You know we have all dieted and gained a whole lot . But one day it clicks and we say enough??? No more and we go to WSL ..

For me I was in the hospital for emergency Gall Bladder surgery and said to the surgeon why don't you throw a lapband on while you are in there . And he said lets talk about that when we are done. First of all I was amazed he thought I was FAT enough to be a candidate(true denial) . Second my husband was onboard immediately(more denial)Third that I was actually FAT enough that BCBS would cover it.

It toook me 17 monthes to get to the operating table but 4 days before I got the official approval from insurance happen to be New Years Eve. I cried myself to sleep I just could not face another year OF BEING FAT, and I said ENOUGH I will have this surgery and if I have to beg borrow or steal it I will self pay . Understand this was a luxury and I did not give myself luxuries ever. It was the cost of a Boat. A darn nice vacation or two. Something for the kids like a house down payment and I was going to spend it on just me???????? YUP.

That was the day for me when I figured out that I was worth it. No more FAT NEW YEARS , no more I will do this on my own, no more guilt, no more shame, no more pills. I had to get to the point that it was enough and once I got there I never looked back.

I forgot to say that fateful New Years Day I weighed more then the football players playing in the Bowl games. Can you just imagine how that felt? And they were moving their bodys around on a football field. While I sniffled on the couch .