I Had A Cupcake :-(

heartfire · July 2, 2008

Was it good?

Okay, beside the point.

I'm going to ramble for a minute (or so) so bear with me.

Why do we have to feel guilty or mad at ourselves about what we eat?

As a fat person, having been on many diets and when not on a diet still trying to leave the junk and large proportions behind, we get into this mentality of "bad" food, "good" food. I think that is a bad thing. It messes us up. We have people telling us what we should and shouldn't eat, we have ourselves telling us we're horrible for putting X in our mouths and GOD FORBID if we ENJOY IT! We have people watching every move we make when food is in the building. Again, it messes us up!!

Why can't we (as a newly banded person, I'm not there yet.) eat our fruits and veggies and our protiens for the most part and enjoy a sweet (or salty) treat once in a while LIKE A NORMAL PERSON???!!! Why does it have any anything to do with being "good" or "bad?" Why can't it just be about finally enjoying the foods we are eating? Taking small bites (b/c you have to) and savoring the taste and the texture of the foods we are eating. Whether it's fruits, veggies, a steak, a chip or a cupcake? That's what NORMAL people do. Guess what? After banding, we have that chance to be those NORMAL people! We've never had that chance before!

We need to start changing our mindsets like we are changing our bodies. We need to work as hard on our BRAINS as we are on our PHYSICAL selves. It's not just our bodies changing anymore, we have to change our brains too in order to match what is happening to the physical.

I'm not banded yet. I'm hoping to be sometime this winter/early spring. I can't wait to be 'normal' again. And I really hate that term but that's how it is in society. I wasn't always fat. I have been now for the last 20 years. I've gained and lost a lot of weight in those 20 years as well. I remember what it felt like to be thin. I want that again.

I sometimes forget how fat I am (I know, hard to believe)! I am also reminded, often, of how fat I really am. I don't want to be fat. I hate it. You'd think I'd be able to control myself, I hate it so much. You know what? I'm damn hungry and I'm damn tired of being hungry all the time. That's why I'm going for the band.

Okay, well that took more than a minute but I think I'm done with my rambling for now.

Don't beat yourself up. Have the damn cupcake and enjoy it, then move on!

To be free · July 2, 2008

Just think about what you said A CUPCAKE..JUST ONE!! Thats great!!!

How many would you have had before the band? I don't know about you but if I could stop at one cupcake I wouldn't need to be banded LOL

Everything in moderation has always been the rule, it's just before the band I couldn't follow it....

You are doing great, no beating yourself up.....

nikon harry · July 3, 2008

You Guys & Gals ROCK !!!!!!!!!!! We are all here for the right reasons and for the first time in my life I feel good about myself and the direction that I am heading in !!!!!!! Thank You all For Being Here For Me and Everyone else in need. I will be here for you as well !!!

Have A Great Fourth Of July Weekend !!!

Harry :thumbup:

NoPBJ · July 3, 2008

Ok...so my question is...how did you feel physically after you ate it? I just got banded this past monday and can't imagine ever being able to eat anything without being sick. I know it is silly....but am not sure if i shouldn't eat something now b/c I CANT or because i SHOULDNT?

SeattleSweetie · July 4, 2008

I'm still on my post-op liquid diet, and I've been losing weight really quickly on it because I've been really good to get in all my Protein and keep my carbs pretty low, but I've been to Starbucks twice for a small frapuccino and even though they're a few hundred calories, I know that I'm making up for it because I'm doing so good elsewhere. I'm staying well under 1000 calories a day right now, so I know that 2 or 300 extra, just once or twice, isn't going to be a big problem.

Now that I've had a couple though, I know it's time to lay off for a while and make sure I don't start indulging too often. And honestly, I'm okay with that because I haven't let this big craving build up to where I cant control it and just go nuts.

Better to have one cupcake every now and then, than to let a craving build and binge on 10 of them at once when you finally can't handle it anymore!

You Guys & Gals ROCK !!!!!!!!!!! We are all here for the right reasons and for the first time in my life I feel good about myself and the direction that I am heading in !!!!!!!

As you should! It sounds like you're doing great. :thumbup:

Happy 4th!

Edited July 4, 2008 by SeattleSweetie