I am 6 days out and the pain is mostly gone. Yesterday I ate some cream of mushroom soup and It tasted so good. I ate more than I should have. About 10 teaspoons and the pain was almost unbearable. I have been eating 5 or 6 teaspoons tops. I couldnt help myself. It felt good and warm going in! lol I was miserable for at least an hour. But I did not throw up! I am having a bit of a problem with my bowel movements and the gas. Only a tablespoon full comes out and soft and chocolate, from my protein shakes. Will they ever be kind of normal again? I am afraid to go out because of the gas and What if its not gas. I have not got the two sorted out yet. Has anyone else had this?
My jeans have elastic waist and they go up to where my surgery was and it is uncomfortable. I have been roling them down. I went to my family dr for my first checkup. My sugar was 89 with no medication and my blood pressure was low 80/60. So, we may have to cut out my Lotrel blood pressure medication. I go back in 1 week to see how that is doing. I did not get a b12 shot, but took blood and will call with results to see if they r needed yet. I think I am doing good. I am so blessed with no diabetes medication! So HAPPY!
Take care all!
Week 19
Last week’s weight – 201.2
This week’s weight – 201.6
Total weight gained () this week – .4
Beginning weight – 246 lbs
Total weight loss since surgery – 44.4 lbs
Average weekly weight loss since surgery – 2.2 lbs
I gained .4 this week which is not too surprising. I went out of town on Friday and ate out a lot and didn’t exercise Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, or Monday. I have started back at school (doing professional development) so my mornings are a bit messed up now and I need to get an exercise routine in place that will work with my new back-to-school schedule. I did my Walk Away the Pounds DVD this morning (just one mile – the DVD is broke up into five mile segments) and I am hoping to walk outside this afternoon after my class (if it is not raining).
I have been noticing my hair coming out recently. I have to clear the drain in the bath tub of my hair every morning. The bar of soap has my hair on it and around the sink in the bathroom has my hair. Luckily I have very thick hair so it is by no means disastrous. It is, however, making me think about getting more protein into my day (and the need to clean the bathroom more ).
My challenge this week is establishing (getting back into) an exercise routine that will work for me when school officially starts back for teachers this coming Monday. I also need to drink more water (which by the way I like ice cold since my sleeve…weird).
Until next week!
This week has been so full of ups and downs! But as the days progress and my stamina increases, the ups are far outweighing the downs. I'm still struggling some with a liquid diet (and still have one whole week more to go), but today I finally found a sense of peace in not having to worry about what I'll have for lunch or dinner or snack, or whatever. It's simply not the many options - I have soup, a protein shake, or juice mixed with protein powder, and that's about it. I am actually enjoying the simplicity. I would LOVE to eat and chew something, but I wouldn't even if it was sitting in front of me... mostly because I'm scared of what would happen if it gets stuck or whatever, and I am DONE throwing up for awhile. So taking it easy is much... well, easier.
I've gotten to talk with some people on here, and am really loving meeting new people and where they are in their process of banding. It's so encouraging to talk to someone who is a month out from me, or a year out, or those who haven't gotten banded yet and have the excitement for the unknown! Looking forward to trying some new soup recipes, maybe a taco cheese soup or tomato-y lasagna/spaghetti soup
Still no regrets!
Im so mad- I wrote this whole emotional explanation about what was going on and during preview a virus notification came up and I lost the whole darn thing!!!! I will have to sum up my emotions briefly here.
Husband met me when I weighed 212. I gained weight as our relationship grew. Then our sex life got crappy because of my body issues and no stamina, aka cardio ability to participate. well.. Basically I had become a starfish!
Did the LBS, he was supportive despite admitting to sabotaging me in a previous diet. He lamented in the beginning that he would die and I would look awesome and someone else would get to benefit from my hard work.
When Ive mentioned the 2lb a week weight loss- nothing- dont expect a parade , but geez, no atta girl??
then I mentioned from another weight loss area this woman that lost 104 in a year! and his respnose was, 104, you should lose that in 4 months with this surgery because if not then why did you even get it. I told him 2lbs a week is good to which he replied, you could have done that on your own without the surgery, aka not spending the money...
He has commented several times about my portion control and bought stuff for me that I cannot and should not eat, like ice cream and muffin cookies.
I love him, but I now keep my daily struggle to stay on track to myself. I had hoped for a more supportive partner, but thats what Lap Band Talk is for.
Sorry- I just wanted to vent and now that I lost my original post I am livid.
So, I've been thinking about WLS for about a year, working toward it, researching it, talking to Doctors, and friends, etc. Then I made the decision to have it done, got established with a doctor, went through all the testing, waiting for insurance approval, getting on the surgery schedule, getting RE-scheduled. But tomorrow, I REALLY start my new life. Tomorrow I start my liquid diet.
I have all those little worries running thru my mind.
First, I'm a little worried about surgery. Not really the surgery itself, I'm a healthy woman and I'm not worried about complications. I feel very confident in doctor and his staff. I am nervous about the recovery. My real concern is I don't want to hurt, and I'm sure that I will hurt after I wake up. I consider myself pretty tough, but I don't enjoy being in pain. I also don't want to be a burden on my husband. He really works hard and I don't want him to have to worry about taking care of me.
Next I'm worried about being hungry. Not that I have ever really been hungry because I don't that very many people in the US can say they have ever TRUELY been hungry. I've missed a few meals, but I've not been hungry. I think I am more worried about losing my realtionship with food. I have gone on fasts before for 3 days for religious reasons, but I still missed my "friend" food. I have decided that I will be doing alot of praying and working to replace my desire for food with my desire for knowing Jesus. I know that I eat sometimes, just because I am lonely or just board. THose are the times I need to seek HIM to fill my void instead of food.
Besides my need to fill the void in my heart with food, I am a little worried about knowing what to eat and when to eat, I know I will learn by living through it. I know will learn what I can eat and what I can't eat as I go. I will stick with the diet I am given.
I am worried about my kids and what they are going to do during the week that I am gone. So many arrangements to make with them before I leave.
I am worried about my patients and their healthcare while I am gone as well.
That brings me to my next worry... I'm worried about having fatigue after the surgery. I do so much for so many people and I hope that I will have the endurance to keep up my schedule. I push so hard all the time. I have to be able to keep up the same pace!!
I am worried mostly about being a failure. I have done so many diets and failed. I have counted every calorie in and out for months and lost only a few pounds. I know that my thyroid issues contribute to the slow weight loss and I wonder how that will affect my weight loss with this. Will I still be successful? Will I fail at this after going thru all of this trouble? The doctors assure me that it will not be a problem, but I still worry!!
Despite all my worries, I am going forward. I have faith that God will see me through this journey. I have been praying so much about this surgery and there are a few scriptures that continue to come to my mind. The first is :
"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body," 1 Cor 6:19-20
I think of how I have not been honoring my body and taking care of the Holy Spirit's Temple. I pray I am going to have a new, remodled, healthy, beautiful temple to honor my Father in heaven.
The second scripture that has become so precious to me is :
Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalms 37:4
I have found that when I do delight in the Lord, my desires come into line with His desires. When my desires are in line with His desires, I find that my desires are granted. My desire at this time is to lose weight so that I can serve Him in a more energetic way. I pray that the surgery will help me to live a longer life so that I can grow old with my children, and my grandchildren and pass on HIs teachings to them and to raise them up in HIS way.
Tonight, I have ended a part of my life and tomorrow I begin a new. As for the little worries I will follow this advise:
"Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 4:6-7
SO, Heres to PEACE!!
AGAIN, I sit here at work on the edge of my chair praying that it doesn't break and knock my ass to the floor. I am always getting coupons to Victoria's Secret for free pairs of underwear. Not because I can wear their clothes but because I buy perfume and body products there. I went in last week to use my most recent coupon. I usually give them to someone I know but this time I decided that I would keep them for myself as an incentive to lose the weight. Okay, someday I may be able to wear a large or an extra large, but I don't ever see this ass fitting in a small or medium which is conveniently all that they had left of the free ones. I told my husband that the first thing that I am going to do when I lose enough weight is go to Victoria's Secret and purchase one of their cute push up bras. He already complains that my boobs are sagging to my belly button which is exaggeration but I am sick of wearing the 100% cotton sports bras to flatten everything as much as possible. We should challenge Hugh Heffner to publish an issue of Playboy magazine featuring ladies that have have lost 100 or more pounds. I can't say that if I were even a size 6 that I would have the nerve to do it, but I wonder how many of you would? Just a thought!
Well I am on day 6 post op. I have lost a total of 15 pounds and feeling pretty good. I am really tired all the time but I am sure that will change before long. School is starting next week and I am kind of bummed about that. I like having my daughter at home with me for company. I am kind of going through the gloomies. My oldest daughter moved back to Texas and it wasnt a happy moment. We had been fighting alot because of her boyfriend and I couldnt make her stay. Just some history, We moved to Colorado a year ago and its been a really hard move. I have two girls..... one is 19 the other is 12 and we moved them from where they had grown up their whole lives in Texas to the Denver area. My kids are my life and this last thing where my oldest moved had just been really hard on me. I would love to move back to Texas but I just dont see that happening anytime soon. So here I sit in Colorado with my family split apart, I am tired and honestly have no friends in the area, I am all of the sudden very unsure about my eating and if I am doing it right. I know.... I sound like a cry baby and I just need to re read things in my lap band book. I am so scared of screwing up that I am hyper sensitive . LOL I am working very hard to keep my liquids going and I have been eating jello, and I just started drinking a little bit of a protein shake, broth. I will get through my gloomies. I just needed somewhere to vent
It's been almost four weeks since my surgery, and I've noticed my weight loss has been pretty steady at a pound every other day. That's four pounds a week! Oh, how I wish it could stay that way until I reach my goal!
I bought an exercise bike last week and I've been riding it just about every day. It's from the Livestrong line of exercise equipment, and it is really sweet. It keeps track of everything, has lots of different workout programs, lets you upload your workout to livestrong.com, and the ride is very smooth. I'm sure it will become a chore at some point, but for now I'm enjoying it. It's a nice feeling to be able to exercise without feeling like I'm going to die right on the spot. If this small amount of weight loss is already making such a difference in my activity level, I can't wait to see what I'm like when I reach goal!
The next big step for me is in a couple of days when I get to start adding slightly more solid foods to my diet. I love Italian food, so the first thing I'm going to have is a meatball with a bit of marinara sauce. Well, maybe HALF a meatball. I probably can't eat a whole one yet in one sitting.
Heyyy Everyone wow its been a while since ive been on here! Lets see Things have been crazy this past year. I hit my goal weight of 135lbs back in February and now im 128 lbs as of this morning. I feel like i have so much more energy than i did in the beginning of this amazing journey! I want to stay healthy and keep up on my exercise routine. I noticed that exercising and the use of a corset have helped me keep from having a lot of excess skin i mean i still have a bit but it helps alot!
VST has become my life. I am on here all the time reading (and sometimes writing). This site has been more than I ever expected. In a couple of days, I drift off on a cruise and I am pretty sure I won't have full Internet access the way I am used to. I will write still but in my journal. When I return I will be in day 3 of my pre-op diet.
Quite honestly, I went in for my ECG and it showed abnormal results. Now I am praying this doesn't impact my surgery. The cardiologist has to read it today and I will go from there. I almost hate I asked for a copy of the results....it isn't like I understand it. I just read what was written at top....normal sinus rhythm, cannot rule out anterior infarct, abnormal ecg. I mean, I got the document so my pcp could see it on Thursday when I go in. I am near regretful I got it but I am hoping it is nothing beyond something that can get better post surgery. Praying it is not something that would prevent surgery. At the least, if there is something wrong with my heart, that it is something in the beginning and can be address. Overthinking.....got to be patient.
Hello fellow sleevers
So I am pleased to report that I got my approval today - the whole surgery is now paid for and I can just prepare myself now for this as it is going to happen. I even got to speak to my clinic today and they asked which time I'd prefer for surgery - I asked for the first one if possible. They said that they will put it on the file and contact me closer to the 3rd of September to advise me of the details, when to get to hospital etc.
it's just the best news! Everyone was telling me not to stress but I admit, I was totally stressed out. Not that if I'd been knocked back it would have stopped me, just delayed me a bit. But this way I get to keep to my preferred schedule It's not an accident I wanted it as soon as possible in September - I want to get myself healed and losing weight so I can swim this Christmas (it's summer in December in Australia). I wanna get in that pool!
I wanna play with my nieces and nephews...and to have more energy, better health and hopefully a better quality of life.
So excited - wishing you all well out there!
Today is a GOOD day!
So I started Turbofire a few days ago and I got up to 20 min of the HIIT done. (High intensity Interval training) I thought that was pretty good considering I havenot done anything to improve my cardio in almost afull year. Still trying to get used to the shakeology but it's not to bad. Struggling with my sweet tooth.. as usaul. I wish the dentist could just pull it. ) I posted a pre-surgey picture of myself on my facebook acount as well to help me stay motivated. Now I just need to get the eating righ thing back on track which has always been a struggle for me. I love to move so that is the welcomed part of my 2nd stage transformation. ANy tips on yummy healthy food is appreciated. Self labeled chocolaholic here. Diet.. you are the next thing that is getting a make over...but it seems so difficult doens't it? Still a work in progress but I've def. taken soem good steps.
So I started Turbofire a few days ago and I got up to 20 min of the HIIT done. (High intensity Interval training) I thought that was pretty good considering I havenot done anything to improve my cardio in almost afull year. Still trying to get used to the shakeology but it's not to bad. Struggling with my sweet tooth.. as usaul. I wish the dentist could just pull it. ) I posted a pre-surgey picture of myself on my facebook acount as well to help me stay motivated. Now I just need to get the eating righ thing back on track which has always been a struggle for me. I love to move so that is the welcomed part of my 2nd stage transformation. ANy tips on yummy healthy food is appreciated. Self labeled chocolaholic here. Diet.. you are the next thing that is getting a make over...but it seems so difficult doens't it? Still a work in progress but I've def. taken soem good steps.
Today I did something I haven't been able to for years. I ran. Actually ran TWO MILES, It wasn't fast by any account. In fact- it was more then double the time it took me to run the same distant in high school-28 minutes. I also twice as old.
I loved to run in high school. It was my ME time. I felt free and happy when I ran. I was a track and cross country star. Captain, MVP, All County, all conference,all state blah blah blah. I lived to run- I ran 6 days a week over 35 miles a week on average. From 7th grade thru high school,part of college. BUT that was over 25 years ago and I was 17. After college, marriage and three kids, and doubling my high school weight running wasn't so good or happy. I tried to run after my kids and it hurt my knees way too much. I had gain too much weight and it put too much pressure on my knees. There I was too fat to run, without causing more health problems. I was depressed when i got on the treadmill and could only run for a few seconds before my knees hurt, so stopped trying. My kids found this box of running trophes, metals and awards in basement. They wanted to know who's they were. They were very surprised when I told them they were mine. In fact they didn't believe me until they read the engraved awards.
So after losing almost 65 pounds, I decided to try it again. Ok I didn't really decide, as in ok I going to go run now. I actually just went up to the track to walk, put on the IndigoGirls and U2 in my iPhone ,and started to move. Music was too up beat to just walk so i started to run, and started my timer for a baseline. I really didn't think i would make it around the curve let alone a full loop on track. But... My knees didn't hurt. So after the first lap, I was like, wow, let see if I can do it again. I walked half a lap between the first mile and the second. I was tired and sweaty and had a cramp in my side when i was done, but I ran it. and then walk another 1/2 mile after to cool down. I may be a bit sore tommorrow, but I enjoyed myself, and it felt good to know I could do it. I have been doing Dance party with kids and walking, swimming and stuff. But this was the first time I tried to run.
Last time I ran- it was the Marine Corp Marathon 14 years ago- and that was the first race i had run since college 5 years prior, I did it in over 5 1/2 hours, When I finished the race, I was glad i did it but set a new goal of doing it again only in under 5 hours before I turned 50. I was about 175 pounds at the time( 20 pounds lighter then now). I remember going to the store to get a new running bra, I was a 38DD, size 16 ish, at time and I hear the women behind me snicker when I was talking about running the marathon with saleswoman. " she's running a marathon?,haha, how, why" pissed me off big time. So I turn and told her, "Yes, I am. I put one foot in front of the other, and just keep going,because I can."
So it was good realize today that I can do it. I it was a good feeling running again. Only 8 more years til I turn 50. I guess I need to start get myself marathon ready. Baby steps. First you walk, then you run, then you run a litle bit longer...it not out of reach.
hello everyone,
for those of you that have already had the procedure did you find it helpful to have someone stay at the hospital with you overnight or was it okay being left alone for the night? any ideas will help.
thank you for your time.
So this all started about a year or so ago, its been about 5-6 years since my last serious attempt to lose weight has happened, in that time I regained all that I lost and then some. I have psoriatic arthritis, chronic fatigue, and fibromyalgia which haven't helped all this just made it harder to lose the weight. Three days of walking every morning leaves me so tired that i sleep on and off all day the fourth day. this frustrates me. so after back and forth (in my head), i finally work up the courage to talk to my husband who agrees. to come to a seminar with Dr K. super nervous and of course almost back out. lo and behold. it's amazing, and while aprehensive, i make my first appointment with Dr K and get the scoop, so i opt for the 3 month track and the month of May whirls by and i try not to talk myself into eating everything in my path and justify it by stating (again in my head) in three months I'lL never again be able to eat that, and manage to lose 1 lb. so June rolls around 2nd visit which in insurance land is 1st visit and i get my psych, and NUT visit. NUT goes well, but I have been doning. Home work and already have been researching post dos and donts. My psych tho. Yikes talked myself into a panic attack, it was awesome. But made it through. Then 3rd (2nd per ye ole ins) and yay diet pills however the up side, really helped my fatique. And bonus lost 10 lbs. so now up to my 4th (3rd via ins) visit tomorrow and will. find out if all my stuff can be sent to insurance to get a surgery date.....more to come on the slow train.
So about 2 months before my surgery my loving Husband bought me a pair of pants. The size on the inside of them was indeed my size but you know how some stores sizes run much smaller than others. These came from one of those stores. So when I tried them on I couldn't even get them up past my knees. Talk about embarrassing and just making me feel like my life was over. Welp yesterday I decided I would try on those same pants (since my Husband has taken and hidden the scale I don't really have a clue what my weight is unless I go to the doctor). I figured the pants would for sure let me know just how much weight I have lost so far. Weeeeeell to my surprise they did fit and I even had to wear a belt with them because they were big in the waist.Talk about a WONDERFUL feeling. I mean when I left my house yesterday no one or nothing could've taken the smile off of my face. What made me feel even better is knowing that this is just the beginning and I have so much more weight to lose. I couldn't be happier about making the decision to have my surgery. What a life changing day yesterday was for me!!!!
Soooooo...It's four minutes before DHS opens and I can call them to see if my funding's been approved. They did say to call this morning lol - they probably didn't mean as soon as they openned but you know what I am going to give it a red hot go
Hoping for an outcome, preferably positive please! Will update shortly - using creating this blog as a mechanism for distraction until these last minutes tick by Why so slow, time???? You go fast enough usually!!
Two minutes!!! Gotta go Be back on as soon as I can....
Today we had satellite internet installed after not having anything but dialup since we moved in here a year ago. But it was time to either reup the lease or move, and the only downside to this house is the lack of internet access so we decided to stay and lock ourselves in a ridiculous 24 month contract with a satellite internet company. So now I have unlimited (kinda) access to this blog instead of going to my parents or trying to type on my Droid!
It's been so hot lately up here in NH! Or maybe it's not the heat that's so bad, but definitely the humidity! So I haven't been exercising as much as I should, trying to find that happy medium of keeping fit but keeping my MS happy too. I can't even explain my happiness and the change in myself since this surgery. I can now go to any store and shop any clothes, my energy is UNBELIEVABLE! What I can do now compared to a year ago, without having to stop because of my symptoms of my MS acting up is simply amazing.
Actually here's a somewhat funny story that proves my improvement. Back in Jan of last year I started going to the gym with my mother, this was when I started the WLS journey too. We didn't know a lot of the equipment and there was always a lot of people at this gym and they were VERY fit and we both felt uncomfortable trying new equipment in front of these people, especially with the poor layout of the gym. But one day we were the only ones there so I got cocky and decided I was going to go try that weird gliding thing (elliptical), well the setting was set WAYYY to easy and I was pretty much at a dead run and unable to stop. I only did this for about 1 min or 2, trying to figure out how to control my legs on it. Well, the next day I ended up not being able to walk when I woke up because of how it had affected my MS pushing my body that much. So I went through the usual IV Steroids and such to slow it all down and eventually we got back to the gym (a different one this time that was SO much better). I continued to use the elliptical, but a little at a time. And I wore my ice vest and a gel neck tie to keep my body temperature down. I would get so proud that I could go a whole minute on the elliptical, then worked my way up a minute or two extra a day at a time. Now we are able to go a full 30-50 minutes depending on the temperature of the gym and how I'm feeling that day. But it's a perfect example to people who are afraid to get to the gym or to exercise that it's not about going gung ho when you get to the gym. Take it slow and start small and add a little bit at a time. I continue to push myself every day. If I'm on the elliptical or my bike at home and I hit my 30 minute mark, if I don't have a nice even whole number on my calorie count or even my mileage mark I'll say to myself, go a bit further to make this number this (like if I'm at 235 calories burned I'll push myself to a full 300 calories burned). When I take my dog Tank for a walk up the hill I walk to a new further mailbox every time. Our walks are now a little over a mile away now, totaling a full 2 mile walk, and we live on a HUGE hill!
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, because the better I feel, the more I want to do. I love being able to shop anywhere for clothes. I've started to think about doing things that I couldn't do before because of my weight. I actually have gotten a job that starts next week as a nurse again after not being able to work for 2 years. It's just a temp job through the flu season, but I've scheduled myself 32 hours a week and it's a good test to see how I handle work, doing dialysis on my hubby at nights, going to school for 2 classes this fall to finish my RN, and working part time on the ambulance. The more I lose, the more I can handle I think. I've started thinking I want to do something that I couldn't of done at 391 lbs, and I think I may try ziplining...
A HUGE milestone for me today was buying scrubs for my new job. I was able to walk through the scrub store and was able to buy ANY scrub there. I was a LNA out of high school and became a LPN in 2009. So I've been wearing scrubs for a long time, and never did I have much of a choice. A 3X was too tight on me. I had started buying 4x and 5x from online stores. I had to try on tops to see what my new size was and depending on the brand, some Larges fit me, and most XL's fit well. Some of the fancier scrub tops with a sash under the bust were a bit tight and some of those I think I may of chosen a 2X if I had wanted them. But I chose one top and one bottom (a XL TOO!).
Talking to my aunt last night, I realized I am 80lbs give or take away from my goal weight. My docs have said that an ideal weight is 155, but with all this extra skin when I get to 170ish it may be my ideal weight until the skin tones up. I still see myself as a very heavy person, when I see myself in a bathing suit or in the mirror, even though I know I'm wearing smaller clothes, I honestly can't see a difference from when I was 391 lbs. When I wear clothes that fit well I can, but in a bathing suit or underwear I can't see it at all. When I shop, I will hold up a shirt that will fit if I try it on, but in my mind it's telling me that it won't fit. Isn't it funny how we have to retrain our mind in all these little ways!
So I wanted to share a recipe I found and tried on Spark people. It is packed full of protein and was delicious. I'll just post the link here, and I want to go post it on the recipe forum on this website for others to check out. http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-detail.asp?recipe=936067
Okay I typed myself out tonight. Take care all!
Hey Guys and Dolls, I know I am not the most frequent blogger but I am working on it.
I am day 6 post op, and I am actually feeling much better.
My incisions are still a little puffy and bruised but the pain is managed.
When I walk my stomach is a little uncomfortable from the movement,
and when I sleep on my side it is really uncomfortable.
I am able to only take some ibuprofen during the day and be fine,
however I do take my lortab elixir at night, especially when I was particularly active.
My dog has been making the walking so much easier,
in fact today I noticed I was able to comfortably increase my speed.
I think I may be ready to hit the gym soon. Which is a good thing before I am worried about lose skin.
Everyone keeps telling me that my age is in my favor and the fact that I am on the smaller side of people who get barbaric surgery.
But, to be frank I am still worried. Mostly that I will be uglier with the lose skin then when I was overweight.
Skin is not quite like elastic, which by the way I have never understood.
But I did some counter push ups today and I have been googling some home remedies...
Nothing too promising.
Alright so today is my first day in the pre-op diet and so far so good. I haven't felt hungry after the shakes but I am starting to feel a little bit shaky and with a headache. I am hoping that by the 3rd or 4th day my body has adjusted.
Well, my food addiction has turned into a WLS addiction. I just read and read. But the thing that concerns me at this point is the fact I want to eat everything in sight. No because I am hungry but to have a funeral for food. I know very well I can eat most foods after the surgery but I have this obsession with never eating sugar, pasta, cookies, ice cream etc. again. They are my weakness, my Achilles heel. I can go months without them and BAM! I fall off the wagon and gain 20 pounds back. This is what scares me. I gain weight sooo easily. To me, this is my last chance. But with that being said, I think to be successful this time is to get help. I am not really depressed but have days when I am just miserable and my diet reflects it. Then I hate myself. That needs to stop. I am finally admitting to all of you that I indeed have a problem. I need help. I cannot do this alone. No more telling myself I am weak. So, I am looking forward to the psyche evaluation. I am going to ask for guidance down the road. I am going to attend the group sessions my hospital has as well. We will see how this all goes... :-)
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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