Ever since I started puree and mushy food 4lbs came back and I feel like I can eat whatever I want! Is this lapband hell?

I'm guessing it is. I had my first fill at 4 weeks post-op because I was suddenly starving and couldn't seem to get full. It's been 3 weeks since my fill and I haven't had the starving problem again yet, but I am having trouble with portion control again, so I am going in next week for another fill, unless I can figure out how to drink enough fluids to resolve this. (I am still struggling with fluid intake, and have been chronically dehydrated for years!)

Sound like time for a fill.

I called to move up my appt. They dont want me to do it right before holiday so Im going next Wednesday!

Sounds like bandster hell to me. A fill may help, but you may need several fills to achieve optimal restriction and those fills aren't going to make weight loss automatic. Relying heavily on fill magic can get you in trouble, because tighter isn't always better. I've gained weight when my band was too tight because I was eating "easy" stuff (yogurt, pudding, etc.) instead of the solid food that provides the early and prolonged satiety that the band is meant to give. So hang in there!

No sooner did I post my earlier response did I think of another thing to say (an ongoing problem I have). I think bandster hell is sadly unrecognized by bariatric medical professionals, and I wish more bandsters were warned about it so they wouldn't be tortured by "Is my band broken?" thoughts so early in their journey. My dietitian told me several times that I wouldn't be hungry after my band surgery, but I was very, very hungry. I asked about it at an in-person WLS support group meeting and no one there said a thing to confirm or refute what I'd said. It wasn't until I joined some online WLS support sites that I discovered I wasn't alone! That discovery didn't solve my hunger problem, but it sure helped with the "Am I imagining this?" thoughts.

So true Jean! I was at my wits end... I just kept thinking this darn thing doesnt work !