So our running forum is to danged long for me to go back and get the actual discription that Sheryl left for us, so I will do my "take away" from what she posted and start it here! I have beed doing this for a couple of days and decided to post as an exercise. Join me if you would like to!

We all have some self talk going on, some good and some not so good. This morning I heard some self parental type voice tell me "you are crazy" OK.

I caught it was a condemning and not very compassionate or true statement, and decided to rebuttal.

No, I am not crazy this morning, I am actually a little unorganized and sad. I then went on to look at why/where I was disorganized (that was a long list!) and why I was sad. (it is often just a couple of things that make me sad, this was one of them, I have been hearing about a new book out reviewed here: http://www.npr.org/2014/02/11/275404707/the-earths-sixth-extinction-may-be-one-of-our-own-making about the current big extinction going on globally. It makes me sad and mad and makes me feel a little guilty for just being a human being. I realized I would be willing to die to stop the greater extinction cycle... but also know well that this will not stop anything. It strangely did make me feel a little better, going there and realizing how passionate I am about this.

So I am not crazy. just disorganized and a little sad, and at least some of that I can change.

90 day watch will put us around April 14th. So I will try and post any "crazy voice stuff" most of those days.

The other day I told myself "You are a mess" .....that kind of thing....

Edited February 15, 201412 yr by feedyoureye

For years you thought that attachment and love went hand in had. Now you can see that attachment is more like an anchor, false security that holds back the best actions of love and kindness.

No more hiding, it feels good to be "out", no longer pretending to not be the commanding huntress that you are. Let your ego be what it is, deserved and earned. You are truly learning the meaning of "be yourself" Admitting to the world how bad ass you are is so freeing, they are afraid of you, and they should be.

You have cultivated a view that is becoming more expansive and awesome to behold. When things get overwhelming, remember to relax and enjoy.

What you have to offer is solid and worthwhile, you have the ability and the willingness to be an excellent friend and you have learned from your relationships, romantic and platonic, where your strengths lie. You have also learned some truths about yourself and you are ready to apply this in your life. You are learning how to give responsibly.

There are teachers everywhere. Your worst enemy can teach you things that your dearest loved one can't. Cherish all interactions.

You don't have to be chipper, or ignore bad feelings, utilize them, dismantle them to better understand, your analytical brain is an asset here. Notice the changes in your emotions, in your fears and negative thoughts and anxieties in correlation with your choices in food. Let's use the emotions washing over us to get a real comprehension of food addiction, of addiction in general, you are going to use this in your practice when you are a therapist.

You have an actual workload now, and there is no reason to fear it, you are actually capable of doing all of it, and you know this. It feels good to acknowledge your capability, what does pretending to be unable do for you? That is old, outmoded behavior that yields no rewards.

When things change quickly, you have the capacity to adjust and enjoy the moment.