Diary of a Fat man.

All my life I have been heavy, fat, overweight. It's simple, I eat too much and I stay fat. What's not simple is changing that pattern. I've dieted many times and they work each time, but eventually they don't and the cycle continues. I have tied exercising regularly until my overweight body said no more!

So here I am I'm my Mid 50s father of an active 2 year old. My large body aches it creaks and weighs the same as 2 over weight 20 year olds. So what do I do? get another diet because the next time "it will work"? Exercise until I injure myself and can't recover? That's why I decided to look into an alternative way.

On Tuesday October 1st I'm scheduled for the sleeve. To some it probably seems like a cop-out - the lazy way out. Sure they can believe that if they want, but the truth is, after 40 years of being the big guy, barely able to sit in an airplane seat, out of breath after a few steps embarrassed at my size and memories of constant teasing as a child, It's time to take a radical step.

You see, I don't want my son to grow up fat I don't want him embarrassed at his Dad's size I want to run along side of him, I want to be around for him. I want to live a healthy lifestyle and raise him him up in one. I want to be a good husband for my wife to stay as young as my body allows. To be there for her, to support her, to be a active partner for her.

I want this for me for ALL the reasons I stated. I want to take the fat kid I was show him there is a way. To take the fat teenager I was and push through the embarrassment I felt. To take the fat adult I am and get to a point I can embrace life with open arms again.

Finally home on a liquid diet for about 2 weeks slight pain from one of the sites but nothing major. One thing I have noticed already is my awareness of EVERY drop that I swallow and how it impacts my stomach. Warm chicken broth is my favorite so far and taking very small sips. Temptations of other foods my family is eating are all around me. Pre-surgery I would have eaten many of them now I resist knowing the severe consequences if I did. The behavior modification has begun.

Welcome to the club! Every day is better than the day before!

Finally home on a liquid diet for about 2 weeks slight pain from one of the sites but nothing major. One thing I have noticed already is my awareness of EVERY drop that I swallow and how it impacts my stomach. Warm chicken broth is my favorite so far and taking very small sips.

Temptations of other foods my family is eating are all around me. Pre-surgery I would have eaten many of them now I resist knowing the severe consequences if I did. The behavior modification has begun.

WOOOT WOOOT!!! It will only get better from here!