Talk about cutting it down to the wire. Some of you may have seen my anxious post that the anesthesiologist had requested a cardiac clearance at the last minute, which required a mad scramble on my part to get that pulled together. I am scheduled to be at the hospital at 5:30 in the morning, in Nashville, which is three hours away. I just now got the call that they've gotten everything and that the surgery is on and we're good to go. I have run the gamut of emotions today, back and forth from despair to relief. I had just settled back into the idea that I didn't mind if they rescheduled my surgery because I would like to devour the entire contents of the nearest fast food restaurant right now. My clear liquid only diet started yesterday, but because I had to do cardiac testing, I couldn't have anything but Water until they'd done that, and as a result I only got one Protein Shake in yesterday. It's hard to get ahead of that hunger on Clear Liquids and stave it off, but I'm trying as hard as I can not to think about it. Now that it's set, and definitely happening, I am terrified all over again. I tell you the truth, I am really mourning food. I can't imagine life without the habits that I've formed around it. That is the sign of a true addiction, and just another reason why I need this surgery. I just wish it included removing the part of my brain that is behind it all. I pray I won't feel like this for weeks or months after surgery.

I also just had the horrifying realization that I have not shaved my legs, and I'm not sure I can muster the resolve to do it in the hotel room tonight. I hope the surgical team are ready for that. It's not pretty. x[ Oh, and I had the great joy of starting my period yesterday. Um... I think that completes my lamentation. Hopefully my next post will be post-op. Say a prayer for me, or send me happy thoughts, both are welcomed.

Damn, you hit the mother load of "things I hope don't happen before surgery" Hopefully this is the very worst of it for you.

I think we all can relate to worrying about head hunger and mourning food. You are ready for this! You did everything you need to get to this point and you can get through the rest. You'll enjoy certain foods again, its not goodbye forever. You'll replace the old habits for new, better ones.

Best of luck to you tomorrow and for a smooth recovery!!

Good Luck and hope you have a quick recovery time...

Good luck, you will be fine! Congratulations on becoming the new and improved!!!

Good luck!! I've never been able to manage to get up the gumption to shave my legs prior to surgery. I always joke about it and apologize to the surgical staff. They always assure me that the last thing they care about it my leg hair and if they're lying to me and making fun of me, at least I'm under the good meds when they do so.

I'm sure you'll do great.

~Kat