When I first decided to get the band I only talked about it with people whom I see me every day. Because we are a military family I am far from my actual family it would be easy to keep my surgery from them. But I really felt I wanted to tell my brother and sister in law that I was going through this process.
I finally talked to both my brother and his wife this past week. I am so glad I did. I really needed to tell people who truly care about me and my well being. They are concerned for my health but they are happy that I am making an educated decision on something I want to do.
I received my sleep study results yesterday and I am in the clear in that respect. It looks like all I have left are 2 nurtritionist meetings and 1 support group meeting due in February.
I'm getting very close to the end!!! So very excited!!!!!
So Its been about a week since my last fill.
The fill itself was an issue since my port likes to hide from my Dr.
I had to be stuck, and then re-stuck a few times before the site was found.
Since then I've had these horrible Pb/Slime attacks,
and i fear i'm becoming bulimic.
No matter what i eat, solids, purees, smoothies, oat meal...
It gets stuck, even after long chew periods.
It hurts like heck, and i end up having to regurgitate it because of the pain.
I feel so weak and tired from the lack of food.
I tried a smoothie this morning with some protein powder,
but i couldn't even finish 3 oz before it felt like it was starting to slime.
Since my surgery i have lost 6 lbs.
I am exercising, no soda, no fast food, no candy/sweets
lots of water, tea and protein drinks
and still nothing!
I am starting to regret this whole thing.
I'm hungry as heck, but it hurts to eat
to the point that i'm scared of food.
I'm not losing any weight,
but i have these ugly scars
I feel like crap.
and i'm tired of drinking my meals.
I miss Food.
Hey friends,
I must say today is the first Good day I have had in two weeks. It's not at all about the band. I got sick on Tuesday with a horrible case of strep throat. Today is my second day out of bed without a fever of 102 or more. I may be starting to see a glimmer of a light at the end of the tunnel. Yippppeeeeeeeeeeee. Sad to say that I could not eat hardly anything due to my throat hurting so bad but GLAD to say I am down 23 lbs in 15 days,.
My nausea has improved alot. My biggest problem is GAS and I mean GAS.....If I am not hiccuping, burping, or you know my husband starts looking for me for fear I have died. lol I am not sure why I have so much gas but am trying and different types of excercise to eliminate it.
Hope everyone has a great Super Bowl Sunday and I am so happy to have a smile on my face and feel good.
Becky
Ok i know this may sound crazy, but since i know my band is tight in the morning i dont try to eat. Some times i can eat 2 pieces of bacon and i can always do a protein shake or slim fast if i'm being lazy. but later in the evening i can never tell if i will be able to eat. or what i will be able to eat. i dont need an unfill cuz it changes on a daily basis and i can eat. if i'm going out with friends i find myself literally praying LORD PLEASE LET ME BE ABLE TO EAT! lol am i the only one who prays they will be able to eat..LOL ijs!
Blending all soups, I've been making really runny protein and greek yogurt shakes 3x a day due to low energy, trying to walk cause know we will drop weight fast. I've learned sadly extra skin may be my friend some of it can be prevented.
Even thought most of its gone, how much have you lost ?
I haven't thrown up like on the band but have cheated on some nuts.
Also know from Band past need to get on daily vitamins, as I was so deficient and now terrified of not getting enough enzymes. I just got really low with the band in my obsession to be thin. Not worth being sick though.
Hydration is key to detoxing and flushing toxins from my body, trying to get 64oz water daily,
Cutting fresh lemons & limes for water is helping get water in.
Glad today was the last dat for cipro, then lots probiotic yogurt .
I am so craving potato chips.
So we are moving on, I keep reminding myself not to focus on a recent mistake You can't change th e past, but worrying about it can change the future by bringing you down and leaving you in a stressed-out. Let go of anything that has already happened, and concentrate on the road ahead. The horizon is quite bright, but you will only see it if you stop looking down and start looking up. Move forward one step at a time if that's all you can muster, but move forward.
Patti Lissberger and Jerusalem Hospital bother were fantastic on my recent surgery and would highly recommend both.
I can say with a great deal of certainty… Patti Lissberger truly prepared me for the road that was in front of me. She has dedicated her life to helping others find their path when it comes to weight loss surgery. She is inspirational and spends a great deal of time educating people who are having weight loss surgery. I met several other patients while in Mexico, and cannot begin to tell you how much more prepared I was… All the patients received excellent care, but Patti helped me to the point that I was sharing her knowledge with other patients. She even took the time from her calendar to go with me to Tijuana. I don’t think I would have gone through the process if it hadn’t been for her.
What is extremely important to take from my situation is this… There are some great surgeons and some “not so great” surgeons… The combination that will give you the success that you are seeking is to have the right coordinator. I learned a lot while in Mexico and realize that I am very fortunate to have Patti as my personal “Patient Advocate”. She is the one person that you can trust and count on throughout your journey. She makes herself available 24/7.
Next Tuesday is my surgery. I am no longer struggling with my decision to go forward with it despite that fact that two of my closest friends have been very negative lately. My one friend who has bariatric surgery, says things like, “You’re really going to miss eat…you’ll see” or “Well, you lost some weight on your own, do you really think you need to get the surgery?” Now, I know what the nutritionist meant when she said that your friends and/or family will try to sabotage your success. Even my husband has been a little discouraging, “You’re going to be in a lot of pain.” I know they mean well and they just trying to be helpful and they are worried but I believe that only you knows what best for you. The only person right now that I think is truly supportive is my dad because he has seen me struggle to get this weight off for so many years.
I made up my mind 6 months ago that after years of trying so many difference diets that failed me, it was time to take extreme action. I really don’t have that many more years left. I almost died 6 years ago of a cardiomyopathy. I got a second chance and I am not going to waist another day not feeling good about myself, not being able to walk up one flight of stairs without gasping for air, not being able to shop in the regular petite section, not being able to sit on my floor with my kids, not being able to tie my own shoes without holding my breath.
I am not doing this to look thin. I just want to be healthy. I want to want to take picture of myself. I want a body that matches my personality. I want my back, knees, and feet not to hurt when I walk. I have a great life, a great husband, and great kids. I want to be around for grandchildren.
Hi all!
I am subscribed to an email newsletter called Godvine. Every weekday they send me an email with a verse, several video clips, and a story. This story was in the letter from yesterday, 2/3. It really warmed my heart, so I had to share it with you all.
"Get Off The Scale
Whether weight is a 'problem' in your life or it's some other single factor, this can apply to everyone. Never forget it!
You are beautiful. Your beauty, just like your capacity for life, happiness, and success, is immeasurable. Day after day, countless people across the globe get on a scale in search of validation of beauty and social acceptance.
Get off the scale! I have yet to see a scale that can tell you how enchanting your eyes are. I have yet to see a scale that can show you how wonderful your hair looks when the sun shines its glorious rays on it. I have yet to see a scale that can thank you for your compassion, sense of humor, and contagious smile. Get off the scale because I have yet to see one that can admire you for your perseverance when challenged in life.
It's true, the scale can only give you a numerical reflection of your relationship with gravity. That's it. It cannot measure beauty, talent, purpose, life force, possibility, strength, or love. Don't give the scale more power than it has earned. Take note of the number, then get off the scale and live your life. You are beautiful!"
Source: Something I Just Had To Share
It was a challenging day. Stress from home and family. Work went well and believe it or not it is a lot less stressful at work than it is a t home right now. I am caring for my elderly Father and the stress of that is making this journey difficult. I'm a stress eater and I had a good fight with myself to stay in the ring and duke it out with my inner cookie monster! lol After work I stopped at a local restraunt and got a cup of soup broth and tea. Just enough down time to re-charge before heading home! Tomorrow is Saturday and going to try and get out for a walk. Taking the kids skiing I really wish I could still ski too! Maybe next year this time! Onward and upward!
Working on me.... Its a hard thing to do..
I have spent a lot of my life taking care of people but when it comes time for myself I just cant seem to make the effort. WlS has made me look at myself in a diffent way.. for the frist time I have to put myself frist.. for the frist time I had to think about what I want !! in my life .. who I want in my life.. How I do this??
Well days three and four were good. I did avoid all of the yummy stuff that they served for the dinner after the service. Thanks to everyone for their well-wishes. Today the team I supervise had a potluck and ordered party trays from Chili's. I did have one boneless wing, but I had three shakes and a 1/2 cup of tomato soup today. Tomorrow I am going to get the remainder of things I need for my surgery. Any hints on where I can find the liquid tylenol?
Well I'm down 45 pounds as of today! Super psyched!! I'm starting to think of something I can do to reward myself once I reach 50 pounds lost. I was thinking a slice of pizza but maybe that's not the best thing to do haha. So I was wondering what you guys did to reward youself once you met a goal? 50 pounds is my first goal, being under 200 is my second, 100 pounds lost is my third, and then goal weight of 145 pounds.There are a few things on my wishlist (i.e. new iPhone and the Nook) so maybe I'll just buy myself something I want. So excited!!
Last night I had cream of mushroom soup - I pureed the hell out of the mushrooms with an immersion blender. Worked great!
For breakfast, I had the same, but I added a little bit of cheese to melt in it. It sat kinda heavy in my stomach, so I'll hold off on doing that again.
Lunch is cream of potato - also pureed. Its devine. Its sitting just fine :smile1: So I guess I just wasn't ready for cheesy yet. No biggie :smile1: I'll give it a couple days and try again :smile1:
Just got a new project for work too - requires a lot more in-depth research than the previous project, and I'm not relying on other people to find things for me - makes my life so much easier! yay!
We're getting a snowstorm here so the roads are free of people and full of snow, so hubby and I are gonna go do a little retail therapy so I can get my walk in
Gotta love being from snow-ville and living in an area where people are afraid of snow
I'm disappointed and want to cry! I was so excited to get my first fill and finally feel some restriction in my band. I went to the doctor on the 1st for my fill, and he could not access my port. He tried over and over (and my stomach is bruised to show it!!!). So, when he figured my port was flipped, he sent me to get an x-ray to confirm his suspicion. And, yep, its flipped. So, I ask, whats next? He told me if it was flipped, he would get me in today (Friday the 3rd) to open the area up and flip the port, do the fill and have a happy me. Well, I talk to his office today and the scheduler is putting me off, saying he cant do it today (even though he told me he would even do it in the office if needed), I have a good friend coming out next week for her birthday, so I cant go have this done while she is here, and so it looks like I am being put off for almost 2 WEEKS. I'm so disappointed, I'm trying to sit at work and look like I'm fine, but I just want to cry. I keep telling myself this is just a minor speed bump in my journey, but darn it, I dont like speed bumps!!!
Why is it that having the port flip is not a common complication, but if its going to happen, its going to happen to me???? UGH can I just scream now?
My surgery was on Tuesday. I was supposed to be first of the day, but got pushed back since I was relatively healthy compared to the other cases. So I didn't get out of recovery and into my room until 6pm that night. I had alot of pain that first night, mostly from the gas that they pumped in. But I asked my nurse to help me get up... I think I only walked about 10feet but it really helped loosen everything up and I felt better afterwards.
I had my leak test first thing Wednesday morning... I'm convinced that was the WORST part of the whole thing. I still don't know how I managed to NOT vomit! But, it was good news because there were no leaks. When I got back to my room, I have never been so excited to see chicken broth in my whole life! I walked a mile that day (in small increments) and did my one-oz-per-hour.
I stayed Wednesday night because I still had drainage from my JP. On Thursday morning the fellow came by and told me I could go home that evening. I told him I didn't care whether I went home or not as long as they took that stupid drain out! I was hard to do anything with that attached! I walked another mile that day and worked my way up to about 4-oz-per-hour.
Last night I slept in my own bed, albeit propped up quite a bit. So, my goal for this weekend is to work my way into sleeping flat! I'm still trying to increase my liquid intake, thats been hardest, but I'm "sip, sip, sipping" just like every one says to.
I'm glad I took two weeks off work because I definitely could not face going back on Monday!
I went for my first fill yesterday, 02/02/12. I was down 20 lbs, 5 inches off of my waist, 3 inches off of my neck!! CRAZY!! My doctor and her staff were so happy for me. The fill went very well. My experience began with an upper gi. I had no idea what that was. I guess it is kind of like an x-ray. I stood in front of a machine and swallowed white fluid. The machine took picture of the fluid going down my throat and into my stomach. It was to make sure that the band was placed correctly and not too tight. It was cool to see. Then I had my fill. I laid on the table with a pillow under my head and under my lower back. The doctor injected my stomach with a numbing medicine. Then she had me do a small crunch and she found my port. She stuck a needle to find the port entry and removed my fluid. I had 3 cc's. She then injected the 3 cc's and added 1 cc. I have a total of 4 cc's. The experience was totally painless. It did feel strange but not painfull at all. I will get another fill on the 22nd of Feb. We shall see how much weight I can lose until then. I didn't do any walking yesterday. Today I will. We will see what happens. My goal is to be under 200 by then. My weight has been fluctuating between 205 and 207. Not bad! Thanks again to everyone for sharing their stories. I find your words inspiring and informative! Thank you and good luck to you all!
Cori Jo
Nothing much to report back on solids again, had a chobani for b/fast with some granola (1 T) and yogurt covered raisins (1 T), was feeling fine until an hour before I could eat again and my stomach is growling, I know that's not "real" hunger but it's annoying.
Wooo talking about "real" hunger, um let's see what have I learned this week: headaches and fatigue for me = hunger. On Tuesday, I had a huge headache, I was still on liquids per mds orders so I thought "well maybe I'm hungry" made myself a protein shake and sure enough voila! Problem solved!
Yesterday, I was so tired that I ordered a cup of coffee (something I don't usually do after 4pm) and a packet of veggie cream cheese (since I was still on mushies) at D & D and I don't know if it was the coffee or the cream cheese, but once I got home, I was ready to go kick some @$$ at the gym!
So, I think I figured when my stomach is growling, that's just my body being pissed off. When I have headaches or am about to fall asleep standing up, that's hunger.
Also I ordered a Keurig for my office, I really do think I need a pep in my step in the afternoon. It's 1:30pm here and I'm yawning!
Have a good weekend! I'll be back on Monday!!!
So the area around my incisions itch - not the incisions themselves, but the areas that still have tape residue that I can't seem to get off. This is just plain torture lol. A little gold bond and I think I'll be ok
So my family wants me to write a cookbook of all of my recipes. I have a lot of custom recipes that they absolutely love. Most of them are ultra healthy but don't taste like it. Even some of my desserts are quite healthy I think I'm going to do it.
I might also do a cookbook for small portions with the same recipes and others that i come up with. Might be a lot of fun
I love love love to bake - but don't really eat anything I bake, other than a bite or two - then I give it all away. Holidays are fun - I send so much stuff to family and friends. I like the fact that I can still do that - and I'm going to work on altering some of my more...rich recipes to be more healthy and smaller portions.
I had some cream of mushroom soup. It was delish! I pureed the hell out of the mushrooms instead of straining them - good choice. A little fiber goes a long way haha. I ate probably 1/2 to 2/3 a cup of soup slowly and stopped when I felt full. I'm quite satisfied with the meal and so far, my tummy has not had a problem with anything I've given it. I even had part of a protein shake today at lunch - It wasn't my favorite thing - but it didn't come back up or even give me any trouble. Just kinda sat a little heavy at first. It became easier as I continued on it.
Ok so went to go see my surgeon today and guess what???....I LOST 13 POUNDS!!! In only 6 days people...6 days!! He took my bandages off and I thought for sure I'd be grossed out but they are BEAUTIFUL [except of course for some bruising mainly from the needles they gave me in my belly to prevent blood clots, but no worries...the needles don't hurt one bit..I was scared, but they were like nothing after the first one lol promise *PIX UP OF THEM WITHOUT BANDAGES*]!!! lol Kinda hurting right now, but beautiful nonetheless lol I can start my full liquid diet tomorrow YAAAY!!! That means strained cream soups [so having tomato soup tomorrow lol],sugar free ice cream and yogurt. OH YEA!! Of course though I've been craving ice cream so I went and got a small sugar free ice cream. Felt so good, didn't eat all of it...put the rest away. But, it also I believe caused me to have my first bowel movement since Saturday!! And he said I can go upstairs as many times I want now...I can run, jump,walk miles, do whatever just not lift yet. Oh yeaaa. I still can't overdue it becuz I'm still weak if I do to much like earlier today [i finally was able to take a shower on my own, but of course going up all the steps to the bathroom plus the shower was exhausting enough for me. I had to come down and relax. It really takes a lot out of you] and I'm not use to it, but little bylittle and it's gonna be great!! Oh and I just went driving for the first time in awhile!! Super feeling lol
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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