Got a new fat/muscle scale yesterday. Although I almost had a seizure at seeing how many lbs of fat I have to lose, I choose to focus on the fact that I have 73 lbs of muscle! That means that to get to my goal weight(150 lbs) and fat percentage (25%), theoretically all I have to do is keep all my muscle and lose 60lbs of the fat. I know, I know it doesn't work like that, but I'm playing head games with myself to motivate myself. I choose to focus on what's right with my body and how to enhance it.

I have muscles underneath all this fat. And one day soon, I will see them. And I will be healthy, I will be strong, and I will be able to do the things I want. I will finally learn to scuba dive. I might be able to start lifting weights again without all my joints hurting. I won't need help hauling a 30 lb bag of dog food. I will be able to hike if I want to and I will become a strong swimmer.

Because underneath all this fat, awaits a gorgeous, healthy body. And I intend to find it.

AMEN!

You know, I said this to myself last year. I was wearing drabby clothes at work... why? Because they fit. I remember thinking to myself "Yeah, just wait until NEXT year..." Yep, came true. LOL

I was sitting up in our bed yesterday morning and glanced over at the mirror. I seriously had a "Whoa!" moment. My collar bones stick out without having to "suck in". My dog can sit next to me in my recliner, not ON me. (My recliner is way too big now.)

You know' date=' I said this to myself last year. I was wearing drabby clothes at work... why? Because they fit. I remember thinking to myself "Yeah, just wait until NEXT year..." Yep, came true. LOL

I was sitting up in our bed yesterday morning and glanced over at the mirror. I seriously had a "Whoa!" moment. My collar bones stick out without having to "suck in". My dog can sit next to me in my recliner, not ON me. (My recliner is way too big now.)[/quote']

That is so good to hear! I love the visual of you "sucking in" collar bones.

Like many others who are pre-op, I worry about failing. I know people say you can't NOT lose weight when 80% of your stomach is missing...but I don't want to be the first one to disprove that theory!

I wrote this sitting on an airplane while the guy in front of me ate Popeyes chicken, the lady behind me was eating delicious smelling tacos...and I needed to believe my vanilla Protein shake was better than all that :-P