JessIsTiredOfBeingFat

So I've teetered these last few weeks trying to hop up on that wagon and struggled severely with self motivation, time management and preparation. I let that damn food speak to me...I gotta get this straight in my head..."To loose weight, to improve my health, I CAN'T I WON'T EAT YOU!!!!!" BUT Thursday, I had my fill FINALLY!!! Then tonight i went to my first support group meeting. It was pretty great. I haven't openly shared my weight loss surgery with friends, family, and co workers...and never thought much of it because I figured I didn't need anyone and I could do it myself...but then tonight, being surrounded by people like myself where I heard multiple things that I, myself, have said or done that no one but a weight loss surgery patient could understand...I realized 'wow! These people don't sympathize; they empathize!!!!" Support just got a whole new meaning tonight... Off to bed I go with an optimistic attitude that tomorrow WILL be a great day, I will MAKE it a great day!!! 6 am...you'll be here soon and I'm gonna meet you with my tennis shoes and ready to head to the gym. Oh PLEASE let me wake up and get myself out of bed PLEASE!!!!! Jess

Good for you!!!!! You deserve this and way to go for standing up for what you believe in and for yourself and your future family!!!!!!

WOW! I love this post!! You've nailed it on the head!!! I play this detrimental games with myself as well!!! And I'm still searching for why I 'sabotage' myself...I know mine is due to my self esteem. It's like I don't think I'm worth it or something. I've let others make my decisions for me in regards to what I put in my mouth for far too long!!! I have a terrible TERRIBLE food addiction and I've been trying all my life to conquer it. It's not just the TASTE of the food, it's the feeling. I dunno how to explain what I'm feeling. Thanks for this blog...these are the kind of posts that I'm hoping give me the empowerment to continue on!!!! Happy new life!!!!

Oh lol...no I have no restriction right now!!! I've been banded since Aug 2008

Amazing! Great job!!!

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I agree. I do keep fruits and such but the bad stuff is sooooooooooooo appealing. You may say, throw it out. Nope, can't...I have a house full of peeps that aren't eating as healthy as me. But you're right, pay day is Friday and I plan to stock up with some healthy alternatives to grab if I have the urge late at night!!! Thanks!!!

AWESOME!!!! That's the first step! You got this! When you're happy and healthy it will spill into the other aspects of your life!!! Get that support system in place, it's VERY important and start that exercise and healthy eating now!!! Keep us updated!