So this is kind of crazy but for the past couple of nights I have had dreams of drinking a sip of a soda...I wake up in a panic and look around to make sure it wasn't real. I have been a sleep walker in the past so I was worried that I might of done something like this, turns out it was just a dream and no reality to it. Is anyone else weird like me and scared to fail?

I am so happy and proud of myself to get to teh point that I am today, I will be so happy in 55 lbs to hit one-derland! I can't wait!! I have been making an effort every day to try to get to 10k steps in. Some days are better than others but I know I can do this! my 3 month anniversary was yesterday and I was down 66 lbs! what an anniversary present to myself!

I wish everyone the best!

I had a nightmare about eating bread once. I woke up worried, but it passed. Are you very anxious about it when awake? You say you're terrified, but it seems like you're doing well and are proud.

We ALL fail because we are human. If we never failed we would be perfect little robots and the world would be quite boring!

We learned in pre-op class that it's what you do AFTER you fail that can change you. For example, after you eat something you shouldn't, you can beat yourself up about it and feel guilty...or you can say "hey, I messed up, but I'm picking myself up and trying again, damn it!" A simple walk around the block can get you in the right mind-set.

I am almost 5 months post op and have definitely struggled with this. I am working on that type of anxiety and negative self talk among other things in counseling.

I have been successful so far, not even half way to "overweight" lol but I am happy with my pace. But I still feel like ... I am faking it. I don't really deserve this or haven't really earned it. And before I can stop it I will blink and be back to my old habits and weight. But that is the exact kind of negative thinking that helped me yo yo "diet" my way to over 300 lbs.

I try to focus on the healthy habits I do have that are now automatic. Like packing meals and Snacks to work ... I had a hard time keeping up with this so I ate out a lot. Now I do it every day no issues never too busy or tired. So I look forward to more changes that seem hard now becoming automatic and just part of me. And to know that "me" is okay!

Awake I don't even have a craving for soda so it's so weird that I dream about it. I am soooo happy I didn't crave it or chocolate for that matter.

You are right too about the healthy habits, Old me I used to get lunch in the cafeteria EVERY day...new me, I pack my own food so I know what I am going to have and what is in it.

I totally get what you are saying about the negative self talk too, I have been guilty of this but trying to pull the positive out of everything. I DO deserve this, I AM working hard for it and it IS going to be great and so am I!!

Edited July 31, 201412 yr by Momof2inIowa