Good morning guys -

I had my VSG on 1/21/13. In the first 2 weeks, I lost 32 lbs. That's great, I think. I was having trouble getting all my fluids in, but I think I'm doing better now. I'm not so much on getting all my Protein in.. or the Vitamins. Ugh, the vitamins. Why can't they make a chewable that gives you a buzz? At least then, I'd probably have more motivation to take them. I can't seem to tolerate them very well. They make me want to puke.

I know it's best for me to get all my protein in and all my supplements. I know that it will help with things like hair loss and my nails and my skin and just overall nutrition. You would think, if I know this, I would follow through. My doctor's office gave me this stuff that has the Multivitamin +Calcium citrate in a packet like crystal light and you mix it with your bottle of Water. I don't even want to try it. All I want is plain cold ice water.

Thankfully, I've only thrown up once since the surgery. It was just after waking up, and it was on an empty stomach. I really thought it was going to hurt more than it did, but it definitely wasn't pleasant. I never knew bile was .. quite.. that shade of yellow. wow.

I still have pain. I actually converted from a band.. well - my second band. Both lapbands I had grew into me. The first was attaching my liver, diaphragm, and esophagus all together. The second had grown into my liver. In fact, my surgery on the 21st lasted 4 hours because of some complications. One thing was that they couldn't find the port from the band. They brought in xray and found it in my liver. My surgeon says that may explain some of the extra pain I'm having. I get better each day, and then out of no where I'll start having this pain on my left side just under the boob area. He says that's where they took it out.

I've found myself asking "why did I do this???" more than a few times, and I just have to talk myself up and tell myself that this too shall pass. I'm getting better every day, but I am seriously disappointed in myself because I have really let this all get to me. I thought ' I've had like 4 bariatric surgeries - this won't be a huge deal..' (2 bands placed, removal.. fix of a slip for the first one) It really is a huge deal. I knew I was forcing myself into a huge deal in the first place when I decided to have this done. I argued with insurance. I hired an advocate (kudos to Lindstrom Obesity advocates! such such nice people.). I got them to approve a different surgery when they said 'one per lifetime'. I know - logically why I did this.. but it's hard.

Also, my poor kid. ha. I'm a single parent, and she and I usually get out and do stuff on the weekends. I have been an absolute bore the past few weeks, and I'm honestly a little snippity. (she's 6) I haven't been walking like I should. I haven't been doing anything like I should. I have got to get out of this funk.

When did you start your walking? How much and how often?

My steri-strips are off now - does this mean I can go swimming/ take bath etc?

No swimming or baths until the incisions are healed. I too struggled with protein intake in the beginning. In fact, I refused it by day 5. At one month, my dietician gave me a well deserved ass chewing. I am a nurse, a s everything she told me I already knew. I wasn't healing well because of the lack of protein. I was tired because of the lack of protein. She said now was the time to consider it medicine, and just take it. I stopped trying to mix it in the blender-seemed to double the amount. Now I put my chike and PB2 powder In a blender bottle. I get 40 gms per shake. I started walking the day I got home. My surgeon released me at 3 weeks to "exercise in earnest".

Thanks doreen - I don't know why I'm so eeyore about this whole thing. I am usually a really clever outgoing funny person. I guess you're right - I need to make myself take the stuff and maybe I'll get back to myself soon.

You are welcome! Give yourself time. Your hormones are going crazy right now. Everything will stabilize and you will feel better.

I was sleeved on 1/28 and for me so far everything is going great, except my "mental hunger" still gets to me sometimes. Also had a breakdown right after surgery where I was like wtf did I do. But as they say time heals all, and it's getting better now. I hope things get better for you as we'll, from what you said it seems like more of a mental thing then a physical thing. This website has helped me a lot with the mental part. It's good to have people to talk too who have been there....