrible disease. Have you undergone a fecal microbiota transplant? My daughter is a gastroenterologist and she told me they have an over 90% cure rate with it.

No. It's not easy for me to get treatment for it.

I need a referral to a consultant specialising in infectious diseases but currently haven't been able to persuade my GP to do this.

I am using kefir and other probiotics to try and kill off the infection while I wait for further treatment.

I have come to terms with living with C diff. I am in tremendous pain with it but can't really do much about this.

So for now, I am learning patience and praying for treatment.

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That's CRAZY. How frustrating!!! Knowing there is a cure and not being able to receive the proper treatment. I'm so sorry. People in the US go to Mexico for medical care due to healthcare costs all the time. And Canadians often travel to the US and Mexico due to the limitations and time frames associated with their national healthcare system. If you are well enough to travel Have you looked into getting better treatment in another European country?

I am in touch via email with an excellent consultant in a city an hour away from me. He is happy to treat me but I need the referral to get to him.

I am frustrated but realise that there is little that I can do for now.

I am seeing my bariatric nurse in November. I am hoping to push her to ask my surgeon for the referral.

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Check out TalkSpace.com

Might be better than traditional counseling.

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I understand. I had it 10-24. I feel like a sick person who gets palpitations and sweats if i eat a tablespoon of food. I am struggling all the time to just feel normal. I am always dizzy and feel like crap. I totally agree i wasnt ready or informed. I told the counselor all the right things. He didnt dig to deep. I am lost right now because i had a lot of issues with food and still do

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Praying for you

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I understand. I had it 10-24. I feel like a sick person who gets palpitations and sweats if i eat a tablespoon of food. I am struggling all the time to just feel normal. I am always dizzy and feel like crap. I totally agree i wasnt ready or informed. I told the counselor all the right things. He didnt dig to deep. I am lost right now because i had a lot of issues with food and still do

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Hang in there. You won't feel normal for awhile. Concentrate on Water. Start there. Start with broth, especially beef bone broth. Super easy to make. Throw beef bones from the store into your slow cooker with water and let it simmer. Drink small and I mean tiny amounts every hour that you are awake. If you are hydrated, things definitely improve.

Don't fret if solid food isn't working out right now. Rest and Fluid will really help. Then you can add small shredded beef or chicken into the broth.

Get back in touch with your counsellor and just be honest. Rest. Heal. Sip. And repeat.

You can do this. I still get dizzy and the sweats when I eat. But I try a new source of Protein often. I always focus on water first, protein next, then Vitamins.

You do need someone to support you if you can find someone. All your food issues will insist on being dealt with because your coping strategies are gone. Your hormones are raging because the fat is melting.

You can do this! You will heal. Don't worry, you aren't alone in how you feel. Send me a message if you need someone to talk to.

God bless.

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That 4oz increases over time

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