My surgery has always seemed like this far off event that would take forever to get here. But it's now 13 days away and as I spend my last day eating the "old" way, I'm starting to freak out.

There is something very sobering about starting the pre-op diet. Almost like a point of no return. Of course it's making me question everything. Am I being too drastic? What if I dropped all this surgery money into personal training and pre-portioned foods? Could I be successful this way and not have the drama of surgery?

In my heart I know what's right. The weight just keeps piling on so fast, and every time I lose weight, I gain it back plus 10-20% more. I know I need to take drastic measures, but that stupid little voice in the back of my head keeps blabbering away and it's so hard to ignore it.

I know this is pre-surgery jitters and probably pretty normal. It's so weird to be excited and terrified about something all at the same time.

I am scheduled to have my surgery tomorrow and believe me I have been going through all of the same emotions you are feeling now and I am finally to a nice calm feeling about everything. In the beginning I too had a mourning stage for the food and eating habits I was about to change. It was hard the first few days with hunger and headaches, but once you get past that it was not too bad. I found then when I started to feel hungry I would just drink some more water or broth and the feeling would pass. It was a great training tool so to speak in that you realize how much you were consuming before and what life is going to be like afterword. Take advantage of the two weeks and really stick to it because it's important for your physical well being in preparing your body for surgery and you wouldn't believe how much you mentally will feel stronger and more in control at the end of the two weeks; which is a great way to feel entering into your surgery. I also had to address the what ifs of the trainer/dieting/etc...if I only gave it one more chance...I just had to finally come to terms with the fact that for whatever reason I have not been able to be successful with these methods and view the surgery a new chapter in my life and forgetting about the other alternatives that you may feel you need to try one more time. The surgery is your new chance and by doing all the things your surgeon recommends and being fully informed you will be successful forever and not have to try and try again as I have done for most of my life! Good luck to you and I know you can do it! Stay on track and all of these feelings will pass!

im also on my preop diet right now, three days in, and im struggling with all the same emotions. like how come now, right before surgery, im able to stick to just drinking protein shakes and why couldnt i just do this before? obviously i still have the "head hunger" where im just thinking to myself i WANT food, you know, but i KNOW im not hungry! Im still thinking of all the food i want to eat though, but youre right it is empowering feeling in control right now and i do feel stronger than ive ever felt before. we can do this!!!!

I'm also 3 days in my liquid diet. Surgery is in 5 days and I'm having the same feelings with the " what ifs " .... the first day was not too bad, yesterday was awful with head hunger but I stuck with it and feel so proud of myself. It is very empowering getting control over all the bad habits I'm use to.... keep your eye on the prize, we can and will do this! Good luck and God Bless