I've only been in Denver a year and my only real friend here died Thursday.

It was sudden: She had a stroke and within an hour she was brain dead. She was only 54 and had three kids and I'm devastated. Happy for her, she's gone on to better things, but sad that I've been left behind and feeling selfish because I miss her so much.

I can't stop eating, which is exacerbated by the pain of getting full. I haven't had my first fill yet and I'm trying so hard to not think of food and of her and it's hard. I just want to stuff myself so I don't feel so terrible.

I thought life after the band would be easier but it's still life. Silly me.

Anyway, sorry for the rant. I'm just so sad and kind of lost.

jen, sorry about your loss, but I did not feel any restriction until my 3rd fill, until then I could not lose weight, so maybe you will notice a difference after your fills.

Anniemay

Has anyone suffered panic attacks, I have had them since I had surgery

in Mexico back in Aug. 06? They are terrible and have ruined my life.

Anniemay