You know it is sooooo frustrating because there are people in my life from my past that I want to see. I was heavy back then... meaning ohhhh about 180 to maybe 220 (ohhhh way up to 220... the horror) Well having had the surgery at 321. What the hell!!! It's like "hey yah... let's have lunch. Let me look at my calendar. Ummmmm... How does 8 months sound?" And still even if I were lucky I would still be at my heaviest they had ever seen me at... remember the 220 horror. Sometimes I dwell on this. Yes I know if they truly love or care it won't matter..Well damnit it matters to me.

Anyone else feel this way.

Then I have to look at the bright side and just go on.

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Aww you will be there soon enough.. you are doing great.. hugs!

I know how you feel. I have always worried about running into people from high school. I wasnt so proud of the fact that I didnt go to college right away so I have taken care of that and went back and completed my degree about 2 years ago. Now the issue is my weight. I was about 135lbs in high school. I have avoided going to any reunions. But my 20th reunion will be coming up and I plan on attending that one.

I know exactlyyy what you mean, and it's holding true for relatives I don't see often too. Everything I'm planning is 6 months or more down the road, and I'm hoping that I'll have lost enough not to want to hide from them.

I'm right now bigger than I have ever been and I really don't like seeing anyone because I know they say "Wow, she has really put on weight" right after I leave. My band date is 8/3 so I just spent all of last week while on vacation w/out of town family and over the weekend at the festival in town thinking, just wait till they see me next year or even at Christmas. It was the only thing that got me through the week.

I have to agree. I feel the same way too. I remember I was maybe 150 at my heaviest in high school and have been out of school for 13 years. We had a five year reunion and at that point I had put on at least 50 more pounds and would rather have hid seated at the table all night then get up and mingle, let alone walk into the room. Thank goodness we haven't had one since. But if we actually have a 15 year reunion, I'm really looking forward to it. I won't mind making a grand entrance at all. I know we all want it.... the WOW factor! :omg::clap2: You know what I mean. You walk into the room and people are doing double-takes looking at "you"! Whuuuu-hooooo! I CAN'T WAIT! Of course, I still need to get a date for my surgery first. Hopefully August or September.