My surgery date is quickly approaching. I'm excited, nervous, scared!!! I'm excited to finally after a long year of appointments be this close to my actual date. Nervous of having a major surgery. Mostly I'm scared of what my life will be like without the food that I obviously love so much. I recently had a lot of stress I'm my life and gained back 30lbs of the 60lbs I had lost. Thinking back to last month I don't know what I would have done without food. How do "normal" people deal with stress??? I eat when I'm stressed. I eat when I'm happy. We celebrate with food. Most social function revolves around food! We need it to live and I defiantly live for it. This is something I want, but knowing there will never be a "cheat" day is a little daunting. Knowing that I'll never be able to go back is both exciting and terrifying.

Awesome! It will be here before you know it! It is an exciting and scary time! Stress sucks. I chew gum to help with stress. I am not sure what I will do after surgery, because we aren't allowed gum for at least 6 months. So was thinking of sugar free mints. That will be challenging. Maybe ice chips too. I even exercise with gum! Yeah, I have been saying goodbye to many of my favorites that are full of sugar and fat. I would hate to even try any of them post op for fear I would dump and then never want them ever again. Coping strategies for stress, I am thinking my husband should give me a back massage every day for 6 months haha! Yeah that sounds like a plan lol!