i'm sorry you are feeling like this. my surgery is scheduled for Thursday. a few years ago i started the process but was unable to pay the out of pocket costs. this last round started in Nov. i had my consult and immediately did my endoscopy at the end of the month.
my first hurdle was when i met with the psych. i am Bipolar so his concern was my last hospitalization. however he had me come back a month later to see him and the dietitian for the second time. i was medically cleared by that visit. he saw that i was stable and that i made progress with diet and exercise. by the end of February i was told my date would be 3/1. then i found out they were still waiting for my secondary insurance approval. sigh, right?
i received my approval two weeks ago. between Feb. and then i felt like it would never happen. i got to the point where 'this was it'. like i had to accept it. but i pushed through. i continued to increase my protein & cut down on carbs and sugar.
if you ask my mom she will say that i am the most impatient person in the world. everyday i felt like i did something wrong (afterall, why was insurance taking forever?)
but here i am. day 4 of my pre-op diet. this time tomorrow i will find out when i have to be the hospital Thursday. i don't always feel good but reading so many inspiring stories really makes me feel like i can do this. i have no idea how i will feel after i wake up from anesthesia. but let me tell you. i was laying out at the beach this last Saturday and i realized 'by this time next year that i will have that bikini body'! i don't expect to be a size 2 or to lose 100 lbs. in three months. but i know if keep working hard i can make my goal.
like my bf said, keep your eyes on your goals!