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lianna's Journal
 

169 lbs!!!

I finally made it to 169 lbs last week. Unfortunately I am still there, but I am thrilled to be down 60 lbs! Just over 1lb a week loss average and it would have been more without the damn plateaus. I am only 20ish lbs away from goal! Cant wait to be there.
lianna

lianna

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Bosteph's Battle of the Bulge
 

I am on my way!!!!

I LOOOOOVVVVVEEEEDDDD Dr. Jay's staff. :kiss2: :kiss2:   Dr. Cha is the best. She is funny and sincere. I feel completely comfortable with this doctor helping me on this great adventure to a brand new me.   I got my bloodwork completed, my medical records released and my pysch eval is scheduled for Wednesday. I am pumped.   I agree with my BF - once you decide it has to be NOW! I love my Cha Cha! :scared: We will be beautiful (we are now but just more) and live as BF until we are very, very old (and skinny).   I am scared of surgery but I will not let my fear keep me from having the life and body that I want. The part that really freaks me out is the thought of having a tube down my throat. It's a small price to pay for the chance to feel confident, successful and in control of my life.:clap2:
bosteph

bosteph

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Cha Cha's Journey
 

Changed Appt

Today, Dr. S office called me and said that there was a family emergency and he wouldn't be in this week. They would call me later next week to reschedule my appt. That was really really hard for me. After all the emotional ups and downs, I was really looking forward to my first Doctor's appt. So I called a different Doc . . . Dr Jay, which a lot of people on this website use. I was shocked when they said they could see me tomorrow morning at 9:30am. My BF saw him earlier today and she was very impressed. That was really reassuring to me. I might still see the other doctor when their office calls, but we'll see what happens.   I showed my hubby the website, and he told me that he had reached his decision, that he was in with me whole heartedly and 100% - Thank GOD (I'm sure the fact that they both graduated from the same College have NOTHING to do with it - go RAIDERS) That pretty much did away with some of the emotional stuff that I was going through over the weekend. I know my attitude was incredibly lousy, but this journal really helps me to get it out of my head. I feel a lot better about things today.   Why is it that once you make a decision to do something (after researching for almost a year), you are ready NOW!!?? It would make more sense for me to wait for the surgery until after the 1st of the year (time off from work), but at the same time I'm afraid our insurance may write this out of their policy. Well, once again . . . we will see :nervous
angelburch

angelburch

1
Bullwinkle's Journal
 

Well, Hell....

Out of curiosity sake, I just measured my height here at work. Barefoot, I put my back against the wall and used a pencil to draw a line. Then, I measured it with a yard stick.   All this time, I thought I was 5' 8". NOT SO. I am 5' 6", which makes my BMI 40.3 as of today.   For some reason, that really bums me out. Not so much the higher BMI, but that I am actually shorter than I was in high school. I WAS 5' 8" then. I've shrunk.   Crap.
Bullwinkle

Bullwinkle

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thickchickTEXAS's Journal
 

My TICK TICK is back!!!

Yesterday was my church's - Church Anniversary 114 years!!! :clap2: I've only been apart of the church for about 5 years now. In that 5 years I gained a best friend *Pastor's wife Karla M. Thomas* she passed in June of this year at 41 she left behind 4 awesome kids and 1 bad to tha bone grandson.   Her daughter Tick Tick got angry and didnt talk to me for 2 1/2 months :phanvan   But yesterday something happend she hugged me said she was sorry and she thanked me for loving her when she didnt want me to. She 17 years old her mom is gone she is the only girl. I look at her like she is my own, I can't even explain the many emotions that I felt when I held her and she said she loved me. :think     This makes me want to rush this Lap band thing even more I need to have more energy to help her and give her attention and time. :scared:     I guess I said all of this to say LOVE and SHOW LOVE to your loved ones!   If you were to leave this earth today, would you have someone to show love and care for what you have left?   TELL SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM, DEVELOP A RELATIONSIP WITH YOUR KIDS, TELL THEM YOU LOVE THEM ALTHOUGH they can disobey us we have to embrace them daily!!!   I never thought my bestfriend would have left me with such a task!   But it is well with me KARLA take your rest I LOVE YOU & I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN. :angel: :angel: :angel:   LOVE YA TERESITA AND DOUG-P
thickchickTEXAS

thickchickTEXAS

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christina c's Journal
 

Day 4

Ok today is Monday day 4 post band. i feel great. Drove the kids to school, and am just typing this journal. i have had some gass, not too bad. not as bad as when i had the lap-chole a few weeks ago. Let's see how time goes. I have lost about 9lbs to date. Yeah!!!!
christina c

christina c

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TakinThePlunge's Journal
 

Day 12 after surgery

I can't imagine this being any easier. I am all but free of any pain from the surgery and I can move at will. Course, the really big change is that I am no longer constantly hungry. I have added the shakes/SlimFast high protien with ice and mashed potatoes along with pudding and I feel like I can eat anything. BUT, I am waiting for the proper amount of time to go by and heal totally inside before I even try. Don't know what else I can say except my prayers and thank you.   315/301/210
TakinThePlunge

TakinThePlunge

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DouglasP13's Journal
 

does anyone have any true friends???

Okay, this has nothing to do with the lapband, but I just have to let it out. I have 2 friends that I consider my best friends. I haven't heard from 1 of them in over a week. And the other one, after we plan to get together, he makes plans with his other friends, ends up ditching me, then he shows up tonight to play in the band like he was on drugs. What the f*** is he thinking. I mean, he totally stunk tonight. Of course, he will never tell me that he does drugs. Okay, I know I sound like a prude, and maybe I am, but that's me. I have had other friends who were on drugs, and they were open about it. I at least knew where we both stood. If he would just quit lieing to me about that and other things, maybe we could get over it. Well, that's my rant for the night. Maybe my 'best friend' is still out there somewhere waiting for me....oh well, it happens.
DouglasP13

DouglasP13

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carmillejoanita's Journal
 

Changed Doctors

When I called the doc I realized the nurse telling me to pay $100 at the first visit and she said something else but I quite didn't understand. I waited the whole weekend and called back on Monday, what she said was the final visit I'll have to pay $3900 out of pocket! What the hell? Basicly my insurance covers the surgery but the doc wants $4000 out of pocket that they won't except insurance. I was confused and hurt. So I canciled my appointment and found another doc (Dr Shina). Come to find out they don't charge no phy fee everything is covered by insurance the only thing you'll have to pay is your insurance co-pay :clap2:. I was about to give up until something told me to give it another try. I feel that if I have insurance why should I have to come out of pocket. The first doc the first step is to go to the seminar then mail your paperwork then they'll call you, no complants there because they were super fast! But this second doc the semiar, paperwork. and the first doc visit and a few other things are all included so that way you don't have to go back and forth. I like that way the best. Tuesday Nov 7 is my appointment with the new doc I hope my insurance acts ok with this so that way I can get my surgery the begin of the year. I'll be back Tuesday night and let you know the outcome of my appointment.:scared:
carmillejoanita

carmillejoanita

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Cha Cha's Journey
 

ANGRY

I am very angry. I discovered that yesterday when my husband came back from getting his hair cut (we use the same person), and said "We were talking about you getting the LapBand, and she (the hair stylist) said she sure wished you could see a nutritionist before doing this". Something snapped inside my head . . . I actually heard it. It took me a moment to realize that it was inside my head and not something that my husband heard. The anger came out . . . not literally, but all the anger that I have kept inside of me for years and years. I've never been good at expressing anger because I have always been "the nice one". Whenever my family or friends want to do something I do it (whether I really want to or not), because I'm "the nice one". My Mother taught me that we always put others first (that's what Christ did), and everyone's feelings come first. So, whenever I have gotten angry in the past, I felt guilty and so I hid it. Well, not anymore. I told my husband that I did not appreciate him discussing my LBand with anyone else. It wasn't his to discuss. It was my decision, and I will choose who I tell and who I don't. I left to go get ready for this award supper for his 15 years at the company, which I cannot tell you how much I did NOT want to go. I cried the entire time I was getting ready. He came in about 20 minutes later, and that's when I let him have it. I told him that he needed to take a couple of days and decide whether or not he was really going to support my decision. He's either on board with it or not. And it doesn't really matter to me at this point. His decision doesn't affect mine. For the 1st time, I told him this was ALL ABOUT ME!!! I am tired of being fat, and fearful that each time I step on the scales I will tip the 300lb mark. I watched "The Half Ton Man" on the Discovery Health Channel yesterday, and my husband said, "I don't have any idea how people can get to that point". I told him I understood completely, and that I could get to that point so very easily. He said he didn't believe me, so I got up and left. People with addictions get that way. I have an addictive personality. Smoking and eating are my addictions. The truth about a food addict is that it's the one addiction you can never get away from. Smokers, alcoholics and people who use drugs . . . . once they get sober, they don't ever use cigarettes, alcohol or drugs again. When you're a food addict, you can't not ever eat again. It's the one addiction that you have to keep using.   Who am I angry with? Everyone and no one. I'm angry at my family and friends, the strangers I see at the store. I'm angry at me.   Last night was torture. I smiled, made polite conversation and laughed in all the appropriate places, because socially that's what they expect you to do.   Today, my husband asked me what was wrong, and I told him that I was angry. Not the yelling, spitting kind, but the kind that comes from way down deep. He asked if I was angry at him, and I told him that this wasn't about him, but me. I will talk with him about it when the time comes, but it's not now.   Tomorrow I go for my first appt with the Doc about getting the LBand. I told my husband I didn't want him there.
angelburch

angelburch

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KariK's Journal
 

Back At Work

Well I finally went back to work after a 6 month period of working from home. Boy its a mess! Im glad im finllay back. My baby is now going to daycare, and luckily she seems to be doing just great. I pick her up and she is happy and bubbly and her normal self. So at least I don't have to feel guilty about that. I planned on working 3 days a week but once I got there I realized I need to work 5 until I get my office back in order. I just really really want to get it running like a fine tuned machine. I can totally visualize the way I want it, I just have to keep plugging away at making it happen. Having employees is so difficult at times. I always feel like such a bully making people do what I want instead of what they want. But I realize that I have to navigate the ship or else it will be chaos. I pretty much made 50 % of my employees pissed this week, im sure the other half will be mad by the end of next week or the beginning of the following. Im implementing new procedures for efficiency and job tracking. For two months im going to have to police what I want done until it becomes standard procedure. I know im going to face a lot of grumbles and greif.. ugh! But I will carry on and make it happen. Ive been through this before and in the end everyone is happier because when the business runs good everyone benefits, customers and employees. I've been going out to lunch daily, having either cheese sticks or hot wings. Luckily I can eat these items easily. I love that when I eat cheese sticks im STUFFED after about 4. I need to check on fitday.com to see how many calories that is. For now, Im just making sure to get my protien and not be pigging out. I haven't been focusing on calories and such. I just have too much on my mind to have one more thing I have to calculate. Along with my business I also have 2 major construction projects Im tracking and keeping finances straight for. Also 1 other major one that is just wrapping up. And in addition 2 minor building projects. When I sit back and think about all that I am responsible for it makes my head spin. But I have time to sit here and journal so I must not be too over-extended. My husband has his Neuro-surgery consult the end of this month, im so busy I haven't been able to stress over this. If anyone reads this entry please say a prayer for my husband. Thank you.
KariK

KariK

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My Journey
 

11-5-06 "Last Supper" Weekend

Now I have been trying my best not to get the "last supper" itch and go crazy with eating "bad" foods, especially since I already have been working hard on changing my eating habits which have left me 6 lbs. lighter! Yet, this weekend....well, my boyfriend has been kind enough to indulge me and take me out for a few "last suppers." On Friday he made me a delicious pasta dinner complete with garlic toast and wine. Yesterday I had Portillo's fries for "lunch" and we ate out at our favorite local pizza place with a pitcher of beer, but hey, it was miller LITE! :scared: Honestly...it was fun and tasty while we were eating...but all of the junk food has left me feeling bloated, gassy and just not feeling that great...I am really happy to be making such a life changing decision.   In general, my family has not been very understanding of me deciding to do this surgery. Yesterday, I was really surprised by something that my mom offered to do for me! My dad and her are coming over to my house today and my mom offered to bring her home-made lasagna that I love since I wont really be able to eat like I have been, and she wanted to make something nice for me. I was really proud of her for the gesture and happy that she was thinking of me in the sense of this surgery!   Happy Sunday to all and wish me luck as I prepare for my liquid diet beginning Friday!
Veggestyle

Veggestyle

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Bullwinkle's Journal
 

Insurance

I keep reading posts on these boards about insurance, and the need to document the information I get from the insurance company. I guess I'll write it down here.   Thursday, 11-02-06, 6:30pm, I called the toll-free number on the back of my husband's UHC insurance card. After pushing a few buttons to get through to customer service, I talked with a man named LeLand. I asked him this question (straight from the paperwork supplied to me by Dr. Curry): "I am inquiring about my policy benefits on surgical weight loss. Is surgery for morbid obesity a covered benefit? In particular, I'm inquiring about lap-band surgery.” LeLand: "Yes, it is. Lap-band surgery is a covered benefit." Me: "May I please give you the code for this procedure and would you please check to see if this particular code is covered?" I gave him the code. LeLand: (After sighing and acting like I was a pest) "Yes, that code is a covered benefit." Me: "What information do you require before approving the surgery?" LeLand: "You have to have a BMI greater than 35." Me: "What else?" LeLand: "Ma'am, just have your doctor's office call our care coordinator and they will work out the details. This procedure IS covered by your husband's insurance policy." At that point I just thanked him and hung up because he acted like I was just a huge pest. What I SHOULD have done was stay on the phone and gotten all of the information from the paperwork Dr. Curry supplied to me. Now I'm scared that if I call the insurance company back, I'll "tip them off" that I want to have this surgery done, and they won't put me on the policy. My husband just enrolled me this past week, and I won't be effective until 01-01-07.
Bullwinkle

Bullwinkle

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Bullwinkle's Journal
 

I've got to get a grip...

I keep thinking, "What if Dr. Curry says that I'm not a candidate for this procedure? What if he won't let me get banded? What if I just keep getting fatter and fatter, until I end up bed-ridden?"   Yeesh. I've GOT to simmer down.
Bullwinkle

Bullwinkle

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sueol's Journal
 

November 5, 2006

Doing great. Just having a little trouble going to the bathroom. But just had some success. YEAH.. Feel better now. Had my check up with Dr. Robinson. Everything looked great. On the way home stopped off at my PCP to get a EKG, of course it didn't look great. I was having pains in my left shoulder, back and chest. After an ambulance ride to the hospital and a stay, I was sent home with a dx of muscle sprain and slight dehydration. All is well right know. Just pain in my shoulder when I use it or lift.
sueol

sueol

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DouglasP13's Journal
 

another one bites the dust.....

Well, I had my endoscopy yesterday. That was fun. I was all loopy and stuff, then when I was done I had to play for 2 funerals at church. Now that was exciting. The choir didn't know what to expect from me. I think I played the theme to Gilligan's Island. But I don't recall much of what went on. I do know that the choir had to keep reminding me where I was. I love playing with them. They are so gullable. Now Leigh Ann, don't tell your mama I said that. I wasn't talkin' 'bout her. Anyway, get this: my 2 best friends who I tell just about everything to don't even call and ask how the tests are going, or how I'm doing. Ain't that just nifty! One is on drugs, and the other just probably don't care that much, at least that is what it seems like. Oh well, I'm used to it. At least I have you all to make me feel better, and no I'm not writing this just to get feedback, I'm just sayin' it. Well, other than that, things are going wonderfully. I have a week off with no dr.'s visits and no tests. I just have to start my diet. I will as soon as I have time to go shopping. Of course, first I have to study all the literature so I know what to buy. So complicated!!! It happens. Well, I'm outta here. Lata guys and gals.
DouglasP13

DouglasP13

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Bosteph's Battle of the Bulge
 

Disappointed with my first appointment....

I had my first appointment last Wednesday. It was a disappointment. I won't mention the doctor's name because there are many people in this forum that have had good experiences with him.   Actually, I didn't see the doctor. I went to his appointed lab to begin medical clearance. I think the lab is a scam.   I am 36 years old, 5'8" and weigh 250lbs. My medical problems beyond obesity are almost non-existent. I have very strong family history to indicate that it is only a matter of time until I do have medical problems. For me, this is a preventative measure.   I have good insurance with no exclusions. Several women in my office have had gastric bypass or lap band. None of those women used this doctor.   Back to the lab... After a very brief examination, the testing that would be required was pysch eval (standard for my insurance), stress test (how could the necessity of that be determined without so much as an EKG??) and sleep study. :scared: The sleep study confused me the most. I questioned the PA about it. I didn't believe that this would be covered by my insurance (long story on my husband who had multiple sleep studies before having the sleep apnea surgery). She flipped through my chart and said "oh yes, your insurance will cover it". That made me feel strange!   I'm not stupid. The doctor has financial interest in the lab. The lab does all of the medical testing and is, incidentally, a sleep disorder clinic. Yeah, right!   I hope my Monday appointment with Dr. Jay goes much better. I did verify that he doesn't own a lab before making my appointment.
bosteph

bosteph

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Bosteph's Battle of the Bulge
 

Someday when I am thin...

I won't have to hold my breath to tie my shoes.:faint:
My pants won't roll down my belly - making me completely paranoid that my fat is exposed!!!:scared:
I will be able to shop for clothes at any store in the mall.
I will be able to wear cordurory without fear of my thighs starting a friction fire! :biggrin1:
I will be able to fly without "oozing" into the seats of my fellow passengers.
I will be able to sit down at the movies and my hips won't touch the sides of the seat.
I will break free of the cycle of self loathing and emotional eating and will be able to view my self as an attractive human being again .
bosteph

bosteph

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Cha Cha's Journey
 

Shopping

Last night I had to go shopping for something to wear to a company function. A very nice dinner at a very expensive restaurant to celebrate employees who have been with the company for 15 years or more (My husband has the 15 years, I just celebrated my 13th with the same company). I HATE shopping . . . absolutely hate it. I hate that I wear a size 24, or 3X. I hate that everything I try on looks like an something my grandmother would wear. I hate that everything "dressy" has sparkles and rhinestones on it. Is that supposed to draw the eye away from how fat I am? I hate that what ever is fashionable does not come in a size 24, or everything is in "Petites". Don't fashion people know that some fat people are tall? I'm 5' 8" and weight 285lbs. There isn't a single article of clothing that has ever been created that looks good on someone that size. So I settled for some stupid outfit that yells "Look at me . . . I'm fat". So when we go to dinner tonight, I'll look at the other people there who have a shape other than "round" and feel extrremely inferior. Oh well, it's how I'm used to feeling.   I can't wait to see Dr. Scott on Monday. If my insurance doesn't pay for this, I still have the ability to pay cash for the surgery (thank GOD).   My husband and I talked a lot Thursday evening. I was very blunt and honest about my feelings. He cried and said he didn't realize how much I was hurting. He is scheduled to have lasik surgery on January 5th, and when I told him that was when I was hoping to have my surgery, he said he would reschedule or even cancel his. I can't let him do that because this has been his dream for 10 years. My dream of being slimmer and healthier has been going on for over 20. At least his is scheduled and everything is settled. My surgery will happen . . . I just don't know when.
angelburch

angelburch

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Bullwinkle's Journal
 

And so it begins...

I made an appointment with Dr. Trace Curry in Cincinnati. I'll see him next Wednesday, November 8th, at 11:00am.   What impressed me so much about Dr. Curry so far - without ever having met him -- is that he answered an email I sent to him, and I found out later that he wasn't even in town when he answered it!   Wow. Talk about a doctor who has "checked his ego at the door"!!! I like him already.   Everything seems to be falling into place already. I'll be covered with good insurance starting January 1st -- and have found out already that they do cover this procedure -- and I have three weeks of vacation to use if I need it. I'm aware that Dr. Curry requires me to have a psychological exam, and I don't know whom to see for that, but I'm sure that he will recommend someone.   I'm excited.   And so my journey to being healthy begins.....
Bullwinkle

Bullwinkle

1
TakinThePlunge's Journal
 

Day 9 after surgery

:clap2: I feel GREAT physically and mentally. I am not being restrained on getting in and out of bed or chairs, movement is just as normal as it ever was and thats a big plus. Thought I would have to pamper myself much longer. I now am eating mussie foods and I even had a 1 oz thing of cottage cheese with some pinnapple juice in it :scared:. I am still taking my Zinnet and little pills but I think thats more because I was told to . My wounds are all but healed and they are no longer covered, dry and healing great. Oh, did I mention. I LOVE my band HU (Hardware Upgrade) I do not mind being a borg. I believe that with a great Dr like Dr Lopez and the strength/power of prayer this has been better than a dentist vist cause I never could handle the dentist. I have a small elevation in the middle of my chest where the band is but I suspect that with a signafigant weight loss this will go down and set better inside my body. IN the meantime it really is not an issue. I ate supper with my family last night (mashed potatoes and gravy and that alone was a major accomplishment, course they laughed at my portion but I got full on 2 oz of potatoes and 3 oz of gravy and I was through. I even went to bed at 10pm cause I was excited about seeing tomorrow. Now, I just don't get why I haven't read or found in this forum more success stories like mine, I just hope I am not blowing my own horn too soon cause being the optimist I am also has a piece of me that is pesimistic waiting for the hammer to drop but I hope never does and I continue to have pure success.   315/304/210
TakinThePlunge

TakinThePlunge

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