Wow, do I really not want to admit this. But, I did it, I had a relapse.

For a few weeks I was eating candy and ice cream on a daily basis. Somewhere in the area of 2000 calories a day worth of candy bars & ice cream. That's plus my salads and Proteins.

I'm really ashamed of myself, not because I had relapse, that's just part of life for an addict. We are really good at justifying our addictions and tripping ourselves up. My shame comes from the fact that I let my pride get I the way of my recovery. I should have come here and told my sleeve family when I realized it was a problem. I knew it was a problem less than 1 week into it, but I couldn't bring myself to admitting it to you.

About a week ago I got on the scale & had gained back 7-8lbs. I was so disappointed in myself. I am back on a very strict diet, let me assure you getting back on track is much harder when you don't have a fresh staple line to scare you into following the rules.

The total disgust I felt looking at that number on he scale was enough to put me back on the straight and narrow.

But let me tell you from experience, stay mindful of what you eat. There have always been 2 schools of thought on eating post VSG, the "what's best" & the "what's acceptable". This experience has assured me even more the I belong in the "what's best" crowd. I really need to focus on my health because "acceptable" for me quickly turns into overindulgence.

I feel I need to apologize to you, my sleeve family for not being open about this when it happened.

Great job putting on the brakes, and I salute you for the open kimono post. That takes guts. I'm glad to see you've gotten some great encouragement and support here...now just grab those bootstraps...!

Leanne71 don't just trash it' date=' pour detergent over it so it is absolutely non edible!! I have to keep myself away from sweets and things like that or ill ruin everything I've been working towards. Being a single guy helps because I choose what is in my fridge and cabinets so I am sure it is even tougher having a family whose food choices might not fit with your goals but you can do this!![/quote']

I ended up throwing it away. We had a family meeting and I explained to them again what not to bring in the house unless they hide it and not let me know its there. I am getting better though about certain foods. Mothers Day they brought me Godiva chocolate covered strawberries (one of my favorite) I only ate half of one.

Hey OTR you're not alone! I wish there was a more simple and easy answer than to get back on track but. There isn't . I'm 10 months post op and for 5 months been stuck. Raspberry cappachinos from Starbucks. My doctor said if I continue my WLS will fail. I was sent back to the nutritionist and the psychologist. Mind you I was drink 4-5 a day. The things I just learned is people who drink and eat at the same time will fail. Drinking soda will cause you to fail. Psychologist gave me the best advice and I will share. He said we all have thoughts all day and night about all kinds of things. The fact is just because we have the thought doesn't mean we have to act on that thought. Hope this helps! I'm 10 pounds from goal and it feels like 10 thousand pounds. Hang in there we can do this!!! Dr told me the good thing was that we I was asked how I was doing I did not lie and say I'm fine. That makes all the difference in the world. If I could only stop all my other cross addictions I'd be really happy! Good luck to you OTR! Btw I'm a professional driver as well!

None of us are perfect:) glad you are back on track!!

OTR: I am curious if you have read the book "skinny thinking"? May want to check it out, when I read your post it struck home for me, Skinny Thinking is a great read!

Good luck and please keep us updated.

I'm so glad you are back. I fell off the other day and ate over 2000 calories (well, drank some of it). It happens but the hardest thing is coming back, which you did! Congratulations.

Thank you everybody. I'm doing a lot better, my weight is headed in the right direction again. My biggest problem again is remembering to eat & drink enough. Most days I'm good but maybe once a week ill get preoccupied & just not eat or drink anything all day (except my morning shake). Never thought not eating would be my problem

OTR: I am curious if you have read the book "skinny thinking"? May want to check it out' date=' when I read your post it struck home for me, Skinny Thinking is a great read!

Good luck and please keep us updated.

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Sorry to say I haven't. Do you know if its available on audiobook?