Hi everyone. Damn I'm in tears writing this I'm only nearly 2 months out but I've already developed a bad new replacement habit and feeling really crappy about and at myself.

I've started over spending and shopping. Nothing crazy expensive but it's all been adding up to so much I'm not going to make a bunch of big bill payments. I know if I reign in now I can be caught up by Christmas but still I'm so mad at myself.

I wasn't like thus pre surgery. But I've been getting such a buzz and a major high from buying stuff. Things like stuff for our camp trip and Christmas gifts,a few new pants, a pair of curtains etc. Might not sound lavish but it's all added up to possiblly $1-2k in the last month over budget.

Ugh now bill time has come and I'm freaking out and will have to make some calls. I don't know why I've been doing it I knew it would lead to this. It's just like the food all over again :/

I don't have a therapist and I certainly couldn't afford one until I catch up with the bills. Please can anyone who's been through this and stopped give me any advise? Thank you in advance.... a guilt ridden sleever.

Edited October 14, 201510 yr by MsTwist

Thank you all so much for your responses I agree I need to actively try and get my highs from a new productive habit. I'll have a good think about it.

It's so weird how similar the over eating and over spend cycling is.... the delicious anticipation and planning or the pure joy of a suprise temptation... the shutting out of the thoughts that tell you you will regret this.. the raised heart rate and excitement of the purchase or eating... the warm glow that follows and the brief high.... then the guilt sets in.....after a few cycles of that you face major weight gain or debt issues which add to the stress and of course you need to feel good again....

I guess I should be grateful I hate cigarettes and alcohol!

Serious question -- can you return any of the things you bought? For example, the camping equipment? Even though you "need" those, the timing of your purchase was not ideal.

Re the need for new clothes as you get smaller -- first, shop in your closet for "skinny clothes" you saved as you gained weight. Then find consignment shops that sell second-hand clothing in your area -- including high-end shops, church bazaars, Salvation Army, Good Will. You'll be amazed at what good things you can find there.