Hello everyone! My name is Sylvia, I'm 26, live in houston, texas and just had my Sleeve surgery on aug 31st. I struggled so much just to get here. My journey started in 10/2010. I was aware of wls but was too scared to actually do anything about my weight surgically because I have always been big all my life and in a way thought surgery was the easy way out. It wasn't til I saw 328 lbs on the scale (and im 5'2") and just blew me away. I had to do something. I was depressed, my psoriasis and arthritis weren't helping me and my life was just miserable. I attended a seminar at the Davis Clinic here in Houston. A week later I meet Dr. Garth Davis and talked about my health history, why I was there and what I wanted. At the seminar I had heard about the sleeve gastroectomy for the first time and was interested, and thought it was best for my health sake to proceed with surgery. My insurance only required 3 months of nutritional classes & 1 psychological session. I thought it would be the easiest thing. Wrong! In November I didnt go to the class because I got scared and thought mentally I want ready. My husband (who has been so wonderful & supportive) told me to do whatever makes me happy but think about it. I decided to go back. In December I started the 1st nutritional class and got motivated. In january I started eating healthy, walking 3 miles four times a week (even if my arthritis interfered) I did my 3 nutritional clases with success and had lost 10 lbs on my own! I made my psychological appointment in March and thought I had done everything I needed until the psychiatrist called me the next day and told me she had reviewed everything with Dr. Davis and they both felt I needed extra counseling for 3 more months due to my depression history. They wanted to make sure I would be ready mentally I guess. I was devastated. I wanted to give up. I felt like I practically had to prove to them I wanted this even though I knew I wanted it. I went ahead and did what they asked. I did my 3 months of therapy. So she reviewed everything with the psychiatrist & surgeon. I got a call from Dr. Agosta in late June telling me everything was a go and all I had to do now was wait for my insurance. I heard back in mid July from the office, I was approved and I could choose my date! I picked late August because that way I could situate everything in time at home and work. So now I'm here! Sept 5th. Five days post-op. Everything turned out ok during surgery and while I was at the hospital. I been home 2 days and I can say I was fine until today. Its 1: 30 am and I sit here in tears because I'm happy I did it but mad at the fact I'm hungry but can't eat what I want. Im tired of eating soups. Its like that ugly unhealthy person in the back of my mind wants me to fail. Like telling me this was the worse mistake I have done. But yet I also know its not. I see my friends that have had wls so happy and strangers saying the surgery was the best thing that has happened to them. But honestly this whole recovery sucks. I can drink and eat soups but I don't know when I'm full! So I dont eat. I'm scared if I eat or drink more than I need to I'll be more in pain. Its just crazy to have gotten here and feel like maybe I wasnt ready. I was so strong during my 2weeks liquid diet. I was 315 lbs when I started the diet and the day of surgery I was 295 lbs. I know that alone should be my motivation. I just feel helpless. I want that voice telling me this was a mistake to go away so I can keep pushing forward. I hope someone here understands me and helps me because I don't want this to be it. :'(

Thank you everyone! As the days pass by...(today is day 6 I believe) it gets a little bit better. My mom actually made natural homemade chicken soup today and blended it for me. It was the best thing I have tasted in weeks! I was scared to eat it, but thankfully to god it went down with no problem (except for some pain because I was eating it too fast) everytime I get on here and readyour experiences and thoughts it greatly helps me. I know I'm not alone! again I wish everyone the bestest luck! We can do this :-)