Hey Guys,

I am sorry to repeat what I know others have said many times, but I just have to vent somehow.

I start my pre-op diet tomorrow, due in on 9th Sept. And I am really really afraid.

The problem is I'm not really sure what I'm afraid of.... one minute I think I am afraid of going under anaesthetic, then a couple of days later I am freaking out about the flight over to Southampton. Just when I've convinced myself that the flight is going to be fine, I start fearing complications. Then I get scared of never being able to comfort eat ever again. But I got over that....

NOW I am scared that for some reason I will regret my decision. That for some reason I am going to have to admit that I was weak and should have just done this the "proper way" by exercising more and getting further therapy for my eating problem. That I am going to have to face "I told you so's" from those who haven't supported my decision.

Right now I honestly wish I could look into the future and make sure that I'm doing the right thing.

I know that no-one can tell me what is right for me. I also know that you all have your own fears and concerns and probably don't want me adding mine to the table.

But I also know that some of you have been through this and now have no regrets. I honestly hope I can be strong and become one of you.

Thanks for listening.

Lyndsey xxx

Wow, it's really spooky that you bumped this up Amy. I have been freaking the .... out today and felt like I am making a mistake. Everything hit me at once, especially the debt.

I am also struggling with feeling weak and dizzy on my pre-op diet, and wondering how on earth I am going to be feeling when eating even less than I am now.

Time of the month and busy time at work probably isn't helping my nerves either.

I am going to re-read your post and take your advice of reading the success stories to try and boost my morale.

Thanks again for the motivation. xxx