Okay! Why haven't I lost 50 lbs? I eat okay, I workout (not all the time, but doens't even joining the gym prove something?) And all these people banded when I was have lost 50 lbs...and they are taller than me, and smaller than me and you can really really tell, but me ME!!!! I have struggled so much with my 35 Damn it!

Not saying I'm not happy for my fellow fitness travelers but DAMN IT!!! DAMN IT!!! DAMN IT!!! I want to be three sizes down. My hips and belly haven't moved one size down it seems, my pants might be looser but the smaller pants still didn't fit when I went shopping.

I know that my band is working, but my body is not freaking coroporating and I'm just DAMN IT!! I want to post pretty pictures of my accomplishments. I want to bask in friends saying WOW you have really lost weight, instead I feel their glances on my body and I want to yell "I've lost 35 lbs I am just really really fat so you can't tell!"

Freaking Freak Freak Freak. I want to be supportive, I want to be happy for you guys. I am I really am. I just wish I was taller. If I was taller it would be more obvious. I wish I was taller and had long legs. I wish I was taller with long legs and a waist you could see. I wish I was taller with long legs, a waist, and those long graceful arms. I mean. Could a girl just at least be 5'5? Please?

AHHHHHHH! I am just so ANGRY! ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY DAMN IT! And to top it off, I have lost restriction, so I called my Dr. to bump up my appointment and they could only get me in 5 days sooner. So I still have almost a month to fight with this.

I am 329 when I started this and just above 5 ft, and I am still kinda young...I was expecting the weight to fall off, just FALL OFF and it instead it's kinda trickling slowly down, with maybe lazy stops along the way.

THe band is working, just I want it to go FASTER FASTER FASTER. Damn it!

Then there is bread. Did you know that bread is freaking everywhere and when I see someone eating bread I want to rip it from their hands and slap them in the face with it because my band doesn't let me have it (thank god) and I am seriously addicted to bread. And I want to yell at everyone eating bread around me.

Then their is my skinny minnie 95 lb workmate who eats EVERYTHING EVERYTHING. Shes sweet supportive and cannot gain weight, which I know is just as tragic as not being able to keep it off, but my dark side that has emerged since I got this band wants to kill her. And I Think she is the sweetest, kindest thing...and I want to strangle her. I'm such a bitch.

O and the salesmen who bring donuts and cakes and Cookies and sausage biscuits and put them by my desk for everyone. If you read about the psycho receptionist who blugened a co-worker to death with a box of donuts that is me. Maybe I will lose weight in jail. I hear they have a great gym, come visit me whenever you can.

I suck.

Edited May 13, 200818 yr by ReadySteadyGo
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Man, that sucks, LovableLynn. I had my first one four weeks after surgery, 2nd two weeks after that, then 3 weeks later for the third, and another 4 weeks to the fourth. I haven't had a single problem or overfill. There's just no reason for your doctor to be so stingy with fills. It's just sadistic, in my view. You are so excited to have the surgery, then BAM! The initial swelling subsides, and you're hungry again. I'm so sorry that you're having to basically do this on your own. Restriction is a wonderful thing. You will get it eventually. Just lay down and throw a fit in your doctor's office and insist that he get with the program and get you the help that you paid for!

Omigosh, Ready! I was so depressed over all my bad news yesterday, but now I'm holding my sides laughing! I loved your post! I am 5'2" tall and have longed to be 5'5" all my adult life. You are a talented comedian and have brought joy to my day. I hope your struggles will become easier, but I also hope you will keep writing. BTW, I used to be like your workmate -- 100 lbs and couldn't gain a pound if it chased me around the room -- and could never fully understand the plight of my friends who just could not seem to lose weight. Now I understand -- boy do I ever understand!

Linda13 is correct. You are a talented comedian, ReadySteady. Perhaps your should take your sarcastic witt to Vegas! "Perils and Joys of a Bandster!" That's a show I would pay big bucks to see!

June 18 :-(

Anyway your doctor could move up your appointment? I know the point you're at, I stuggled through mine for two weeks even though I knew I could just call the office and move the appointment. Now they scheduled me for 4 weeks cause I didn't call in on my own. They didn't know I learned my lesson fast this time. Heck, I'm almost tempted to move this one up if I keep on being hungry. It's not bad but it's no way to be. Give em a call, see what they say. Let em know you're ready to chew the leather off the couch. :confused_smile: