I dunno if I can do this. Wow. This is more difficult than I thought it would be. I started over fine yesterday. Got up at 5:30am, per usual, had a few cups of coffee with half-n-half and Splenda. More coffee at work. At 10:00am, drank a generic Slimfast shake. Great. Everything was fine. No hunger. Lunch time -- had to work through lunch, but that's another story -- had my Lipton cup-o-soup chicken noodle (may was well say chicken BROTH) -- had two of those. Home at 5:30pm, had more coffee (per usual), dinner was another cup-o-soup, and another protein shake about 6:00pm.
I did fine up until 7:00pm. That's when the hunger become overwhelming. I had some clam chowder soup. I know I shouldn't have, but I did. That led to having a few slices of Swiss cheese, and just before going to bed at 9:45pm, I had five pretzel sticks.
Yeesh.
I don't even have a surgery date yet, and I can't seem to stick to a liquid diet. The surgeon reuires that I stick to a Medifast liquid diet for two weeks before surgery. I'm worried that I won't be able to do it.
Today's another day.
Okay, I had my follow up appointment with my dr. today. I have a surgery date!!! My surgery is scheduled for December 26th. I'm quit excited about it. Things seem to be going quite well. Now for the interesting part. Well, the tests showed that I have asthma, and I got a presricption for it. Yay! Then, there was this other little glitch. My stress test came back with some not so good stuff. Appearantly it was abnormal, and there could be something wrong. So now I have to get a heart cath, and I might need a stint. The doctor of my choice is out of town on vacation. He goes to church with me, and his wife is my voice student, and good friend. So, I will get this done early next week probably. But it sure doesn't sound that good. The dr. said that by the looks of it, I need to get this done quickly. So, now does this suck, or what?
First PB tonight- ate spaghetti too fast.
Had an entire weekend with ESA and not one problem eating!! I was careful!!
Last wed 11-9-06 had my first sliming- Pork got stuck!! Yuck- painful LONG experience.
Golfball feeling every 4-5 days if I eat too fast.
Im doing better with a group of people slowing down- still a problem at home slowing down!!
Today is a one of those days where I set and really evaluated things....Iam so ready to make a change in my life....I know that this is only the beginning of a life long struggle, however Iam a strong woman ready for the RIDE!!!!!
I'm thinking I want to push for 110lbs but is that too small? I have no idea. I gotta figure out how fit, how much fat% I want to have etc. I'm lost. I'm about to get into some serious body building and I need to figure this out. Is it even important to be a certain weight?
Saturday night I ate at Buca di Beppo.....Do you have any IDEA what that place is like??? :hungry: :hungry: :hungry:
I was pretty good (compared to my normal self).
I will be glad to get home. The best thing about this business trip is that I got to see snow.
The cravings are hitting really hard. Especially this afternoon. The is by far the hardest it's been. I can't believe how stupid I was to pick up the stupid cigarette, after being smoke free for so long! Stupid stupid stupid!
But this is the first step to getting my band. Dr. Jay won't do the surgery unless I am smoke free for at least 14 days, so this is part of it. I figure if I can get through the next 10 days I should be okay.
I go for my psych evaluation tomorrow at 1:30, and they called me today at 4pm and I have to say, that when I heard their voice, my heart stopped. I was so afraid that they were wanting to reschedule. All I could think of was if they want to reschedule, I'm going to crawl under my desk and cry. Thankfully, they were just confirming.:clap2: I am really excited about tomorrow! Then I just have the meeting with the nutrionist, and then the only thing that I need to complete before they can send the request to my insurance company is a letter from me. I am really lowsy at writing letters. I will have to look through this website to see if I can find copies of "suggested" letters.
Hello everyone,
I have decided to go Dr. Atul Madan at UT Medical, since Dr. Woodman charges an additional 500.00! I've did a lot of research and I feel comfortable with my decision. My primary care physician sent my letter of reccomendation to me today, so I have all the necessay paper work to submit to UHC. I hope everything is going well with everyone....until next time, type ya later.
Be BLESSED!
I have decided that today is the day I put a plan together where I can be either competition ready or beach body ready by May of 2007.
I am at the point now where I want to try my hand at body building. My Personal Trainer and I have developed a plan for me to be in competition readiness within the next 4 -6 months (amateur) if I do this to the "T".
Here's my plan:
Weight Training
My weight training will be consisted of a six day a week split, created and designed to put emphasis on each muscle group, individually and allowing me maximum recovery. I will train each muscle group once per week.
There will be alot of emphasis on my posture and form. I will concentrate specifically on the muscle range, squeezing my muscles through the entire full range. I will be using heavy weights and will not do just 3 sets but maybe 3-4 sets with lower reps..such as 8 - 10 on most exercises to maintain my muscle during my calorie restriction. Remember lower reps, higher weights bulk you and higher reps, low weights tone you.
Cardio
I will do cardio 4-5 days per week doing only 30-40 minutes of cardio per session at a high intensity level. I will be training on the elliptical and my bike and take some spinning, maybe treadmill as well. I may take some classes such as yoga and pilates to vary my workouts.
Nutrition
I will be on a strict nutritional plan, taking in a 35%/55%/10% ratios on foods. 35%-carbs, 55% protein, 10% fats.
I will be consuming slow absorbing carbs (value carbs) that are low on the glycemic index. Carbs like oatmeal, all wheat breads, broccoli, bananas, green beans, etc. My fast absorbing carbs will be consumed directly after weight resistance training.
Since we all know protein is the key to building and gaining lean muscle. I will consume lean protein meats such as turkey, chicken breasts, tuna and eggwhites. They will be low in sat fats and low to no trans fats.
Supplements are extremely important in this process (I read alot). I will be taking additional supplements which I know I will force down b/c i feel im taking in waaay too much now but...here goes:
Whey Protein
Phosphagen
L-Glutamine
Multivitamin
Creatine
Lipo6 - fat burner
Before & After
I will post a before picture (current photo) and an after picture in 4 months which will be current at that time.
Anyone wanting to participate with me on this, we can compare, research, share and take notes.
:angry Awwwwwwweeeeeee it HURTS and I cannot make it stop. Life has been reall good all the way till Saturday and forwhatever reason I now have pain in my left side almost under the rib cage. After reading all the threads of this thype of pain I am back on TOTAL liquids as of this moment and then I will decide if there is something more to this pain. I contacted my c0-ordinator and she tells me she will forard to Dr but I suspect there is nothing that could be done at this time according to the threads. No doubt I hate the pain but I may have caused it not staying on liquids exclussively so now I am and well see if the pain leaves. In the meantime - AAwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeee it hurts, and I want it to stop.
I have to go for bloodwork one for more tomorrow and then.....I have completed the list of requirements that the surgeon and my insurance company has. Then it will be hurry up and wait for answer from the insurance company as to whether or not they are going to approve
the lapband or not. I am nervous and excited about the surgery. I
hope I get approved. I want....I need this tool for weightloss. I am
miserable being this overweight. I definately am going to need the
support group afterwards to deal with my eating disorder. I'll be in
withdrawl from all the great foods I used to enjoy so much. :hungry:
Well, last night I dreamed I missed by appoitment and couldn't let the lap band. I was lost and couldn't find where I was suppose to go and it made me late so I couldn't get it done. I cried in my dream... I guess that tells me how bad I want to have this done. My son said he would be embarressed to have something like this done, but that he would like to have a skinny mom.
I went to a Meeting June 06 to see what was involved with getting a lapband at UW Bariatric Center. I got information and immediately made an appt with Dr. Miller for an letter of referral. I went to the next support group and gave Deanne my insurance info and the letter. She contacted me and told me a possibility my insurance would need verification of a medical supervised diet so I started WW.
Went in July to see the psychologit associated with the clinic. A 3 hour appt with a never ending multiple choice questionaire and talked to Gretchen for about an hour.
August went to see Diane the nutritionist. I really didn't learn much I didn't know about nutrition (just wasn't practicing it). I did learn about intuitive eating. She did pick up on alot of old "Dieting" mentality of good and bad behaviors.
Went to see Gretchen (psychologist) again. She gave me the okay to pursue the insurance aspect of the process.
First preauth information sent to Lumenos July 26th. I waited until end of August to contact them as they had said 30 days. They claimed they had never rec'd anything. I called DeAnne (administration asst) at Bariatric Center. She said it had been sent. I got a fax # for her and she sent it out end of September. I called a couple days later to insurance to confirm they had rec'd it. They told me another 30 days. So I waited. I received a letter from them end of October asking for verification and dates of what I had attempted in the last 2 years to lose weight on my own. Luckily I had the WW book to send and a letter from Dr. Miller that I had lost weight during the 3 months interim that he saw me. This was sent to Lumenos. On November 6th I received varification from insurance that they would cover the insurance.
I was so excited I called DeAnne right away and she hadn't gotten the Letter yet so couldn't schedule my surgery. I ran to a place that had a fax and called her right back. We schedule my surgery for 12/12/06. I see the nutritionist 11/14 for a group meeting of what I can and cannot eat and what I need to buy to be ready for surgery. I then have stress test done
November 20th and one week later I meet with the Nurse Practitioner and then the surgeon.
I am excited and scared. I got a living will all done just incase. My knees hurt so very much that it is almost impossible for me to walk. I do whatever I can to not have to walk with one of my co-workers as they leave me in their dust or else slow down to a crawl to stay with me. My husband never leaves me behind and I love him for that. I want so much to be a fun healthy wife, mom, and grandma. I want to wear stylish clothes. I know that at 52 I am never going to look fantastic and I am to old and not financially able to have plastic surgery but I want to be healthy. I want to get off my meds. I have also always had poor posture to try and hide my big boobs, so I want to work on those muscles to stand up straight.
I spoke to Jason last night and we are going to have the money for surgery in December. He cant tell me exactly when , but he does know it will be in December ! I have been speaking to Dr Rincon ( My surgeon) for months via email , I have yet to see him in person . So i called to schedule an appt for mid December , I thought he might be difficult to get into .
He tells me " Call me when your ready i'll get you in" ! I was very happy with that ! So now i just need to work on my pre op stuff ! That should take me a few weeks to get scheduled and completed. Which will keep my mind occupied and off of surgery so i dont drive my husband nuts ! . Then just wait for surgery . Doc said once i have that done its just a matter of days from when I See him to schedule surgery ! . OH GEEZ I cant belive this is going to happen soon. I NEVER Thought this would happen !
that's all for now
Sugar free has been my middle name lately. Pudding, jello and crystal light have been in the fridge and on my lips all weekend. I will continue to make this a wonderful habit.
I am excited about getting to 375 and 350. I turn 40 next July and I am ready. I pray that I get there healthy. I can see my body changing and I am excited.
I am in a silly mood today. I have been contemplating the changes that I can already see in my body. The truth is it scares me! I had got so used to despising my body, that I never saw the positives.
Mind you the only positive was that my breasts were slightly more plump! I have dropped down from a 42 to a 38. I can still see the roll of flesh on the sides of my breasts, but it definitely isn't as big as it was. But my cup size B is also reducing in size!!! I hope I don't lose all of my chest, now that really would be distressing. I have never been huge but what I did have I cherished! Mind you maybe when those little rolls of flesh also disappear it will balance out. I shall just have to keep my fingers crossed. I must look at the positive, at least I won't have what feels like 4 breasts!
Then there is my hips, my stomach is reducing! It's now more of a large pot belly instead of an huge balloon! I know it won't be to long until I will be able to feel my hip bones underneath the flesh! I think this is more a case of being scared of achieving what I really want to be.
I shouldn't be such a wuss!
It's alright to have off days, it's just not very pleasent!
Okay, so far so good. I've had some pretty harsh cravings, but haven't given in. As the craving hits, I just try to pretend that I'm on a surf board, and try to "ride the wave" all the way in. I know that the physical cravings only last 2-4 days, and there after it's all psychological. I quit before (cold turkey), and I can do it again. This is what I get for picking up a cigarette after being smoke free for 3 1/2 yrs. But this is what I must do in order to be banded. Not to mention the fact that it's great for my over all health.
My office is offering free workout classes twice a week. At 5:15 on Monday's and Thursdays. I'm going to go. I think it will help me through this. Not to mention it will help me physically.
My husband is very patient with me, and is being a huge source of support.
Well after dealing with all pre op appointments, getting my surgery date, and paying for the surgery I am now stuck with starting my pre op diet....I am being banded 11/20 which is only one week from tomorrow...I ahve to lose 5 pounds and everytime I try to start a diet I fail....I dont know why I cant be excited for the surgery and let that be my motivation....I almost feel like someone is taking all of my food away forever...Its ridiculous...I have no will power and I am very emotional....So, I have already cheated today so today will officially be my last day to eat so to speak....I am throwing in the towel and pressuring myself to stick with it starting tomorrow...I doubt I will lose 5 pounds pre op but at least a few would be nice.....
YES! Another lb. bites the dust. I don't even feel like im trying, its just happening now. Im sure not all the lbs are going to go like this but I've gotta remember this for when it gets more difficult.
I want Dorritos really really bad...at tacos, pizza, bread sticks, pickles, popcorn...the list goes on....Time for my protein shake. I am praying that I dont give in to just one teeny weeny dorrito......so far i have been absolutely cheat free!
So the last time I wrote I was whining about a tooth being pulled (still a little sore) well I had written that entry at 7 in the morning, I took the day off of work since my daughter was driving back to college and I wasn't feeling real great. We decided to go to lunch near the turnpike so we drove separately as we were going she was infront of me, there were 2 cars that were coming towards us, my daughter was a good 10 car lengths in front of me, anyway the car in front stopped to make a left turn, she had to wait for me to pass, the car behind her didn't see her stop until it was too late and rear ended her. The car in front spun around in front of me and I crashed in to her. What a mess! I looked up and the older lady was slumped over her steering wheel, she had been hit twice! I prayed oh Lord no, please let her be ok, I got out of my car and she looked up dazed, and got out of her car, she comes over to me and starts yelling at me, you didn't have your turn signal on! I said I wasn't turning. It took a while for her to understand because the car that hit her was in the ditch. Anyway they took the older lady in the ambulance, my daughter drove me to the hospital and the younger girl was fine. I have a broken knee cap. I thank God it wasn't separated just cracked across so they put me in a stabilizer (brace from my ankle to the top of my thigh). Next day I go to the bone dr. and what do you think is going through my head? My lapband surgery! Which btw I had just heard that morning before the accident from Nate and my date was set for Dec. 11th, so the bone dr says it won't interfer with my lapband surgery and I may even be out of the brace by then. All is well. They gave me pain pills, and I'm getting around ok, just get tired easy, which could be from the pills. Bad thing is my hubby leaves today for Philly for a week to work. Ugh! I am used to this - his working away - but when he told me I started to cry. It'll all be ok. Just keep me in your prayers.
I'm literally almost crying reading this. Mostly because I'mon this pre-op diet and these last two days have been difficult... but also because I needed this! Thank you! Congrats! And a BIG congrats on quitting smoking a second time! It was hard enough to do it once... So - when I say BIG congrats... I mean BIIIIIG congrats! ❤️
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