Hi everyone,

I have my Dr. appointment on March 2...but everytime I think about it too much I feel ashamed. Why can I not be strong enough to just eat less? If I have the courage to let a Doc dig into me and put a clamp on my stomach why can't I find the courage and strenght to just limit my calories on my own? It is making me crazy and ashamed at myself...the only problem is I have been fat for 10 years and THAT shame is wiping me out...I figure I can be fat another 10 years and lose the last of my younger years (I am 36) not doing any of the things I love (skiing, rock climbing, hiking etc...) or I can get this done and start living....I just wish I didn't feel like such a failure making this choice. Help me feel better about it! Thanks

I think we have all felt like that. I know I didn't tell anyone what I was doing. I lied to everyone about why I was off work. Only told my DH and parents. But now I don't care who knows. I'm proud of the choice I made. It is a tool and it does take work. But being about to take my daughter to the park was the biggest thing that changed my feeling of failure into one of success. She couldn't remember when I had run and played like that with her. I am a new mom and it has changed my life. Good luck and PM me anytime you need to talk.