As my date approaches I am not too fearful about the surgery itself. OR going to Mexico but more of not drinking with meals anymore! lol HOW am I going to remember that?? I have always drank at least 2 glasses of water or other drink with my meal. Guess I better start practicing not drinking.

What are some of you concerned about??

Glad to see I'm not the only one who's afraid to wake up during surgery... I wonder if that has ever happened. So scared. That would hurt!!! :0/

I have two big fears, #1 not coming out of surgery alive- my goal is to live a long life so I can be here for my kids and grandkids but the closer it gets (oct 11 is the day) I get more and mroe scared thinking I shouldn't be doing this. #2 is that my familiy will find out and they will judge me so bad that even after I lose weight I will want to hide in my apartment out of fear they will make me feel bad in front of people. I have 2 very skinny very healthy sisters that have more than their share of opnions of larger people me being one of them, my 27 year old daughter knows I'm having surgery tomorrow, she is so excited for me, but I haven't told anyone else- and last night my mom told me my uncle is going to be in surgery tomorrow as well we both have a check in time of 6 Am! I know I'll run into him and my aunt and I don't know what I'm going to say, I dont want to cancel my surgery but I don't want my family to know.. yikes its going to be a hard night to sleep I just want it to come and be over with.

Thank you! It's honestly such as yours that is keeping me on track. Thanks for reminding me of all the future benefits. I'm afraid to think on them for fear this doesn't work (although I know it is going to work!). Fear of success? Yes, I think so.

Thanks again. Mary

What am I MOST scared of? I need to come out of this surgery alive and kicking for my 11 year old son who has Asperger Syndrome (High Functioning Autism). Not only am I his Mom, but I am also his Teacher (homeschool), best friend, Rock of Gibralter, etc. He is VERY attached to me and I manage his special diet, supplements and meds, make sure he can function within his schedule (changes and deviations from the norm are very difficult for him) and more where he is concerned. Hubby and I are telling our son that I am on a special diet and will be going to the hospital for "some tests" when I have my surgery. Otherwise, eh would be terrified if he knew I was ahving surgery. Since he is homeschooled, he will be here with me when I get home from the hospital. Thankfully, my husband works from home, so that will help with juggling our son when I am sore and out of it if the anesthsia affects me the way it ahs in the past. I expect to be in some pain afterward b/c my pain tolerance is low and I've always been a slow healer.

I am concerned also about the usual type of stuff like: What will the pain be like? Will I lose and keep the weight off this time after going thru all this hullabaloo to make it happen? Will I be able to stop my emotional eating? Will the anesthsia make me ill? How long will it take till I can do everyday tasks again?

But we ARE going to make it through this, October Friends! This is the perfect time of year to have the surgery. We will be doing great by the holidays and not adding on tons of weight this year from all the holiday foods! We are having this done before major ice and snowstorms (for many of us) and after the horrid heat (for people like me in TX where we have finally just come out of a long, long heatwave). We have a new year ahead that will be OUR year for healthy bodies and smaller, more attractive clothes! We will be better able to get around, exercise with more ease, and feel less outcast around non-obese people. By golly, we will surely be proud of ourselves! And I know we will be thankful for the surgery in the long run. We must take each hurdle a day at a time.

Looking and moving forward!

Sleeving on the 17th,

Leah in TX, aka Mamasez