Okay Little did I know that I would have to diet my whole life....I thought that Weight Loss Surgery was my way out.. sorta speak... Okay the band is GREAT I am not complaining... even though I have had problems...

But hear me out...

We diet over and over again... and what.. we get the band.. and then what it cures us??? I dont get it... are we all afraid of what we will do to our bands, and that if we "eat right" Its like we will be ok... its like a life long diet anyway... Why cant we do this all along.... The Band Helps us control how much we eat.. but still we can eat junk and junk and more junk... we need to learn to eat right and in the right amount.....

Well it seems like a BIG diet plan to me..

Sometimes I love my band, and sometimes I think I should of joined Jenny Craig.. heck Kristie Allie lost as much as I have and I have been trying longer, or been on the BAND longer...in my case.... So many on here are trying diets after diets... " The Cereal diet, Nurtisystem, Weightwatchers..... What is WLS for anyway.... to make us STICK to a diet... because we are all losers and can never stick to one on our own????

So many times I wish I was just be Anorexia or Bulimia... maybe then I will lose the weight... I am really trying...

I had my leak... and no matter what fill I get nothing seems to help... I still have massive pain im my stomach area where the scare tissue was found and I belive I will live with that all my life... and now I starting to belive I will be FAT forever living with that pain.....

Sorry this was so long... I just had to let it out... I know not much of you will reply and I dont care... Im here for support, and who gives the support is what matters even if it one or two people... So thank you to anyone who took the time to listen (read) what I had to say........

Tonight is a bad night for me and I guess Im just feeling sorry for myself... I should go to bed and I will feel better by morning...

Again Thanks Love ya all!!!!!!!!

Thats right, you are having pain as well (I forgot about that when I posted yesterday)

Without going back and reading your old post, I thought I remembered the pain being better right after the surgery. But its back? (or maybe it never left)

This is NOT normal - you know that! and yes, you NEED to talk about this to your doctor. Please call him - TODAY! (**and here's your kick in the arse**)

Im going to repeat this restriction crapola again... (and it truly IS crap - seeing that some days its good/bad)

It took me about 4 weeks after my second fill to get restriction. REAL restriction. But I didnt realize what restriction actually felt like (thank God for hindsight) until much later.

I figured that the 1/2 meat pattie that I ate was "stuck"... never dawned on me that it was the pouch being full from my level of restriction. (I told you I was a slow learner )

It took a long time get the mind and stomach working together... for things to click! (Ha! I sound like Ive got this figured out) Im hoping that this may be your situation.

And all these "rules" that people post on here never worked for me. Only the Water rule - drink plenty of it. You know your body. So I challenge you to create your OWN rules. If I eat anytime before 11am, I seem to eat ALL day. So I try not to eat until I actually get hungry... which most of the time seems to be lunch time. When I do this, Im able to control my eating much more. But this is a personal thing - like I said, we are all different.

*** BTW, when I do get hungry, Ill have a Wendy's chili or a chedder/bacon baked potatoe from there, or if im really restricted (around my cycle) Ill grab a McD's shake - I like McD's because its yogurt - not ice cream. Just wanted to give you some ideas of what I do.

I dont count calories or carbs or protien... I just eat to live, no longer live to eat. Back in the old days, I would get a # 4 - biggie size. But now Im full to the gills with a small Wendy's chili. I like that new way of eating. And Ive lost 70 pounds in the process of adjusting to this "new way of eating".

So, eating healthy ISNT dieting... its a way of life.

Its all about choices Sister.

But for now - PLEASE call that doctor about your pain. Thats the primary concern. CALL NOW!

(((hugs)))

Sorry I'm late getting around to this........I just wanted you to know that I'm here for you. I've been down about my band lately too, especially since I can lose a pound for weeks in a row, then the next 2 weeks gain those right back. It's maddening!!!

Please give a holler if you need me. You know I'm always here for you.

Being banded can be frustrating. I haven't lost a lb since... July? I go through stages. Stage one where I get super determined and bust my butt and watch all my calories, etc, etc. Then I go through a stage where I quit counting my calories, but I'm still busting my butt and watching what I eat. Then I give up altogether and don't care for a while. For the last however many months I haven't gained or lost on any of these cycles, until I crept up over the last couple of months by 5 lbs. Then I quit snacking and lost that really fast, but I still haven't lost any 'new' weight.

I will tell you though, I did not see a difference in how I looked until after I'd been stuck for a while. It's like my brain caught up with my body and realized what I really look like now and updated the picture of myself in my mind. You will see the changes eventually, and I'm sure that other people can tell.

Feel better!