Hi everyone,

I’m Vanessa and am 20 years old. I started this because i want to read and see different journeys so i am excited to see what i'll find. I will be having my surgery in September and ever since i got my date i have been having these nightmares! I wake up in the middle of the night because i can’t stand the pain after surgery and i even dreamt once that i felt everything during surgery! I’m so excited for this but i can't understand why I’m getting so nervous. I knew this is going to be a great new chapter in my life and i can’t wait.

Congrats on your decision to get the sleeve, that's wonderful!! I think the nightmares are just some of your anxiety and fear coming through your dreams. I don't remember any nightmares, but I did have a lot of anxiety, especially as it got closer and closer. I knew the sleeve was what I wanted to do for yrs, and when I was finally able to come up with the funds and everything came together, I admit, I panicked!! It's just part of the process, and wouldn't be normal if we didn't worry, this is a surgery afterall. But it's very rare to have complications, so take comfort in that. I'm very happy for you, good luck and keep us updated!

Hi Vanessa! I think feeling scared and nervous before surgery is perfectly normal. I didn't have dreams like you but I had moments of panic. I would think, I'm in perfect health but I'm overweight...am I ruining my health? Also, will I die years earlier than I would have because I can't eat enough. Also, I would wake up in the middle of the night and think I may not be alive much longer. Also....lots of also's...lol.....I thought of writing letters to my family because I thought this might be it for me. Even after surgery, I had a few nights were I wasn't feeling not so hot because I had no energy and I just felt sick...so, I was afraid to go to sleep because I was afraid something was terribly wrong and I wouldn't wake up in the morning.

Now, I am 22 days post op and look back and think...hey, I was never close to death....never close to anything serious. Yes, this surgery is major but it's a rather safe surgery compared to others. Yes, I wasn't feeling good and I had NO energy at all but it came with the surgery...nothing unusual. I think we are all scared of the unknown! This has been really tough to go through...all the changes, everything...but I don't think I was ever in danger. And yes, I would do it again. I have blogged about my journey since preop if you are interested...blog is below with my signature. Nothing exciting....just my feelings and experiences.

You will be okay! You won't feel great....but you will be okay! It's okay to feel nervous...it comes with the territory! Hang in there!

Your comments are all so helpful thanks guys and ill be sure to keep you updated

and Janese58 im in orange county too!