I'm into my 2nd week of "liquid" pre-op diet and going insane. Whigging out on my (thank God, ever-supportive) husband, and wondering if I should go ahead with my VSG (scheduled for June 29th). I feel so conflicted and have no one to relate to about it. My husband has no doubts about it and everyone in this Forum seems so rah-rah and gung-ho... am I alone??? As my huz reminds me, I haven't been able to conquer this issue on my own, but the tales I read about having difficulty with getting enough Protein in and severe restriction scare me. People who are a few years out are writing about still being able to only take little bites here and there and dinner taking 3 hrs to get through.

I asked my surgeon if he would use a larger bougie than a 32, and he won't. I wish there was a less radical middle ground and not so all-or-nothing. I'm okay with losing my weight more slowly. I definately don't want the band and am still planning on going through with it (not many other options) but as my surgery date gets closer, I'm freaking out. Is NO ONE out there conflicted (even if you're commited) about having this surgery?:biggrin0:

I feel the same way... one minute I am ready and gung ho ... then the next minute I am petrified. I have the same thought patterns... maybe I can do it myself... I can change everything. Then I realize if I was going to do it, I would have already made the changes. I have tried weight loss plans and programs until I am blue in the face. I lose the weight but sooner or later I drop everything and it all comes back with a vengence.

I have second and third thoughts about the surgery but the reality of my knees hurting and my feet on top of other health issues weigh on me more. I need to make this change for myself and the surgery will make it possible.

I have my last weigh in on July 1st... then blood work and PCP approval.... and then I can set a surgery date. I feel lucky that my husband will be doing the same procedure. It will make it easier to have his support and vice versa.

To everyone who replied to this thread, I want to say, thank you. My conflict and indecision about going through with the surgery was getting worse, not better, as the date got closer. I was lucky enough to be connected through an aquaintance, to the nurse practitioner of a different, though equally renouned bariatric practice. We talked on the phone and she told me that all of the latest research shows that the 32 bougie is now considered the gold standard, and that I should have no difficulty supporting a healthy pregnancy after VSG. Apparently, gastric bypass patients have healthy pregnancies, and we all know about their post-op plumbing! She talked with me about the latest findings about obesity as a metabolic disease (is even teaching a class on it to 1200 RNs soon- of which I hope to be one). Anyway, she talked me down off the fence and I am feeling so grateful. I really just needed an expert second opinion from someone totally impartial, and I got it. Thank GOD!

So, I had an EGD yesterday (throat is SORE) and the "duodenal polyp" that they thought they saw in the upper GI is non-existant. I'm starting on Prilosec for the little bit of erosion they saw though, so at least, I'm going into this VSG with uber scrutiny! They even found a small hiatal hernia, so I'll get that repaired as well. I'm still not losing as much pre-op weight as they want, but I think I'll be okay. Thank you all for being a supportive part of my journey.

Hi Cindy, I am glad you are feeling happier.

Jane x