Hello there.. Well I got 9 lbs to lose before seeing my doctor again, so they can schedule an appointment for surgery.. But It just seems like this last past days I can't help but think, is what if I don't make it out alive.. I got 3 beautiful boys, if I do say so myself. . and this is the second opportunity that I will be able to do this. About 5 years ago, I went through the whole thing.. Just to chicken out and not have it done. Okay just had to vent.

I understand!! I too freaked out and backed out several years ago. I have bee confident this time jut recently started getting really anxious. I think it is normal. It is important to remember that we are doing this to be their for our kids and living obese is dangerous. We are all here for you! Calming wishes for you.

Thanks so much.. I really appreciate it. Do you have a surgery date?

I too am all of those. My sugery is the 12th in Mexico. I'm going solo and flying out on 9-11. Pretty nervous about the whole thing.

Thanks so much.. I really appreciate it. Do you have a surgery date?

My date is September 4th. Less than 2 weeks. U won't lie. I cry at least a little bit everyday when the fear gets the best of me.

I know exactly how you feel. My surgery is this Tuesday. I don't know whether to cry, jump up and down or go running for the hills.

@ Jenni77, wow that just around the corner. I wish you all the best and a safe trip to mexico and back.

@ Angie, Really close.. I also wish you the best and safe surgery. My prayers will be with you both.

@ Jatherley... I could imagine me doing/feeling the same way.. Keep you in my prayers

I'm feeling the same way too, everyone is asking me why I don't look excited... I was so excited to get it done now that the date is approaching I'm getting scared.... I'm starting to think if I should right a will? Who should I leave my kids with? Etc, etc, etc :-(

@ Kate, Yea its real scary, but if you look at it at another point of view, we also want to be there for our children with out having all the other diseases that come with being over weight, Good luck with your procedure. Prayers your way.

Thanks Yathie :-)

I'm starting to get a little antsy. I've never had any surgery or really anything medically invasive. But everyday I think about life now, and life how I want it to be, and this is a major step towards that.

I say that and I will probably be crying come Thursday morning!

@ Jatherley... I could imagine me doing/feeling the same way.. Keep you in my prayers

Thanks Yathie.