Feeling Down, Obsessing Myself To Crazy Town

[SlowLossingGal 5]

Hi all,

I know I don't post on here as much as I would like but I do read posts almost daily. Many of you don't even know how much help you have been through my journey. I find it difficult to post replies without over thinking about saying the wrong thing. I will reach my 7 month post op date on the 21st of this month and have been at so many stalls lastings for 3 weeks plus lately. I started my journey at 220, my goal is 120 and I am currently at 162. I do my fitness pal and have begun obsessing at how much more I am eating than others and beating myself up about not being at 150 to the point of tears. My daily powerades and Gatorades make my carbs high but when I do the math over and over again I start to get frustrated because I feel like I barely eat but yet there it is in black and white alllll my calories for the day. Ugh. Today is my 2nd day going back to only liquids for the 5 day pouch test but I took bites of my sons meals both times I cooked supper so I obviously have no control so my goal is to keep on all liquids until I can truly say I did my FULL 2 days. I think I mostly am just wanting to share/vent or even update but I could use any advice you wonderful friends could give right now

[mokee 588]

Look how far you have come. You can do anything you put your mind to. Best of luck. All your friends here want you to succeed.

[Tiffany Talbert Corbet 46]

You told yourself in the post....you're over thinking this. You're stressing (which is a major contributor to weight gain) and this is not good. Instead of thinking about it so much and crunching the numbers until you are cross-eyed, how about going for a walk and taking a look around. Enjoying the fresh air, the pretty trees, the summer flowers, the birds overhead. Gatorade and Powerades are VERY high in sugar. This could be contributing as well. I heard someone say (in one of the MANY weight loss attempts I've tried) that sugar is a inflamitory (and addictive!). In other words, the more sugar you have, the more your body will become inflamed and store the sugar it doesn't need as fat. I've worked very hard to get off of sugar. I know it's hard, but you might move to the G2 or the Powerades with lighter sugar. Also, in that same course, she said to always eat Protein before you eat sugar, as the Protein helps your insulin stores deal with the increase of sucrose.

PS. Don't over think how your posts will sound. We're all individuals and have different ways of expressing ourselves. I'm sure some of what I say on here is easily ignored, but maybe somewhere, some time something I say might help.

Good luck!!!

[dpeeler28 24]

can you drink crystal light or some other flavored water instead of the powerade/gatorade? i've always been told to steer clear of those unless i was severely dehydrated!

[SlowLossingGal 5]

Look how far you have come. You can do anything you put your mind to. Best of luck. All your friends here want you to succeed.

Thank you!

[SlowLossingGal 5]

You told yourself in the post....you're over thinking this. You're stressing (which is a major contributor to weight gain) and this is not good. Instead of thinking about it so much and crunching the numbers until you are cross-eyed' date=' how about going for a walk and taking a look around. Enjoying the fresh air, the pretty trees, the summer flowers, the birds overhead. Gatorade and Powerades are VERY high in sugar. This could be contributing as well. I heard someone say (in one of the MANY weight loss attempts I've tried) that sugar is a inflamitory (and addictive!). In other words, the more sugar you have, the more your body will become inflamed and store the sugar it doesn't need as fat. I've worked very hard to get off of sugar. I know it's hard, but you might move to the G2 or the Powerades with lighter sugar. Also, in that same course, she said to always eat Protein before you eat sugar, as the Protein helps your insulin stores deal with the increase of sucrose.

PS. Don't over think how your posts will sound. We're all individuals and have different ways of expressing ourselves. I'm sure some of what I say on here is easily ignored, but maybe somewhere, some time something I say might help. <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/smile.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />

Good luck!!![/quote']

Thank you. Helped me

[SlowLossingGal 5]

can you drink crystal light or some other flavored Water instead of the powerade/gatorade? i've always been told to steer clear of those unless i was severely dehydrated!

My surgeon is the one that suggest I always have a Gatorade in my hand. I only drink 1-2 a day and he said this wasn't good enough. I drink Powerade zero most of the time but I wonder why this is different for me? I thought it was a surgery thing??!

[dpeeler28 24]

if your surgeon said so then i guess ok....but if you're getting plenty of Fluid in (other than the gatorade) that just seems like a waste of calories/carbs to me. i'm definitely not a dr by any means, so don't take me at my word. but don't be frustrated by what others are eating/drinking and their weightloss, you are doing GREAT!!

[O.T.R. sleever 3,386]

My surgeon is the one that suggest I always have a Gatorade in my hand. I only drink 1-2 a day and he said this wasn't good enough. I drink Powerade zero most of the time but I wonder why this is different for me? I thought it was a surgery thing??!

May I ask, how much excercise are you getting in? Gatorade is great, but you really don't need all those electrolytes if you are not sweating heavily (from excercise). One of my tricks is I dilute almost everything I drink. If I have a 20 oz Gatorade I'll add anywhere from 10-20 oz of Water to it.

[Sammi25 18]

we all drive ourselves crazy at one point obsessing over what everyone elses numbers are versus our own. i am a little over a year out and i am not at goal and i see people who are at 8,9 months and i think, "im failing." but i also have lost 120 pounds! and i have to remind myself that while others may be at goal of losing 80 pounds, i had to lose much more. so try not to obsess because your journey, body and numbers are different from everyone elses. we all hit the dreaded stalls and the best thing to do is switch up your carb intake and work outs. the longer post op we are, the harder it is to lose weight. at a year out i lose super slow compared to the first 6 months. and thats okay! i have never been into gatorade just because of the carbs, i would also dilute it if i were you like other people have mentioned. just be mindful and try to switch things up it sounds like you are being hard on yourself, which we all do!

[SlowLossingGal 5]

if your surgeon said so then i guess ok....but if you're getting plenty of Fluid in (other than the gatorade) that just seems like a waste of calories/carbs to me. i'm definitely not a dr by any means' date=' so don't take me at my word. but don't be frustrated by what others are eating/drinking and their weightloss, you are doing GREAT!![/quote']

Thanks. I agree actually that's why I only had 2 as opossed to 5 a day lol. I saw all the patients in his waiting room with their Gatorade and thought wow they all look very healthy so I force myself into drinking them.

[SlowLossingGal 5]

May I ask' date=' how much excercise are you getting in? Gatorade is great, but you really don't need all those electrolytes if you are not sweating heavily (from excercise). One of my tricks is I dilute almost everything I drink. If I have a 20 oz Gatorade I'll add anywhere from 10-20 oz of Water to it.[/quote']

I used to exercise at 3 days a week heavy. I have a trainer that I see at least once a week but my at home exercise has really slowed due to my sons schedule. I love the idea of diluting them though. What are your thoughts on skipping them all together if I in fact have a very lazy day?

[SlowLossingGal 5]

You are very right. Isn't funny how sometimes you just need to hear it from someone else to snap outta it. Thank you for your reply

[SlowLossingGal 5]

You are very right. Isn't funny how sometimes you just need to hear it from someone else to snap outta it. Thank you for your reply <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/smile.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />

Sammi25 this was for you. Just figuring out how to use my phone app sorry!

[CdnExpat 49]

I do my fitness pal and have begun obsessing at how much more I am eating than others and beating myself up about not being at 150 to the point of tears. My daily powerades and Gatorades make my carbs high but when I do the math over and over again I start to get frustrated because I feel like I barely eat but yet there it is in black and white alllll my calories for the day. Ugh.

You're losing. That's the important thing, right? How much and when are less important than the fact that you're losing. Try some of these things for the obsessing:

1. Write down the ruminating thought(s). Those repetitious phrases that echo round & round in your head, write them down.

2. On a scale of 1 to 100, rate how much you believe the thought to be true. (1 not at all, 100, totally)

3. Under that thought, write down anything - anything at all - that contradicts the thought.

4. Now write down as a percentage how much you struggled with these kind of thoughts before surgery & wls.

5. Carefully re-read everything you've written, and come to a conclusion about the repetitious thoughts.

6. Re-rate their accuracy based on the objective information you've gathered.

7. Visualize yourself shrinking the thought(s) into their proper perspective in relation to the truth of your life.

It takes mindfulness, but it works.

Lastly, I'd suggest you see a nutritionist if you're not already to discuss the "Always having a Gatorade in my hand" thing. Maybe this could maybe be translated into something more helpful (and healthful). You could also change up your exercise routine a bit (there's great suggestions in that forum) and you could try SuperBetter (as an app if you've got an iPhone or iPad, or online at www.superbetter.com if not) for encouragement and support.

Keep at it... setbacks and stalls are not failure. Giving up is.

CE