Hey everyone. I wanted to post here because I feel like you all have a lot of experience and are very supportive. I have my NUT and psych appts as well as my pre op visit on Nov 8 and have financial arrangements all made for the facts that I am self pay. So far so good.

But that fat person voice in my head keeps saying that this surgery won't work or that I will feel terrible afterwards. I even have moments where I start to think I can just diet! What a huge joke. I have never been able to do that in my life. The voice of denial is loud and clear. Anyone else have experience with this?

The surgery and recovery are hard - but wait until you see how much fun it is to dress in skinny clothes! Just keep on being honest with yourself. The more self-aware you are the better your chances of long-term success!

yep...i identify....my surgery is two weeks away....Im gonna do this

The surgery and recovery are hard - but wait until you see how much fun it is to dress in skinny clothes! Just keep on being honest with yourself. The more self-aware you are the better your chances of long-term success!

It's so funny that you said that. And thanks for your reply! I actually wanted to just buy some fun cute and cheap goal size pants while I was out today to remind myself what this is all about.

Awww...it's not that great.

Just getting out of chair without making a sound like someone stepped on an inflated blow fish.

Just walking up the stairs and thinking about doing it again just for fun instead of breathing like an obscene caller.

Wishing you hadn't thrown away those awesome pants..that you wore 20 years ago.

Walking by a mirror and stopping and walking back again for another look with a smile on your face.

Going shopping for a new belt knowing that now it will actually be seen, unobscured by a belly roll.

Not having to emotionally prepare yourself for bad news when you take your blood pressure.

Going clothes shopping and looking at the price tag first before looking for the size.

Awww...it's not that great.

Just getting out of chair without making a sound like someone stepped on an inflated blow fish.

Just walking up the stairs and thinking about doing it again just for fun instead of breathing like an obscene caller.

Wishing you hadn't thrown away those awesome pants..that you wore 20 years ago.

Walking by a mirror and stopping and walking back again for another look with a smile on your face.

Going shopping for a new belt knowing that now it will actually be seen' date=' unobscured by a belly roll.

Not having to emotionally prepare yourself for bad news when you take your blood pressure.

Going clothes shopping and looking at the price tag first before looking for the size.

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This is all so true and made me tear up! I have surgery Nov 14 in 2 and half wks and every single one of the things you mention I cant wait to DO!!